My induction... *UPDATE post 16**

[maisiedotes]

is tentatively scheduled for next Thursday night with delivery probably on Friday afternoon. Yay! I know most of you would never go for an induction but at this point I just want to have this baby. I am really excited. I am waiting for a call back to see if I will be there overnight on Thursday or if they will give me cytotec and then have me go back in on Friday when things get moving. The OB said if the cytotec doesn't work she will wait a week because she does not want to make the baby come if she (the baby) is not ready to be born yet.

I am really relieved and anxious!

[Kontessa]

Um.... wow.... Your due date still seems a long way off to me.

[maisiedotes]

Originally Posted by Kontessa

Um.... wow.... Your due date still seems a long way off to me.

Our perinatologist recommend delivery between 38-39 weeks and I will be 38.5... plus I had a MAJOR meltdown at the OB's office today and told her I would really feel best with an induction. Weird, huh?

[Kontessa]

Hey what ever works!

I just keep thinking some of these late November babies have to turn into December babies as some babies really are not ready till 42 weeks!

[Tenk]

Not in your DDC

Hi!! Congratulations and Good Luck with your labor and delivery!!

One thing, have you looked at the research on cytotec? I had it with my first delivery, and didn't find this out until much later. Cytotec actually reads on the label NOT to be used in pregnancy. It has caused some major birth defects and even fetal demise.

I'm not currently pregnant, we are trying, and my last DC was stillborn at 38 weeks so I kind of understand where you're coming from. I will be induced by 37 weeks *IF* I ever can get pregnant again. I do wish you good luck.

[DeChRi]

Good luck with your induction! I can imagine it is a big relief for you to have it on the books and know your baby is coming soon! I'd second what the PP said about checking into the safety of cytotec. Thoughts with you as next week approaches!

[GinaRae]

I really really worry about you, but am supportive of whatever you need to do to feel better. Good luck, hunny bunches! We'll be here waiting to hear good news!

[Curlita]

If you have having that much emotional distress over waiting, then I am happy for you. I know how stressful this pregnancy has been for you and how anxious you have been to meet your little girl. I hope having the date set gives you some peace of mind and lets you enjoy the last week of your pregnancy. I'll be looking forward to pics of your little girl!

[dcgrl]

Maisie, that's awesome. You only have another week to wait! Will you be able to rest and relax beforehand?
Can't wait to see pics of the little one...

[Rikki Jean]

s to you.

I also want to encourage you to really do some research on Cytotec. I have this letter sitting right here in front of me: http://www.aims.org.uk/Journal/Vol13No3/searle.htm. Sorry, not trying to scare you, but I think it's important to be very, very aware of...

[maisiedotes]

I am secretly hoping to go into labor on my own before the induction. I have been struggling alot with if I even BELONG on this board because right now I don't necessarily share alot of the same beliefs as you all (well, i share them but at this point if they wanted to give me a c-section with no anesthesia I would let them). I will do anything for a healthy baby. I am going to look into the cytotec but I am also very confident in both our OB and perinatologist (I know what they say is not gospel but they are very good doctors). It is a big struggle for me, this whole thing.

Today I was looking for the consult from the perinatologist and came across the pictures of our son (I have only looked at them twice in the past 2.5 years- it is soooo painful) and I know I would not make it through that again. Right now, I look at it like this: she is healthy and is considered full term. I am sick with worry about every little thing. I want to hold her and hear her cry and at least when I am worrying about future things I will have a bit more control over it if I can see her and not wonder what is going on inside my uterus. It is hard to explain but any of you mamas who have had a loss would understand.

[DeChRi]

Originally Posted by maisiedotes

I am secretly hoping to go into labor on my own before the induction. I have been struggling alot with if I even BELONG on this board because right now I don't necessarily share alot of the same beliefs as you all (well, i share them but at this point if they wanted to give me a c-section with no anesthesia I would let them). I will do anything for a healthy baby. I am going to look into the cytotec but I am also very confident in both our OB and perinatologist (I know what they say is not gospel but they are very good doctors). It is a big struggle for me, this whole thing.

