i have been dreaming and remembering, at least, vividly, since the last few weeks...most are about either tom, or about meghs bio father jason...the jason one was actually really nice...he was speaking in front of all these people incl me at some fair, up on a stage...he was talking about how he had turned around in his feelings about MW's and natural birth, etc. i was floored. i felt love for him in the dream, introduced him to megh... (she hasn't seen him since 9 mos.) and when i woke up, i felt love for him again... sigh...

: i was really HOT for him.
then last night i had a dream megh was missing...to make a long story short, she apparently went w/ some man named 'david' or she said sometimes his name was 'don'. she was playing chris cross w/ him and that's where she was. how freaky is THAT. freak! my worries over her being taken from me ever... i worry about all sorts of freaky things and i guess our subconscious kicks in when we are pg......so far, no baby dreams this time. just ex's and meghy...