I was thinking last night.....

[mykdsmomy]

My life would be so much easier if we just went with the flow. If I complied with all the rules and caved in to the majority of society, I would have so much less stress.

If we vaccinated our children, we wouldnt have to deal with all the opposition. If they came down with illnesses, we could just go to the dr., get some antibiotics and deal with it.
If we ignored all the Monsanto stuff, we could just eat whatever we wanted ...that was labeled "healthy" and be ok!

I'm so grateful for all the info on vaccines. I'm so grateful for all the people who have spent countless hours/years researching...and not just on the internet...but people who actually had to do the legwork and get the info by traveling or spending hours in the library....interviewing eye witnesses, scientists, journalists, etc.

BUT.....now that I know the truth...now that I know that keeping my family healthy and safe means going against the grain, and facing opposition and God forbid jail time....., it makes me tired. It makes me sad. I just want to go back to feeling like I was doing the right thing by doing what everyone else was doing.....but it's too late. I've seen the light.....but why am I not more at peace about it? I fear the future of non vaxers. I fear the future of anyone who questions the medical community..... just my thoughts....

[lauradbg]

[Pariah]

Ignorance really IS bliss.

[MelKnee]

I'm right there with you.

[tammyswanson]

But, don't forget: Dead fish go with the flow.....

[CanidFL]

I feel for you. I know how you feel and how hard it is going against the grain. I get all worked up when talking to family and friends about my decisions it's just exhausting. I hope you are feeing better and know that you are doing the best for your children.

Originally Posted by mykdsmomy

If we ignored all the Monsanto stuff, we could just eat whatever we wanted ...that was labeled "healthy" and be ok!

To be honest I have no idea what this means and I'm afraid to look it up!

[angie7]

I agree with you, life would be easier if we didnt have a mind of our own and just followed the rules like a puppet...

[MoonWillow]

You're thoughts have hit the nail on the head of what I am sitting here feeling at this very moment. Add to that my frustration with getting tongue tied in the face of opposition and I'm right there with ya.... . You are not alone and thank you for putting my thoughts to words because I am too tired.

[Spy]

Originally Posted by angie7

I agree with you, life would be easier if we didnt have a mind of our own and just followed the rules like a brainwashed zombie...

Very true. But the easier life is not worth the health of our children...

And it DOES get easier.

[lastrid]

I agree, life would be "easier," but I feel like my life is better now. I just remind myself of that and it's worth all of the hassle.

[youmb00]

Originally Posted by tammyswanson

Dead fish go with the flow.....

that's awesome. I never heard that before but that sums it up so well.

Feel the same way here, much as I'm glad I'm protecting my baby, everything seems so much easier mainstream. Every time I hear someone's having a baby I want to share what I know but I'm afraid to say anything.

[Jasmyn's Mum]

My knowledge is a blessing and a curse but I wouldn't trade it for anything. We are reversing decades of misinformation. That isn't easy but when I think of how my dd will be so much healthier, it makes me feel all the more determined to learn more. That being said I know how you feel.

[LavenderMae]

I know how you feel. Sometimes the uphill battle gets overwhelming.
It might be easier for me if I could convince myself that the mainstream was right but then my life would be based on denial. I think that would be harder in the long run and definitely at my children's expense.

[13Sandals]

you are strong! be thankful you committed to your research before anything happened to your precious children...i let the state of NY bully me because I didn't understand my rights. sitting with that knowledge is far less comfortable than going against the grain now.

[LavenderMae]

Originally Posted by 13Sandals

you are strong! be thankful you committed to your research before anything happened to your precious children...i let the state of NY bully me because I didn't understand my rights. sitting with that knowledge is far less comfortable than going against the grain now.

No doubt.

[JesseMomme]

I feel like it's getting harder!

Just commiserating It seems like the BS I deal with b/c I don't just "do as I'm told" has gotten worse for me over the years....though at least most family members have given up and accepted that I'm going to be "wierd" about (fill in the blanks) and don't try to argue.

Though that reminds me my mother recently delighted in telling me the "news" that if we have to travel overseas with Dh next year then I "HAVE TO vaccinate" the kids. I just smiled and said "I'll be looking into it".

[MsLondon]

I completely understand how you feel. How much easier it would be just to go unquestionably with the flow.
But once you open your mind theres no going back and though it can be tiresome dealing with the opposition, its very empowering to take charge of your own childrens health decisions, based on being educated and informed.
When I research, I feel like its having another job! But instead of getting paid, Im getting something else much more important - knowledge.
Im told it gets easier in reaching that 'peace with your decision' stage. I hope so.

[luminesce]

I've felt this way for a very long time, not just about vaccinations, but in various walks of life. It seems like a lot of the experiences I encounter (health, religion, experiences in the work force -- and now parenting) lead me to conclude something different than mainstream. I've even briefly considered if it could partially stem from some innate desire to be rebellious - but, ultimately, I am just honestly different - and sometimes a bit arrogant.

I can't count how many times I've told my DH that I sometimes wish I could ignorantly go along for the ride in life. But, I don't really mean it.

[lauradbg]

I just think it's a slippery slope . If you begin to question in one area, it can tend to lead you to question other areas and soon you're just a homebirthin', cloth diapering, extended breastfeeding, co-sleeping, traditional food eating, homeschooling, no vaxing, no circing freak. It's hard to see the clothes once you know the emperor isn't wearing them!

[Gitti]

Most people get hit with the truth every so often, but they simply brush it off and go on with life.

Some of us don't.

I also wish we could just believe everything that we read or that the 'experts' tell us. Gosh would that be great. But we can't. I am lucky that I have all my family on the same side. The only thing sad about that is that when my grown up kids all get together there are a lot of serious discussions going on and very little kidding around.

I miss that more than anything.