TTC #1 in Our 30's: January 2008 - HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! - Page 8

[mischievium]

Originally Posted by amahrey

sooo, i posted on here a week or two ago that i had just quit taking bc pills after about 10+ years and that now that we were ttc i was just hoping my body would start to get back to normal.

i ordered the tcoyf book online after many great recommendations from everyone here.

i bought a thermometer and was about 8 days into charting.

and i started to think that the temps on my chart looked really high compared with the other ones on ff.

and i thought that i was about to get af for about a week because of light spotting one day and breast tenderness.

and i told all this to my bff at a meeting the other night and she told me just to go poas already because it had been about 30 days since my last af on the pill.

and i bought a test.

and it was positive!!!

dh made me take two just in case but they were both positive almost instantly.

my tcoyf book came in the mail the next day. i gave it to my bff .

sooo, now i guess we will see how this goes. here i had been waiting to finally get af so that i could really start charting and posting on here about it.

thank you all for the good wishes when i introduced myself- the short and sweet wish really worked i guess.

blessed be to all you ladies who are ttc on here- many good thoughts to you!

:Congratulation s, Amahrey!:

Originally Posted by maefair

Hey all - *delurking here*
I went off the pill on 1/1/08 and my husband and I started trying right away. I think I O'ed on 1/3. AF was due on 1/17 but never showed up. The last HPT I did was Saturday -- negative. Do you think there's a chance I could I be preg? Or is my body just fooling with me since this is my first month off of the pill in 15 years? (I'm 33 btw.) Good luck to all xo.

Welcome, Maefair! Well, as you can see from Amahrey's story, it can happen really quickly after you come off BCPs and hopefully it will. Right now, it's hard to say what's going on-- I would think if you O'ed on 1/3 and "caught" that egg, then your test on Saturday (16 DPO) would most likely be + if you we're pregnant. It could be that your period is late because your hormones are still thrown off from being on BCPs for so long, or... have you tested again? If you haven't already, reading "Taking Charge of Your Fertility" could be really helpful as you and your husband continue TTC and if you don't already know how to chart or how it can be helpful, TCOYF explains it all.

Originally Posted by Rivka 

mischievium hugs about the milestone, but it is amazing how much we end up reading into little things like your small type in that post, it almost made me cry, this baby thing does get overwhelming at times, and i am just starting, cant even think about what i would be feeling if it was a year from now. Strange about the CBEFM peak reading, did you let it sit next to your cough medicine in the cabinet, was it perhaps sipping some of it when you weren't looking? hehe

Funny that you mention that... I *do* have some cough medicine in the medicine cabinet and it's the good kind (with codeine)... hmmmn....

Originally Posted by Rivka 

& that brings me to well... me:

ok u/s time again, the canceled and then reordered (goober doctors) is tomorrow afternoon.
It has been 5 weeks since my last u/s (yeesh i feel like i'm confessing!) and based on the, just maybe/wow/that would be so cool/O signs, AF should be due around tomorrow too. So assumming AF holds off long enough to keep the appointment, what am I looking for?

I wish I knew what to tell you, but I'm in a similar boat (only my US is on Monday).

[jencat]

Hey gals!

How's this for weepy: DH has been talking a bit over the past month or two about taking a trip to Boundary Waters. He mentioned meeting his friend G out there... Has never mentioned me going or not going. Then he talked to his friend K the other night and told me after hanging up that K might be going too. So I was feeling kinda sorry for myself and pretty much knew the answer but asked him, "So is this a guys-only trip?" And he said "Yeah.... unless you want to go..." Which of course I knew to mean, "Yes, I wasn't planning to ask you." So then I started to tear up like a little girl who got left out of the 4-square game on recess! I think it made me more weepy b/c he looked like he could see I was sad and he felt bad and wanted to include me even tho it was not the original plan...

Poet - yeah, this is month three of 50 mg. I believe OB will increase me to 100 mg next month if not PG yet. I'll have to decide if I'm up for that or not... I'll probably try it at least one month.

mischievium - that AF is here...

frog - what DPO are you now?

Welcome maefair! I hope your stay here is short! But I agree with the other gals - it seems too early for you to be PG. Did you go off the pill at the end of a cycle, ie, stop taking the pills when your period started? If so, you shouldn't be expecting AF until 28ish days after your last period I would think... unless you have wonky cycles like Kiya or Rivka (sorry gals!@)

speaking of Rivka and Kiya - good luck tomorrow - I hope you find out something useful from those goobers...

