My induction... *UPDATE post 16** - Page 2

[sorteep]

I think Cervadil is the *better* option than Cytotek and is approved for labor induction ,, but pls look it up... don't go by my word here...

In general tho... I am saying big prayers for you and your little one.. I just *know* she will be safe in your arms soon... try to look deep into your heart and base your decision on what you feel there, it is usually the way to go

Your situation is very unique and you have to base your decisions on YOU not anyone else.. so don't worry about what anyone else would do.. it HAS to be what is right for YOU..

continued hugs and prayers to you
Laura

[yogachick79]

Aw hun we are all here for you no matter WHAT! I am glad that you are doing research and am sure that they will figure out another way like doing a drip of pit, or even trying to strip your membranes to get things moving. Cytotec is def not your only option (or at least shouldn't be) and hopefully the doc will have some good thoughts on that.

But no, I can't begin to imagine what you have been through in the past, and the stress and worries it would cause for this pregnancy. You need to do what is best for you and for the babe and right now it sounds like all parties are okay with getting her out, just the method needs to be discussed more.

Lots of love to you, really.

[bobandjess99]

I agree that cytotec is really a very dangerous way to induce, and that looking at an alternative way to induce is probably the better option, but I totally understand you WANTING to induce......I can not imagine a 35 week loss, so I completely sympathize with you wanting to hold your baby and have her/him earthside.......
Hopefully you will be able to work something out and come up with a safer plan to get your baby here!!
Good luck!

[StacieM]

I've also heard/read things about that Cytotec. I had a cervadil and that worked just fine. I don't know much about that one either, but I just know I've heard and read lots more warnings about the Cytotec.

I hope you have a great birthing experience however it goes.

[Curlita]

Just to echo what others have said... we are here to support you and because we care about you, not because we have particular agendas. There are lots of differing opinions on this board, but one of the things I've enjoyed about it the most is that there is no judgment.

[GearGirl]

I know I don't really know how you feel, but everything in me tells me that I would feel EXACTLY the same way as you. I would want to be induced, I would want the baby out, and I really truly believe that i would not be able to enjoy a minute until I had the baby in my arms. I know you don't know me, but I just wanted to say I support you 100% here, and I think you are very brave. There are many ways to induce, I hope you can find the best one for you and your daughter!

[maisiedotes]

Originally Posted by Mom2JandG

I know I don't really know how you feel, but everything in me tells me that I would feel EXACTLY the same way as you. I would want to be induced, I would want the baby out, and I really truly believe that i would not be able to enjoy a minute until I had the baby in my arms. I know you don't know me, but I just wanted to say I support you 100% here, and I think you are very brave. There are many ways to induce, I hope you can find the best one for you and your daughter!

Thank you. You know what would solve everything? If I would just go into labor on my own!

[Tenk]

I just wanted to jump in one more time, and agree with PP that you should ask for the Cervadil instead of Cytotec. The risks are just so much less with it. If I had known what I know now, I would have NEVER allowed them to use the cytotec EVER. My labor was the most painful, horrible experience I've ever had. The next 3 labors were SOOOO much easier with cervadil instead.

Again, I can only imagine how tough this is for you. I haven't made it past 6 weeks with a pregnancy since Kamryn passed away in March 06, and I know I'm going to be exactly where you are with the stress *IF* I ever do get to carry another baby. I (like I said before) will be induced by 37 weeks if I can carry another pregnancy, and the reason they would do it so early is b/c the stress alone of going to the 38th week (when Kamryn passed) would be more than the baby OR I needed during such a vital time. I wish you the best of luck, and I'm sure you'll have a healthy baby in your arms very soon!!!

[Grace24]

Well in that case I am sending you ELV's@! (I'm not that powerful though so don't hold your breath!)

I'm sorry you're anxious but I want to tell you that you do belong here! We don't all have the same exact views on each and every issue, we're individuals. What we all want is a healthy baby and to be the best parents we can. My heart breaks for you whenever you mention your son and what you guys have been through and you need to do what's best for you and your family now.

That said, I'm really glad you read about cytotec... there are many other ways to induce. Just take care of you!

Big 's!! Keep us posted, we care about you hon.

[isosmom]

Thinking of you, mama, and hoping that you do the best for yourself and babe. I cannot imagine the worry you are going through right now, but you still have choices and time to make the one that is right for you.

