Mamas, I am in tears. I have been getting so very frustrated with DS1. (almost 2 1/2.) He NEVER EVER EVER plays by himself, and I'm so exhausted from it. When his little brother is sleeping, I focus all of my attention on him and do crafts, etc. (quiet things...we have a very small house and noise travels b/c of hardwood floors.) It is cold and raining outside (and has been for this past week.) I know he needs to run around and get energy out, and I honestly kind of know what I need to do.....be loud and crazy when both boys are awake (dance around, sing songs, exercise with them...HAVE FUN!!) I am just so tired of him needing me 12 hours a day!! He does take a nap, but when I lay him down, i just feel so bad b/c i know i've been mean to him. this morning, i just felt like i was at the end of my rope, so i put him out on our screened-in porch to play with the dog for a few minutes...well, that's when it all began. he hit our dog with a baseball bat, so i had to go redirect him, did it again, etc...he is doing anything and everything to get my attention EVEN THOUGH HE ALWAYS HAS IT!!!!!!!!!
i am starting to get really firm with him, and i know that it is b/c of my exhaustion. we all know that just makes things worse (my stress causes his stress causes my stress etc etc.) basically, i guess i'm just journaling here!!!!!!!! if anything else, i'm looking for an "it's okay, i'm right there with you" word or 2. i just feel like GD has been out the window the past couple days. DH is in school, and when he is home, it's just a whirlwind of dinner, baths, everyone wants daddy's attention, and off to bed. i just feel like i'm losing perspective here and thinking that maybe GD is just not enough during this toddler stage. he has been so mean to his brother, our dog, and me...and i'm just thinking so much of it is b/c i am being mean to him. WHAT IS A MOM TO DO??????? this is so wordy and unorganized. i don't have any GD moms IRL to talk to, so i guess that's why i'm rambling. ugh, here goes my post..............
i am starting to get really firm with him, and i know that it is b/c of my exhaustion. we all know that just makes things worse (my stress causes his stress causes my stress etc etc.) basically, i guess i'm just journaling here!!!!!!!! if anything else, i'm looking for an "it's okay, i'm right there with you" word or 2. i just feel like GD has been out the window the past couple days. DH is in school, and when he is home, it's just a whirlwind of dinner, baths, everyone wants daddy's attention, and off to bed. i just feel like i'm losing perspective here and thinking that maybe GD is just not enough during this toddler stage. he has been so mean to his brother, our dog, and me...and i'm just thinking so much of it is b/c i am being mean to him. WHAT IS A MOM TO DO??????? this is so wordy and unorganized. i don't have any GD moms IRL to talk to, so i guess that's why i'm rambling. ugh, here goes my post..............