: Stay warm!

[frog]

Originally Posted by jencat

frog - what DPO are you now?

13. Temp's started to drop. I suspect I'll be bleeding before the end of the day.

[JustKiya]

frog!!! : that you'll see a rebound in temps - did you sleep differently last night?

Jencat - Ya know, I've been feeling the weepy too, lately - what's UP with that? I'm normally the most stoic person ever...... and hey! Quit talking bout my cycles! *loves on cycle tenderly* She can't help it if she's a lil irregular!

[frog]

Originally Posted by earthymama2b

frog!!! : that you'll see a rebound!

Y'all are so good for me. I'm having a hard time not throwing in the towel.

[JustKiya]

Towels are NOT allowed to be thrown until they need to be used to mop up the blood!! :

That's the official stance here, in TMI-free land!!!

[~Adorkable~]

Originally Posted by earthymama2b

Towels are NOT allowed to be thrown until they need to be used to mop up the blood!! :

hahhahhaaha: you go girl, get out of your way!


as for me?
i am busy typing a thousand times, " I will not obsess over my chart. I will not obsess over my chart. I will not obsess over my chart. I will not obsess over my chart. I will not obsess over my chart. I will not obsess over my chart. I will not obsess ............"

omg i wish i had more data, i wish that the u/s i am getting today could tell me something, i wish i was not going crazy

[frog]

I'm still not bleeding. If this remains the case, I'll test in the morning.

[mischievium]

Originally Posted by earthymama2b

Towels are NOT allowed to be thrown until they need to be used to mop up the blood!! :

That's the official stance here, in TMI-free land!!!

"TMI-free land," Lord ain't that the truth !

[mischievium]

Originally Posted by frog

I'm still not bleeding. If this remains the case, I'll test in the morning.

That's right you will... ahem... I mean, I'll be waiting patiently to see the results .

In all seriousness (or as much as I am capable of), I'm not really the prayin' sort, but I have put my two cents in to the man upstairs/ forces that be in the universe and they, my two cents, that is, are definitely pro-Frog and pro-Tadpole.

[poetgirl]

Ahhh...TMI-land, I live there...let's start a new society!

CD2 for me w/ a vengeance, how special!
I'm pretty bummed for my sister. Her inject/IUI cycle did not work and took a lot of ooomph from her. Also, the end of this last cycle really bit, mainly because I realized I am not that hopeful anymore. I used to get so excited at the end of the 2ww, such hope and anticipation, and now that has shifted and I am just waiting for AF like I know she's coming.

The Latest 2 examples of how I am systematically losing it:

1.) I really cannot be trusted at Yoga anymore. I'm so teetery at the cusp of weepy world that every time I go, I start crying when the class begins. I used to teach yoga!, but somehow it's gotten really hard to be in my body in that way. The teacher begins and we're breathing and going into our bodies and setting our intentions and bam! waterworks. Same thing when I meditate, except no one's there. I am not going to give up these things. I think I need them, but yeesh, a little respite over here!

2.) Displaced anger. This one is a little embarrassing, but I guess in addition to the sadness, I'm also kind of mad that I only have a 1% chance of conceving naturally (particularly since that is how we have to do this particular cycle!). I mean WTF! I know I need to find a way to accept this info. but right now I'm mad about it and when something else in my life makes me mad, like the DMV today, well then I'm extra-mad. Kind of trying to get it out via other means. Maybe now that I've caught myself doing this, I can release my emotions in a healthier way. Anyone else do this?

Jencat~Hugs for weepiness, as I am so there. I also found that pre-O place the hardest w/ the Clomid, so be really sweet over there to you, and to your DH too--be really sweet to her, ya hear? Sending virtual brownie sundae to you.

Kiya~My bad on your birthday passing. Was it grand? Will you still accept a late : I hope this next year for you reveals many many blessings.

Frog~V. sorry about the temps. See what happens tomorrow...hugs to your lilypad.

Rivka~Are you obsessing over your chart? How was the u/s today?

Mischievium~Have I told you lately that I'm happy you're back? Now here's to getting a lot of very helpful guidance next week!

Welcome Maefair!

Ms. Sig, Sri, Jem, Kemaji and others...how are you doing??

