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Originally Posted by Grace24  I can't wait to hear about their Christmas  Thanks again Nicole, this was really great of you to put together. Very cool. |
Can I be honest here and make even a sort of confession?
This all is sort of selfish for me.....I mean my motivation. I actually am a Family In Need myself....this is our second year being on the HH list. I would only tell you all because I
ya'll.....I swore we wouldnt need help this year and actually we are worse off than we were last year and mere steps from utilities off and rent over a month late etc...thank goodness our landlord is cool. ANYWAY I digress-mamas it gets SO OLD being this poor....so old standing in line being treated like a second class citizen etc....blah blah blah....we are the working poor (see the classism thread in TAO) and I DO plan to go back to work someday when I feel like my kids are ok without me for some hours...I am only willing to be poor because of them.....I know the doube edgedness of all of this believe me.....(where is this all coming from-it feels good to get out though!) I am so tired of not being on the giving end financially. SO TIRED. My heart and soul just wants to give give give.....I give my change and last dollar to the homeless man who paces my street and hangs at the gas station though I am literally mere steps from a situation like that myself (my mom would never let me go homeless but statistically speaking).....bear with me as I ramble....my mom has to buy me trashbags and toilet paper....paper towels are a TREAT! I wanted to organize this because I NEEDED to give, all I had was time to give and this was what I came up with....I am also organizing three raffles on Hyena Cart to help with HH too....I was talking with a most amazing mama and just said something very similar and was talking about how when life gives you the REAL tools to experience REAL joy its is most freeing.....I dont know why I had to get all this out-I'm even crying like the post partum hormonal loon I am......I just want to THANK all of you for being a catalyst with which I experienced the most JOY this season. I know all of the other things in life will fall into place. Thank you again to those of you who participated or are planning to participate....it means so much to me to be able to give in this way. Peace and blessings this day and all your others....
Thank you for reading if you got this far!!
to you Nicole. It is brave for you to admit that your family is signed up for the Holiday Helper. Try not to worry about your utilities. Help is on the way. I am so touched by your giving spirit and your sweet caring soul mama. I can't wait until your family is on the other side of things so that you can give freely and have plenty for your family too.
: Right back atcha. 
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