:i miss my babies and i am so SAD that they arent here for their milk. I gotta get better so i can go back to work; i was feeling better gonna work today and this has hit me hard i just keep crying all day.i was praying so hard i wouldnt wake up after surgery but i did and im trying hard to just stay here for ds. All I have are a picture of each of them from ultrasound- The boy was grinning and reaching for his toes. and then Emma, sweet Emma was laying with her back to the camera, she had the sweetest backside you ever saw. She died first. I loved them so much and I wanted them to have long happy lives and they werent even born.