[mischievium]

Originally Posted by poetgirl

Ahhh...TMI-land, I live there...let's start a new society!

CD2 for me w/ a vengeance, how special!
I'm pretty bummed for my sister. Her inject/IUI cycle did not work and took a lot of ooomph from her. Also, the end of this last cycle really bit, mainly because I realized I am not that hopeful anymore. I used to get so excited at the end of the 2ww, such hope and anticipation, and now that has shifted and I am just waiting for AF like I know she's coming.

The Latest 2 examples of how I am systematically losing it:

1.) I really cannot be trusted at Yoga anymore. I'm so teetery at the cusp of weepy world that every time I go, I start crying when the class begins. I used to teach yoga!, but somehow it's gotten really hard to be in my body in that way. The teacher begins and we're breathing and going into our bodies and setting our intentions and bam! waterworks. Same thing when I meditate, except no one's there. I am not going to give up these things. I think I need them, but yeesh, a little respite over here!

First , I'm so sorry AF showed up. Second, I think I totally get why Yoga must be so hard right now. Having fertility issues can cause so many feelings about one's body and one's relationship to it-- sadness, vulnerability, anger, even betrayal. Being in a class full of other people and "going into" such a vulnerable place for you right now is bound to be a little overwhelming. And then there are the hormones... they really don't help the weepy thing at all, do they?

Originally Posted by poetgirl

2.) Displaced anger. This one is a little embarrassing, but I guess in addition to the sadness, I'm also kind of mad that I only have a 1% chance of conceving naturally (particularly since that is how we have to do this particular cycle!). I mean WTF! I know I need to find a way to accept this info. but right now I'm mad about it and when something else in my life makes me mad, like the DMV today, well then I'm extra-mad. Kind of trying to get it out via other means. Maybe now that I've caught myself doing this, I can release my emotions in a healthier way. Anyone else do this?

Poet, I would be angry, too. In fact, I am angry. Let's be angry together, shall we?

You can only do the best you can do and you have a lot to deal with right now. Everyone has moments where they take out their emotions on the wrong person, you just have to forgive yourself, let go of it, and try to do better.

Originally Posted by poetgirl

Mischievium~Have I told you lately that I'm happy you're back? Now here's to getting a lot of very helpful guidance next week!

Awwww, thanks! Rest assured, the feeling is mutual, my dear Poet.

[frog]

News of the weird from 14DPO

Period: Officially late.
Temp: A little bit higher.
Boobs: Weirdly sore, still and some more.
Blood: Nada.
Test: Negative. Digital negative.

WTF?

[frog]

Originally Posted by poetgirl

...I guess in addition to the sadness, I'm also kind of mad that I only have a 1% chance of conceving naturally (particularly since that is how we have to do this particular cycle!).

You know what? This pisses ME off on your behalf. I can't even imagine. :

[jem1976]

Hey everyone,

Frog - got my fingers crossed for you hun!

Mis - Hi not sure if I wecomed you back if not there it is!

Poet - no words simply

Rivka - I am of the opinion that it is totally natural to obsess...now if I could just convince DH of that I'd be set waiting to hear how ur ultra sound went.

Hello to anyone I've missed.

well as for me.....FF thinks I O'd on CD15, I didnt get an O symbol on my fertility monitor this month, so I have no idea. My temps were all over the place, either way we didnt BD till last night anyways so I guess I'm out this month...if I had've got my O symbol on my fertility monitor like I have the last 2 cycles I wouldve instigated something as it was things are so stressful for DH at the moment that I didnt bother him, and yeah I'm bad and havent called my doctor back yet....

one last thing though, last af was quite light and didnt last long. the last 2 days I have had really sore breasts like excrutiating which is something I dont usually suffer from, ladies you all know what I'm thinking right? so gonna see what happens in the next week if af doesnt show up I may test anyway...

[~Adorkable~]

Nauseous, have been since the middle of the night, in a really strange way that has me off kilter. I have pretty strange sulfur burps, never remember having that
Sleep bad, because of course i was Nauseous.
DH is now waking at 5:30 ish for his new job so i temp then and go right back to sleep easy, then temp at my usually time at 8:30am, been recording my 8#0 ones in FF will switch over to 530 ones next cycle, so just looking at them for reference now. I get really solid sleep during those last 3 hours so i think the temps can be trusted. They also don't change that much at all.

