Ok, it's the next day now... and I've discovered something: this baby just wants his mama to hold him! Duh! DH and I decided to take turns last night when he woke up (unless he was hungry, that's all me
), and every time it was me, I was able to soothe him with my voice, with rocking, with comfort nursing, or just by lying next to him. Every time I tried to put him down, no matter how asleep I thought he was, within minutes he was awake and starting to cry. (With the exception of two 1/2 hour naps.) DH's "turn" with him resulted in almost 2 hours of fussing/crying but he dealt with it in order to let me sleep.
What I'm saying is, DH and I have realized that we're going to be a cosleeping, babywearing family after all.
I read somewhere that babies with traumatic births tend to want to be held a lot more (they used the term "high-needs" which I think is unfair to Oliver cuz really, wanting to be held is perfectly reasonable, and seems like the only need at issue). I wonder if he's still processing his birth... does that sound silly? So last night I just rocked him and talked to him about the whole thing, how I knew it didn't go how we planned and it must've been really scary for him, etc. Then, all night, he just wanted to be by me. Or maybe he always did and I'm just noticing it cuz I'm letting go of my fear of the crying and really bonding with him now. Either way, it feels great.
So he's asleep on my chest in my kangaroo pouch which I got out for the first time (wanted to heal from my C-section first) and the crying stopped immediately and he passed out. He's right against where my heart is, so he can hear it beat. And it's a hands-free baby device! I can type! Drinking coffee is a little tricky though
Maybe I'll switch back to iced, I don't want to spill hot coffee on his little head. I'm not too graceful with the liquids these days.
Now I'm just wondering how to do the cosleeping thing... I love our bed and don't want to get another one but it's only a queen and DH and I don't fit well on it with the cosleeper snugglie thing in the middle but don't feel like it's safe for Ollie without it. So we were gonna sidecar the crib to my side of the bed but it virtually traps me on the bed, cuz it's so huge. Now I'm not sure what we're gonna do, but I'm just so happy that DH came around about cosleeping cuz it feels so wrong to put Oliver all the way across the room in the cosleeper, and he hates it too. Yay!