...since my father died. While the overwhelming pain and anxiety has begun to fade, I am still consumed with thoughts of his sudden and untimely death. What makes coping with the grief even harder is the recent news that my mother has cancer (AGAIN) and that my uncle has lymphoma. And did I mention that my grandfather (my mom's father) fell and broke his hip? My poor family has had just about all the bad news can take for one year!
But at the same time, I won't allow myself to wallow it pity or feel like I've been dealt an unfair hand in life. Especially when I know that so many peoples lives have been impacted by the tragedies of war, famine, and natural disaster. My problems just seem trivial when weighed against the problems of the world...
All the same, it doesn't make dealing with the day to day stuff any easier.
Right now I'm not sure how thanksgiving is going to work. It's bad enough to be celebrating it without my father, but now there is more stress to contend with. We usually travel to Indiana (where both my and dh's families live) and visit with my extended family at my uncle's house and then go to dh's brother's house too. However, dh's brother wouldn't cooperate with the time of thanksgiving dinner, so they are practically at the same time, but in two different cities over an hour apart. I'm inclined to say "screw them!" and just be with my family, especially since I don't know who might be with us next thanksgiving. Dh is frustrated with his family and kind of feels the same way. But part of me also doesn't want to be rude or start anything we will regret later.
I'm sorry...this is a rambling mess. I just had to get some thoughts off my chest. Thanks for listening...
But at the same time, I won't allow myself to wallow it pity or feel like I've been dealt an unfair hand in life. Especially when I know that so many peoples lives have been impacted by the tragedies of war, famine, and natural disaster. My problems just seem trivial when weighed against the problems of the world...
All the same, it doesn't make dealing with the day to day stuff any easier.Right now I'm not sure how thanksgiving is going to work. It's bad enough to be celebrating it without my father, but now there is more stress to contend with. We usually travel to Indiana (where both my and dh's families live) and visit with my extended family at my uncle's house and then go to dh's brother's house too. However, dh's brother wouldn't cooperate with the time of thanksgiving dinner, so they are practically at the same time, but in two different cities over an hour apart. I'm inclined to say "screw them!" and just be with my family, especially since I don't know who might be with us next thanksgiving. Dh is frustrated with his family and kind of feels the same way. But part of me also doesn't want to be rude or start anything we will regret later.
I'm sorry...this is a rambling mess. I just had to get some thoughts off my chest. Thanks for listening...
