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post #21 of 34
12/13/07 at 1:10am
Peace and healing mama.....I cant imagine.
post #22 of 34
12/14/07 at 8:40pm
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Originally Posted by binkin View Post
I've had two awful days in a row. Tonight I just can't sleep. All I can do is lay there while my thoughts race, and I see her as she was at the end in the hospital, and think about how I regret not asking her a lot of questions I'd have liked to about her childhood, and just how much it hurts. I don't really know what to do. I feel destroyed right now. I just needed to vent.

Losing a mother is so hard. In ways it was even harder than losing our son. It WILL get better with time, and the things that hurt so much will start to hurt a little less, plus be much more spread out, plus they'll begin to be balanced with good thoughts, good memories, and feelings of peace and acceptance.

It just takes time. In the meantime, do your best at trudging through. There is no right way to feel, or a right amount of time to feel it.
post #23 of 34
12/14/07 at 11:16pm
How are you doing, Binkin?
post #24 of 34
12/14/07 at 11:42pm
Thread Starter 
Today was mostly OK. AF showed up so I was really disappointed but actually alright about it. This week in general has been pretty hard for me. I guess it just seems more real now and I don't think it hurts more than it did at first, but it's a different hurt now. DH is being really patient and wonderful. I still don't feel like I'll ever feel good again, but I know that will pass.

I really, really miss my mom, though. I just keep thinking what a great person she was and how many things she did for us. I'm glad that in the past couple of years I'd been able to tell her I recognized that, but I don't think I told her enough. I want more time.

So... hanging in there, I suppose. How are YOU doing, Katie? I have been thinking of you and praying for you guys.
post #25 of 34
1/2/08 at 12:27am
Thread Starter 
I am having a really hard time today. I miss my mum a lot. I haven't felt like really talking about the loss lately, with the holidays and everything. Because of the snow and bad weather, my grief counselor had to cancel our last appointment, so it's been a while since I feel like I've had an outlet, so I just had to say something. My mom's birthday is 1/6... coming up and it's going to be really hard for me. I realize time will help but it just hurts, and I've been really depressed... nothing's getting done here. I just can't see the way out of it right now, but I know eventually this will pass and I'll enjoy things again. It would be easier if she were here to help me. :
post #26 of 34
1/2/08 at 1:00am
My heart aches for you, Binkin. I could write your post almost verbatim. Now that Christmas has passed, I'm in a total depression again. It's hard missing your mom when she's the one you'd normally go to when you're feeling down. I'm praying for you.
post #27 of 34
1/4/08 at 9:58pm
I'm right there too binkin - my mom passed away on the 30th of December. I'm still kind of numb, yesterday was hard. I just feel kind of lost without her.
post #28 of 34
1/5/08 at 1:35am
s, binkin. It WILL get better.
post #29 of 34
1/5/08 at 2:01am
post #30 of 34
1/6/08 at 3:02pm


I'm so sorry for your loss. It is so hard to lose your mother. I lost mine to cancer when I was 16 so I can tell you that it does get better with time. The pain is always there but you are able to function and you can be happy again.

When you have children, it will be hard because your mother never saw them or got to know them but it will also be comforting because you will see parts of your mother in yourself and in your children. You really learn how we are all one.

as you go through this difficult time.
post #31 of 34
1/6/08 at 3:03pm
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Originally Posted by LizaBear View Post
I'm right there too binkin - my mom passed away on the 30th of December. I'm still kind of numb, yesterday was hard. I just feel kind of lost without her.
to you too!
post #32 of 34
1/7/08 at 11:49pm
Well yesterday was the 6th, how are you doing today. (yesterday was my ds's birthday too)

People keep asking me "oh were the holidays hard?" and no really not since mom never celebrated much... but I do not look forward to her birthday which is in June. I think that is going to be a very hard day.
post #33 of 34
1/8/08 at 9:06pm
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I am doing OK I guess. I had a hard time on Sunday and then again on Monday night - my foot (broke it in Sept. 2006) started hurting, and it made me think of right after it was broken and it hurt SO bad and all I could think to do was call my mom. She helped me and talked to me, and Monday night I was just crying that I won't be able to rely on her for things like that anymore.

Today was the first day of classes for me, and I am still feeling pretty stressed out. My anatomy and physiology teacher made some joke about grandmas dying 2/3 of the way through the term and I almost started crying, but didn't. We'll see how I am later tonight. Trouble sleeping is I think where I'm feeling the loss most right now.

for all of us who have lost our moms.
post #34 of 34
1/9/08 at 5:12pm
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