[ComfyCozy]

Maisie, I'm so glad there's a light at the end of the tunnel for you now. I hope you go on your own, too, but if not, that's okay. You're going to make the best decision for you, and in the end you'll have your sweet daughter in your arms.

[Dee-Groovy]

Labor dust coming your way! Well apparently someone has my labor dust right now anyway...

Good luck Maisie - I do think you belong here and I love reading your posts. You're coming from a different perspective than most of us because of your past experience. I don't blame you for wanting the baby out and I'm glad you looked into the risks of cytotec. Good luck talking to the OB & peri about other options - it never hurts to be informed!

[Googy]

Originally Posted by maisiedotes

I am secretly hoping to go into labor on my own before the induction. I have been struggling alot with if I even BELONG on this board because right now I don't necessarily share alot of the same beliefs as you all (well, i share them but at this point if they wanted to give me a c-section with no anesthesia I would let them). I will do anything for a healthy baby. I am going to look into the cytotec but I am also very confident in both our OB and perinatologist (I know what they say is not gospel but they are very good doctors). It is a big struggle for me, this whole thing.

Today I was looking for the consult from the perinatologist and came across the pictures of our son (I have only looked at them twice in the past 2.5 years- it is soooo painful) and I know I would not make it through that again. Right now, I look at it like this: she is healthy and is considered full term. I am sick with worry about every little thing. I want to hold her and hear her cry and at least when I am worrying about future things I will have a bit more control over it if I can see her and not wonder what is going on inside my uterus. It is hard to explain but any of you mamas who have had a loss would understand.

Maisiedotes,
I couldn't not respond to this. I think that considering your history it is COMPLETELY understandable that you want this baby out as soon as possible. I felt the same way with DD--after a loss you don't trust your body anymore to keep your baby safe. You worry constantly that something is going wrong and that you don't know it. Even movements don't make you feel better, because you worry that she is in death throes or something. You just need to SEE her so you can know she's OK. Oh sweetie, I've been there, and I know the fear and panic that you are experiencing.

If it makes you feel better, I was never a paranoid mother. Once she was out I was calm and confident. It was just pregnancy that freaked me out. The excessive worry stopped after DD was born. I trusted myself as a mother--I knew I could take good care of my baby. I just didn't trust my uterus, you know?

Also, if its any consolation, I have been, for the most part, much calmer and self-assured this pregnancy than I was with DD. DD was born strong and big and healthy, and she showed me that my body CAN grow a baby successfully.

Nothing but support and big hugs here--please keep us all posted on everything--I've been thinking about you a lot as you go into your last few weeks--I remember how emotional it was for me passing the time when I lost my first...

[bri276]

this is totally different- and I don't belong in this ddc- but I felt very similar in my last weeks of pregnancy. I would cry hysterically telling DH I was afraid the baby would be stillborn. no one knew how to react to me because there I was, full term, and not wanting to buy onesies or diapers because I never believed I was bringing a baby home. I would check dd's heartbeat or push my stomach to make her kick all the time to see if she was still alive. I did EVERYTHING to induce naturally (except cod liver oil, couldn't handle the idea of diarrhea)- I walked a lot, had sex a lot, did nipple stimulation, ate pineapple, etc. Finally at 41 wks I had a total meltdown on the phone with my midwife. I was sobbing and I insisted on being induced.

The good thing was that all my natural labor induction techniques, especially, I believe, the nipple stimulation, had helped me dilate to nearly 5 cm by the time I went in to be induced. DD was born 13 hrs later and while she wasn't stillborn, thank God, she does have special needs and I think I knew something was going to happen to her if I didn't get her out. I truly believe that.

So, while that's not the same because I'm sure your baby will be born perfectly healthy, I do know the panicked feeling of wanting to just touch and hold your baby. I hope you try every natural induction technique you can handle over the next week, if nothing else it might ripen up your cervix so you can lessen your chances of a c-section. good luck!

[scheelimama]

I was induced with cytotec with my first and it was a miserable experience. I would not ever recommend it to anyone! But after reading all the research/warnings, I especially don't want to see you use it, since it can cause rupture/stillborn/and many other problems. There are much safer ways to induce. And I don't blame you one bit for wanting to induce. I've not walked in your shoes, but I'm pretty sure I would want to do the same if I had been through what you've been through.