sorry to do this here but i just really need to vent.
i'm not even to either of my EDDs yet (11/27 or 12/1, depending on what you go by), and i feel like if i am pregnant for one more day, i am going to lose my damn mind.
the baby dropped almost a month ago, so i've had pretty much constant painful cervical pressure since then, which has limited my activity level and essentially put me on bed rest. i am SO TIRED OF MY BED! i work from my bed, i read in bed, i do my hypnobirthing relaxation exercises in bed, i sleep here obviously, i'm even eating half my meals here because chairs and the couch are too uncomfortable (unless lying down).
i've been working the hoku pressure points on my hands so much that they are bruised and swollen. we've been having sex every day. i'm trying to walk around a lot but it's so freaking cold outside. and i'm so comically large that i don't enjoy being out in public because people just stare at me, which is making me actually miss when they would just ask me questions or smile at me!
last night, i finally burst into tears to my partner and told him how scared i was that this could potentially go on for another three weeks, and then i felt so guilty because i knew that the baby was being affected by my stress and crying.
i know that so many of you were/have been pregnant for longer and i'm not even "overdue" yet, but i'm just really at my wit's end and needed a release.
i'm not even to either of my EDDs yet (11/27 or 12/1, depending on what you go by), and i feel like if i am pregnant for one more day, i am going to lose my damn mind.
the baby dropped almost a month ago, so i've had pretty much constant painful cervical pressure since then, which has limited my activity level and essentially put me on bed rest. i am SO TIRED OF MY BED! i work from my bed, i read in bed, i do my hypnobirthing relaxation exercises in bed, i sleep here obviously, i'm even eating half my meals here because chairs and the couch are too uncomfortable (unless lying down).
i've been working the hoku pressure points on my hands so much that they are bruised and swollen. we've been having sex every day. i'm trying to walk around a lot but it's so freaking cold outside. and i'm so comically large that i don't enjoy being out in public because people just stare at me, which is making me actually miss when they would just ask me questions or smile at me!
last night, i finally burst into tears to my partner and told him how scared i was that this could potentially go on for another three weeks, and then i felt so guilty because i knew that the baby was being affected by my stress and crying.
i know that so many of you were/have been pregnant for longer and i'm not even "overdue" yet, but i'm just really at my wit's end and needed a release.
: this baby is so heavy and pushes outward and i've had that cervical pressure/owie-ness for so long now, and the occasional butt pubic bone pain and so forth...i'm so ready, i'm SO DONE. so even though i'm past my EDD now and even past what i 'thought' my EDD truly was (11/14), i felt this way BEFORE hand as well. i know it about not wanting to go out anymore.....people stare at me too and i'm thinking wasn't i this big a month ago??? but NOW...the only question they ask is 'when are you due'? ugh............i gotta think of a better answer for that one. i want to say 'oh in february.....long while.' lol 
then they will probably ask if its twins and i'll say nope, its just a baby cow........
or maybe i'll pretend to quote some anatomical realization (fake of course) the OB world has discovered about birthing and the size of babies. maybe i'll tell them that so far, baby is 10 lbs...........lol. i'm so tired of people invading my psychic 'baby growing space'. i can't even barely zip my coat up now and i need a warmer one anyways..........brrrrrrrrr! some days i can't even zip it now. i don't remember feeling like this with meghan. sigh...............................
