~Daily Check In 12/17~ - Page 3

[Friday13th]

40 and 1. All the contractions I've been having for the last week have pretty much tapered off to nothing, even after some nipple stimulation. I'm tired and bored and grumpy and generally feel like poop.

[wife&mommy]

I just wanted to let you guys know I'm not in labor but won't be checking in as much because my mom is going to be in town. I will update if I got into labor or have a baby! And I'll be checking in but didn't want anyone to assume anything just in case.

[transformed]

have fun with your mom.

[Tiny_Dancer]

Checking in! Went to the chiropractor today and DTD. Feeling crampy but not much else. Going to do some errands now ALONE cause DH is home to watch dd. I really expected this baby before now. I still have 4 days till my EDD but no one in my family has ever gone this long. I'm impatient. Apparently LO is has mastered the patience virture already. Hopefully, he can teach me a thing or two.

I keep remembering a quote from lisarussel's mrs.hannigan blog:

"I really cannot recommend pregnancy at this point."

[guest9921]

Originally Posted by Belleweather

Ugh. I think I'm losing my courage for Natural Childbirth here... the idea of having someone step in and carve this baby out of me while I'm asleep is starting to sound kinda good compared to nausea and prodromal contractions and stress. I need to get my head on straight.

I'm right there with you.
While ttc, I was quite inspired to birth again, thinking of it often and preparing myself mentally/physically.
As of - oh 2 weeks ago - I have begun to lose my courage, and really need a kickstart to become inspired once more.

I made the decision last night, after a particularly stressful evening with my high-needs parents, to stop my mental negativity/complaining, and really try to bring myself out of this funk.

I'm going to go hug a few trees now, and read about pink auras in spiritual midwifery. :

[Elsaraw]

I'm here. Feel great after chiropractor today. Lots of stuff going on in my body, I think it will be soon but I am still hoping for after Christmas. But, I'm ready whenever baby is. We don't have a usable bathtub in this house yet and I keep considering filling the pool just to soak in for at least 5 hours. That's probably not a good idea though because we'll have to bail out water with buckets to empty it.

[zjande]

I continue to lose slime, & I couldn't nap through my low, painful, but very erratic cramps this afternoon so I just rested & read Grapes of Wrath.

I hatehatehate to let myself get my hopes all up only to be discouraged, but it sure SEEMS like something is definitely happening & I just might be having a baby tonight. I'm nervous!

[Tiny_Dancer]

oooooh! Aubrey, keep us posted! Don't get too excited. . . .Try to relax. I'LL GET EXCITED FOR YOU!!! AAAAAAAHHHHHHH! :::::

[Momma2DoubleCuties]

Oh good luck Aubrey!!

I went to DH's work Christmas party tonight and had to have him bring me home. The kids were seriously bouncing off the tables (ds2) kicking people in the crotches (ds1) and acting like they were 5 (dh) Then all the people asking when this baby was coming and how come I was still pregnant just annoyed the you know what out of me. Now I'm home alone and totally crabby. But for some reason even though I don't have any contrax or anything feel like maybe this baby is coming tonight. He's barely moved all day and seems like he's really resting up. Who knows...probably just wishful thinking...

[zjande]

So here's the minute by minute update....

I am feeling so weird. I am antsy beyond all reason, & sooo nauseas every several moments. I had to bolt to the bathroom in fear of barfing a few minutes ago. And STILL with the constant losing of mucous plug- I can't BELIEVE how much there is in there!!!

And STILL with the trying not to get my hopes up only to be crushed with discouragement! But DUDE! It's hard to ignore it all!

Oy.

[SheBear]

I don't think I checked in today, but I can't remember. : Hmm, if I wait a couple more minutes, I could start tomorrow's thread!

I'm still pregnant. I was "officially" 39 and 5 today.

However, I'm starting to rethink my "due" date. Warning, the next part of this post is long and tedious and of NO INTEREST to anyone but me, LOL!

Ds2 turned 1 year old on Jan 6th last year. My cycle returned on Jan 10th. That cycle seemed quite normal--normal duration, flow, etc. No cycle whatsoever in Feb....several negative pg tests because I was paranoid, LOL! Nothing from Jan until March 14th, when my second cycle (post ds2) started. Then in April, on the 13th, I used a dollar store test. It was negative--I thought. I threw it on the counter instead of in the trash, and forgot about it. Figured AF would be arriving in a day or two. On the 18th, I took another test, bc AF still hadn't arrived.

That test also looked negative, but when I went back a couple hours later, it looked somewhat less negative....so of course, I had to dig out the first test and check it again.....both were looking suspiciously less negative....enough that I ran to town right then and bought a more expensive test. It turned out to be quite faint, but unmistakably positive!

Soooo...the timing of the first two tests (that appeared negative) as well as the faintness of the final test on the 18th, makes me think that I was barely pg at that point. I must have tested super early. But that still doesn't help me figure out when I ovulated, or when I conceived, does it? I wasn't charting, so the fact of the matter is, I just don't know! And obviously my cycles were in no way regular yet!

