Cross-posted in the Homebirth Forum.
Since we decided on a homebirth, I've felt very comfortable with the decision, so much that I decided to end the relationship with the CNM/OB place I was going to when I first found out I'm pregnant.
Now, last night I went to my first LLL meeting. While there I met a woman who's an LLL leader and a doula (call her B). She's worked with both my MW and the CNM's at the practice I was at before. She asked if I had a back-up plan, was I still going to have some care with the CNMs? She suggested it might be a good idea to keep them on, in case something does happen, I'm not at the mercy of "whoever's at the hospital we make it to." She says the CNMs (esp one in particular, A) are really great about striving to make a hospital transfer as HB like as possible.
Now, I'm very comfortable with my CPM. She's attended ~350 births, 5 of which were hospital transfers, only one for a c-section (a woman who had a septum in her uterus). Her partner, and back-up has attended many many births and has a similar record. I feel confident that it will work out ok... But I can't help but think (a nagging thought) that what B said has some validity. IF I do have to transfer, then someone who knows what I want would be better than whoever they have on staff.
BUT, I'm also very conscious and very aware (in my spiritual/physical view) that opening yourself to doubt can be the first step in something taking a wrong turn. My thought is that if I proceed with confidence in my CPM, not letting the doubt get to me, then things will go well. If I continue on with co-care from the practice, then that leaves me more open to the possibility that I will need them. Whereas, if I didn't co-care, that would leave me with less possibility of needing them.
This whole pregnancy has gone really smoothly for me. I feel part of that is due to the positive attitude I've had that I can, in fact, do this (part of it is also due to, I feel, good birthing genetics, my maternal gram had 8, my paternal gram had 7 amd my mom had 8 kids...). I am not sure that having co-care would be conducive, to keeping this mentality, but now that the notion's been brought up, I am starting to wonder. I don't want it to turn into doubt, so I guess I need some reassurance, wisdom, guidance, etc... What do you all think?
Since we decided on a homebirth, I've felt very comfortable with the decision, so much that I decided to end the relationship with the CNM/OB place I was going to when I first found out I'm pregnant.
Now, last night I went to my first LLL meeting. While there I met a woman who's an LLL leader and a doula (call her B). She's worked with both my MW and the CNM's at the practice I was at before. She asked if I had a back-up plan, was I still going to have some care with the CNMs? She suggested it might be a good idea to keep them on, in case something does happen, I'm not at the mercy of "whoever's at the hospital we make it to." She says the CNMs (esp one in particular, A) are really great about striving to make a hospital transfer as HB like as possible.
Now, I'm very comfortable with my CPM. She's attended ~350 births, 5 of which were hospital transfers, only one for a c-section (a woman who had a septum in her uterus). Her partner, and back-up has attended many many births and has a similar record. I feel confident that it will work out ok... But I can't help but think (a nagging thought) that what B said has some validity. IF I do have to transfer, then someone who knows what I want would be better than whoever they have on staff.
BUT, I'm also very conscious and very aware (in my spiritual/physical view) that opening yourself to doubt can be the first step in something taking a wrong turn. My thought is that if I proceed with confidence in my CPM, not letting the doubt get to me, then things will go well. If I continue on with co-care from the practice, then that leaves me more open to the possibility that I will need them. Whereas, if I didn't co-care, that would leave me with less possibility of needing them.
This whole pregnancy has gone really smoothly for me. I feel part of that is due to the positive attitude I've had that I can, in fact, do this (part of it is also due to, I feel, good birthing genetics, my maternal gram had 8, my paternal gram had 7 amd my mom had 8 kids...). I am not sure that having co-care would be conducive, to keeping this mentality, but now that the notion's been brought up, I am starting to wonder. I don't want it to turn into doubt, so I guess I need some reassurance, wisdom, guidance, etc... What do you all think?
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:. I do feel that my best mindset is to approach the birth positively rather than with a what if...
