Originally Posted by zoie2013
It sounds like you are going through a really tough time with bfing. I hope you don't mind my asking (and please excuse me if I missed your explanation), why do you exclusively pump?
Totally Ok to ask! Well the short story (since i would really need a whole afternoon to write out the full version, it is more complicated and more drawn out than even any birth story I have read
basically my DD came out with a REALLY bad latch, she had what was called clampdown bite reflex along with a short latch. The hospital LCs were very very hurtful, when I was crying in pain they just told me to grin and bear it the latch looks fine.
Well after awhile in the hospital I think behind the scenes I was labeled as a "complaining mom who really does not truly want to BF". I had only read the basics about BFing, like how to latch a babe and not to restrict access to the breast but not how to deal with a very complicated problem. By the time I left the hospital I was told to let my "nipples rest" and the pain would get better, just pump some feedings and give bottles when my nipples got really bad. So when I got home I called EVERYONE I could think of but of course they turned out to be all the WRONG people.
I told my family doc the situation and that even pumping hurt a TON, like put me in tears so he just told me not to pump either for a few days. (the bad advice keeps coming!!!) So by this time I have run to the store for formula since I was not pumping either, I was just crying all the time, I did not know what to do or who to turn to. By day 2 my babe was already REFUSING the breast for the bottle, she was the poster child for NIPPLE CONFUSION! It hit hard and made everything else impossible. I could not get her to latch just a few days after birth. :cry AFter toting her around the state from LC to doc to talking to LLL leaders on the phone we figgred out she had clampdown bite and a VERY short latch. I went back to the hospital and talked to the original IBCLC that was so horrible in the begining and she said that in all her years she has only seen a few babes with clampdown and all the moms quit BFing, no-one was successful, she did not really even know how to treat the condition. (More bad advice!)
Well at about week 3 I am still pumping and have obtained a hospital grade pump, crying every time I pump since I want to BF and it hurts so bad. I found a good IBCLC at about that time and she really saw the latch problem AND the bigger problem, MAJOR Nipple Confusion and a VERY temperamental babe. My babe would SCREAM bloody murder if you just turned her into my breast to try to BF, she would feel the position and SCREAM. It was impossible to even get her to put the nipple in her mouth to even work on the horrible latch. The hospital really Messed this all up, I trusted the so called professionals at my time of need and learned a very valuable lesson, I really can't trust anyone!
Well in the end at about 4mths PP I gave up truly trying to get my babe to BF, I had all the crazy apparatuses, SNS, finger feeders, cups, you name it but she would not latch ever! So I pumped and pumped and pumped, the pain never went away until at 8mths PP, I got a very very high temp with a stomach bug, when the cold subsided so did the breast pain. My LC thinks I must have had an infection in my breast causing the severe pain. But it never look suspicious, red or swollen. she really does not know what it could have been.
I know better next time and who not to trust, I have basically read everything I can get my hands on to do with BFing so I feel armed and ready to make this work. I feel with the right set of circumstances and alot of pain and suffering i could have got my DD to BF but too much bad advice and not knowing how to filter it out just left for a horrible outcome. And a very very long road for my Family to endure, EPing was really hard.
sorry for the downer, and I guess this turned into a long post either way, but I promise I left a ton out!