i hope this goes here

[KJoslyn78]

I hope this is the right spot for this

I'm having a terrible time right now. It's really hitting me how it seems as if all my family is now gone, the lastest death in my family being my mother this past July.

I replied to that thread in TOA about lighting candles for those gone - and i could believe how many people i listed (once i started - i just couldn't stop).

i'm either on the verge of crying all day - or i'm so grouchy and irrable that i cant stand to be around anyone - inlcuidng my kids

is it too much to ask that the holidays get over quickly - without any more loss?

[Cherie2]

I saw that post too... and listed my mommy who died in october... i feel very teary tonight also ... the post in toa about how much do you love your children ... got me thinking about how much my mama loved me .... nobody will ever love me that way again... :

I am so sorry for the many losses you have endured ... just please feel free to feel it ... i think its so important.