But if we take the BFP and assume it was about as early as you could get a positive reading, then assume I ovulated 2 weeks prior to that, that would be around the 4th. And if conception occurred on the fourth, then that would put my EDD back to Dec 26th, leaving me at 38 and 5 today. ???

I'm soooooo confused!

I guess it comes down to: I have no clue. I need to just let go and trust that the baby will come when it is ready. I keep saying that, but gosh, I'm not feeling that!

And it's nuts, because I'm not even to my "official" edd yet, but I'm going insane because all my babies have been earlier than this, and it just makes no sense! I just am feeling so out of touch with my body, and it is frustrating.

Not to mention the other people who are watching and waiting and commenting and getting veddy veddy annoying! And my mom will be leaving on the 24th, and I hate to think of her coming all this way and doing so much, only to possibly miss the big event! I know she is okay with it, but I'll be so disappointed, esp. if it is a girl, since she would be named after my mother.

So, basically, I'm just here, trying to surrender and find peace/patience.

I need a smilie for "pout". This one almost fits the bill: :

[Tiny_Dancer]

Originally Posted by SheBear

I'm soooooo confused!

I guess it comes down to: I have no clue. I need to just let go and trust that the baby will come when it is ready. I keep saying that, but gosh, I'm not feeling that!

And it's nuts, because I'm not even to my "official" edd yet, but I'm going insane because all my babies have been earlier than this, and it just makes no sense! I just am feeling so out of touch with my body, and it is frustrating.

So, basically, I'm just here, trying to surrender and find peace/patience.

I need a smilie for "pout". This one almost fits the bill: :

Sarah-I feel the SAME way. This is only my second baby but DD came 3 wks early and I just figured this one would be here by now. (I think you and I have the same edd.) ANyway, it makes me feel really out of touch with my body also. As each day passes that I thought I had a "feeling" about, I get more and more discouraged. AND, this is different than your mom's situation but my sister is going OUT of town next week-we all though FOR SURE this baby would be here by now. I was really counting on having my sister to help with dd and food and just helping me out like a post partum doula so I could rest and recover. Now, she might not even be around when the baby is born. So frustrating and hard not to worry. Anyway, I just wanted to say I understand how you feel and appreciate your honesty cause it makes me feel not quite so crazy. Maybe we're both crazy.

I'm also trying to surrender and have peace and patience.

[kittywitty]

You're not nuts, Sarah.

My EDD is all crazy, too. It's the 18th from 3 u/s. But according to my records from my charting, that would've meant I miraculously conceived without semen during my period. I have no idea. It should be sometime within the next week, though.

[SheBear]

Thanks, ladies! Y'all know how to talk me down from the ledge, LOL!

We (the midwife and me) changed my due date....gave me another week. So instead of tomorrow being 40 weeks, now I'm just 39. Which is still the longest I've ever been pregnant, but so much less stress for some reason!

I'm still really hoping the baby will come before my mom has to leave (because that would just suck!) but she's been very cool and understanding about everything.....amazingly, one of the few people who is NOT making me feel like a watched pot! (or as dh so sweetly said "A watched Potbelly" ha. hahaha. Funny, dear. Oh, and bite me.

Anyway, I'm back to saying--and actually believing--that "The baby will come when the baby is ready to come."

Dh is getting a lot of pressure though, and I'm SOOOOO glad it's him and not me, because I have not the capacity for politeness at this point! Apparently, he's getting tons of calls and emails from people at church, people at his job, and his relatives! It's starting to annoy him, which (shh! don't tell!) I think is just hilarious, because up until now, he has been reminding me, "Just be nice, they wouldn't be asking if they didn't care!"

Oh, and his plan earlier was--if the baby had been born by now and we were both doing well--to take the older kids and go see his family this weekend and do the Christmas thing with them since my mom is here to help me. Mind you, we don't celebrate Christmas for ourselves--we only show up for his family's sake, because they'd be hurt if we didn't.

But now that the baby hasn't been born yet, he's not planning to go, and it's driving his relatives crazy! s His grandmother called today and offered (threatened?) that since we couldn't come for Christmas, they could all just load up and come to us! Lol, he shut her down pretty quick, but knowing her, it wouldn't surprise me if she took a wild hair and just showed up!

And then his mother called tonight and wondered, if he didn't feel like he could come all the way (they live about 300 miles away), maybe she could just meet him halfway and give him the presents to bring home for the kids! I guess she's just sure that our kids will be devastated by not having presents next Tuesday! It's so nuts, but I guess they mean well. What can ya do?? Dh put a quick end to that plan, too, saying that there was just no reason that "christmas" couldn't wait a few days, or even weeks, so that they (his parents) could at least have the fun of watching the kids open their gifts. So, I wouldn't be a bit surprised if the whole crew decided to come for a visit at New Years, or as soon as we will "allow" them.

Ah well, better they come here than expect us to go there, right? Right??

Okay, I'm done for the night. Off to bed!