why, gina......i'm insulted.
aren't MY posts full of enough drama and woe and misery and bitching for you?! hmmm i need to come up w/ another one. read my thread on my cRaZy mother...that's a good one.
: good to know i'm NOT the only one either.
sigh..............i sometimes think there is something wrong w/ me as i seem to have had a LOAD of conflict w/ certain women and definitely men thruout my adult life. as a child too at times...but i am coming to realize it is mostly THEM and there are so many healthy great loving respectful people who do NOT make me feel so crappy and angry and hurt and confused. so it can't be me. not even half way. it is obvious there are just some people who like to stir shit up for their own benefit w/out maybe realizing they are drama addicts or control freaks or martyrs or whatever. my mother is one of them. and of course, being my mother, she triggers me and now that i have 2 children of my own, i get even more into it w/ her as i'm trying my damndest to let her know who MY children are...MINE. and that i am a competent wonderful mama who is HUMAN like my friend jasmine says and no i'm not perfect...but pretty close.
oh i must tell you about this mother at the pediatricians last night when i took sheamas in for lethargy...(he is fine btw...just much more sleepy during day...hard to wake at times and it scared me when my MW was worried about it...) megh was playing on this slide thing in the kids area and there was a ladder to get up to the platform area. i was watching her play actually and saw this one girl about the same age climb up the ladder (only about 3 ft high) and when she got up to climb onto the platform, there was megh telling her she couldn't come up, that it was 'their castle' (megh and some other girls). i was like omg megh in my thoughts....i heard megh say this and said megh!!! i was going to get up as megh wouldn't come to me to talk. in the meantime, this girl climbs down, stands tehre for about 2 seconds and starts to cry a real dramatic slow tearful cry.........then she runs over to her mother (who is this huge tall bully looking of a woman...) saying 'someone pushed me'! i didn't think it was megh as i was watching and didn't see megh push her. but maybe she did. the girl wasn't hurt physically or anything but obviously her feelings were and i don't blame her one bit. so the mom goes "WHO pushed you.....show me." and they walk over there fast like the mom meant business w/ whichever child (mine! yikes!) pushed her dd. so i stood up and walked over there FAST. megh was at this point UNDER the whole playset in the corner terrified of this woman. the girl pointed out megh after the mom was asking the other 2 girls if THEY were the one to push her daughter. i wanted to say to the mom, WHAT do you plan to do about this, anyway, you big oaf?! i said megh, come on out, its ok honey, i'm here. the mother not ONCE looked at ME or talked w/ ME about this scenario. i wasn't about to let her talk to MY dd w/out talking to ME first. excuse me you big ugly b*tch but *i* will handle my dd. it was kind of scary and stressful. i thought i might brawl w/ this chick. i just told megh it isn't right to push other people or tell them they can't play on something that is for ALL the kids at the dr's to play on...i asked if she pushed her...she said no.....then eventually i asked again and said honey you can tell me if you really did, i won't be mad at you... that is as far as i got...she said yes, she did. anyway, that was it. and we got out of there...i mumbled the whole time something about that these kids are KIDS and jeesh and don't mess w/ ME, chicky, who doesn't even LOOK at me..................and especially w/ MY dd......i understand why she was so protective but jeesh..........don't you bully ME by bullying my dd and don't you bully my dd. ooo it reminded me of a 'home improvement' episode i saw the other night where the mom got into it w/ a big bully of a mom at karate class for the youngest boy...other parents can be so WEIRD!!!!!!!!!!!
how's that for some drama...at the freakin' pediatricians office!!!!! of all places!!!