I finally had a chance to read your story. How sad and scary. I am so sorry.
Its weird--I too had an uncontrollable urge to push at only 7 cm--maybe this is a very bad sign since I too endedup with a c-section???
I'm sorry that your birth was so traumatic for you. You did the absolute best you could - you were at home, with a hands-off midwife, prepared for a natural birth. You did everything in your power to do this naturally, so at least you have comfort in knowing that it really, truly could not be done. The way the hospital treated you proves why you avoid such deranged institutions in the first place! Hugs to you, mama. May you find strength in knowing you did everything right - and the best you could - for yourself and your baby at the most vulnerable point in both of your lives. That is absolutely commendable, and I respect you more than words can tell.