I think baby is waiting till December... I DID ask for him to wait until my mom leaves (on Saturday), but then I reconsidered when I found out our midwife will want me to get a bpp next week. Ugh. I just don't want anymore drama and stress.
Dd2's birthday is on Sunday...but, I honestly don't care about them sharing the date. Honestly.
There has been some drama and tension with my parents... Typical stuff, nothing earth-shattering except for the revelation of some dishonesty about the timing of their trip. Hurtful, but nothing I'm not used to... My dad left yesterday, as planned. I'm sad that it will be months before he gets to meet the baby.
They are good grandparents...just clueless and emotionally ill-equipped to have a healthy adult relationship with me. They will do just about anything to avoid any kind of conflict...including lying...and it just hurts and drives me nuts.
I went to see our ND, today. She worked some points on my feet and hands and gave me a homeopathic remedy that I'm taking every 30 minutes. I really want to have this baby, but I'm worried that I just can't get into a place of peace and emotional safety to truly let go and give birth. It may not happen until my mom leaves...
The good thing, though, is that because of my mom's dishonesty, I'm not feeling worried or guilty about hurting her feelings if I DO go into labor while she's here. Dh and the midwives have free rein to do and say whatever they have to to keep her out of my space.
I'm just soo emotionally drained...
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Dd2's birthday is on Sunday...but, I honestly don't care about them sharing the date. Honestly.

There has been some drama and tension with my parents... Typical stuff, nothing earth-shattering except for the revelation of some dishonesty about the timing of their trip. Hurtful, but nothing I'm not used to... My dad left yesterday, as planned. I'm sad that it will be months before he gets to meet the baby.
They are good grandparents...just clueless and emotionally ill-equipped to have a healthy adult relationship with me. They will do just about anything to avoid any kind of conflict...including lying...and it just hurts and drives me nuts.I went to see our ND, today. She worked some points on my feet and hands and gave me a homeopathic remedy that I'm taking every 30 minutes. I really want to have this baby, but I'm worried that I just can't get into a place of peace and emotional safety to truly let go and give birth. It may not happen until my mom leaves...
The good thing, though, is that because of my mom's dishonesty, I'm not feeling worried or guilty about hurting her feelings if I DO go into labor while she's here. Dh and the midwives have free rein to do and say whatever they have to to keep her out of my space.
I'm just soo emotionally drained...
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s, mama

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