Today I was looking for the consult from the perinatologist and came across the pictures of our son (I have only looked at them twice in the past 2.5 years- it is soooo painful) and I know I would not make it through that again. Right now, I look at it like this: she is healthy and is considered full term. I am sick with worry about every little thing. I want to hold her and hear her cry and at least when I am worrying about future things I will have a bit more control over it if I can see her and not wonder what is going on inside my uterus. It is hard to explain but any of you mamas who have had a loss would understand.

I can't even begin to imagine, but I believe people make decisions based on many factors, some that people see and some they don't. You seem very confident in your choice and that it is best for you. I can;t wait to see pictures of your little girl next week.

[maisiedotes]

OK, I read the risks of cytotec. I am so freaked. And torn. As I said last week, I feel like I am walking around with a very large check and I want to get it in the bank before something happens to it. *sigh* My doctor is calling me later on and I am going to talk to her about all the options. Of course we both feel best doing what the perinatologist recommended... especially with last week's NST/Ultrasound scare. aargh. :

Thanks for the support.

[Curlita]

Originally Posted by maisiedotes

I am sick with worry about every little thing. I want to hold her and hear her cry and at least when I am worrying about future things I will have a bit more control over it if I can see her and not wonder what is going on inside my uterus. It is hard to explain but any of you mamas who have had a loss would understand.

My only worry for you is that you will keep worrying... there still seem to be things to worry about once baby is out of the womb... but worrying about a stillbirth is going to hit you much harder than worrying about anything else. Just please make sure you holler for some help if you are still this anxious and fretful once she is here and you can see her little face.

You deserve to be a happy mama -- which is never a worry free state, but I definitely wish you MUCH less worry in the future.

[pixiesmommy]

Oh please don't do the cytotec! I am so worried about you. Can they not do Pitocin or something?? I posted a thread about this awhile back. It's such scary stuff.
2 doulas I know said they were present for a Cytotec birth and it was the scariest thing they have ever seen in their lives... the mom almost died. There have been numerous maternal deaths, brain damage in both mom and children.... it's scary scary stuff!!!

Gosh, the last thing I came on here to do is freak you out- but I couldn't live with myself if I didn't say don't do it!!

[maisiedotes]

Update

OK, I have seen enough. I am not going to allow the cytotec. I am going to talk to her about other options for induction though. I am going to check out the sticky...

thank you all. I am so wrapped up in having the baby that I am not thinking clearly.

[monocyte]

pm for you coming...

[pixiesmommy]

I feel kinda bad : I don't want to add to your stress. I just know how muddled I am about things lately and I just couldn't NOT say something. I do wish you the best, induction or not!!!

Big hugs and well wishes!!
Manda

[TulikaEma]

Originally Posted by maisiedotes

I have been struggling alot with if I even BELONG on this board because right now I don't necessarily share alot of the same beliefs as you all (well, i share them but at this point if they wanted to give me a c-section with no anesthesia I would let them).

((HUGS))
I think we are all here because we want to do what is best for our babies and our own health (which is always a combo. of mental, emotional, spiritual + physical health in my opinion)--and we know that in order to achieve this we need to think critically and share each other's support. You certainly belong here, all of you posts show that you are working so hard to find the best way to make it through this pregnancy with a healthy mama and baby. And your best way will most certainly be different from any one else's, since (not to be trite) we are all individuals and have to follow our own paths. You are doing so well with such a hard situation--and we all support you and your decisions. Keep us posted on how things are going!

[Kontessa]

Originally Posted by maisiedotes

OK, I have seen enough. I am not going to allow the cytotec. I am going to talk to her about other options for induction though. I am going to check out the sticky...

thank you all. I am so wrapped up in having the baby that I am not thinking clearly.

Fear can make us do some darn stupid things! Your worry is so important though and no one blames you for wanting baby out now, safe and sound to hold and love. The how though is important and I am happy your looking into it at least this way you will make some hard choices but with a lot of information and can say you looked at everything you could and did all you could and then it is in the hands of a power greater then your own.

Whats important at the moment; baby and you are well. Smile ok!