Temp today 5:30 am 99.3!
Temp today 8:30 am 100.1
i didn't even have the guts to put a temp that high in my chart

been a bit dizzy since yesterday afternoon
still woozy now.

Don't know what to think
Test BFN will have to do a blood one tomorrow ahead of my monday CT Scan to be safe.

Oh and the u/s? said they found no aliens or killer robots and that my doc would get the rest on monday, she was a stickler about that she was not qualified to chat about things, but she did listen to my areas of interest and said she got good pictures covering those things. Walked out with my left ovary hurting like hell after getting poked around and still hurts now.

I think i may go back to bed


only good thing for yesterday? Got to lie down on a couch with my friends infant (6 weeks) and just feel him sleep for while nuzzled up to my chest.

only reason to get out of bed today? DH has ordered me to the spa for a full waxing and a massage two things he knows always make me feel great about myself, and gave me the funds to cover it! He says it is step 1 of a 4 step plan he has and won't tell me the rest. I have now almost but not quite forgiven him for not getting me anything but a card on our first anniversary last week, we'll have to see what the other 3 steps are.

i think i an going back to bed for a few

ETA its 3pm, fever (what i am calling it now) is 101.5 finally just took some tylenol, so not functional, haven't been able to drag myself out of bed till now, think i'll go back

[jencat]

Frog - don't know what possessed me to check out your blog tonight but... I LOVE your cats! I must have been a cat in a previous life b/c I can't get enough of them. Mason is my favorite. : I'm glad you found Tamarind when he was missing. I have a kitty who digs and sleeps under the covers on the bed. Sometimes I worry I'm going to sit on him!

So, what's your status??

Poet - I'm so sorry AF came... I'm pissed too about the 1%. It's not fair! It really sucks. And yeah, I do the displaced anger thing. The really sad part is sometimes I take it out on the dogs. They are mischievous and today ate a tupperware of brownies and one of them pooped on the floor after I had let him outside twice in a row!! So, I yelled at them both and relegated them to the backyard for the rest of the night. Sometimes I think I'm too hard on them and figure it's b/c I'm mad/frustrated about other stuff. (Don't hate me for getting mad at the dogs!)

Rivka - interesting... you'll have to keep us informed!! Glad you don't have any killer robots hiding out. DH sounds like a sweetie... my DH and I usually talk before holidays to make sure one of us doesn't get the other a big present while the other does just a card... don't take it personally...

Hi Jem, nice to hear from you.

Kiya - I'm glad you love your wonky cycle! You're stuck with it so might as well accept it, right?

Work has been really stressful lately. Still dealing with personnel issues and today I was dealing with requests from 4 different reporters! Plus, we're going on vacation and you know what it's like before and after vacation - ugly! Tuesday we leave for the cold midwest!

GIO in preparation for O this weekend! Gotta love sex! Since I have the day off tomorrow I'm going to drive out to the next town to get a bunch of preseed and really do it up this month!

[poetgirl]

I am just not so great w/ the cut and paste, but oh thanks Mischievium, Frog, Jem and Jencat. I swear your posts have lifted me up out of that dark place today and made the road a bit less lonely. I am so thankful. I used to get down before but it went up and down and I could find my resiliency. Lately, I'm floundering. I think we got all that RE news 12/20, there was the possible chem. 12/25 and all of a sudden it's 2008 and everything is sort of sinking in. Guess it didn't help that 5 friends announced since Christmas. I know I need to find a way to move beyond this and still live. I think getting away on the residency will be good for me. Also, the idea of all of you being mad with me suddenly makes being mad feel more like a sleepover party. Thanks.

Jencat, it is funny isn't it that I was sending you virtual brownies and then your dogs ate the brownies. Bad dogs. It's okay to get mad at your dogs. Unlike some women, dogs are very resilient. And have fun GIO! Yeah, do it up.

Jem....you've got me pretty curious....maybe you should test....no pressure. GL to ya! Do you temp BTW?

Frog, GRRR on the neg, yet no AF. Still hoping for you. Those ambiguous spells at the end of a 2ww can make a girl batty.

[jem1976]

I do temp, but this cycle was my first so I have nothing to look back at and my temps are all over the place....chart in sig, I gave up when I did get O on my monitor lol

[poetgirl]

Originally Posted by jem1976

I do temp, but this cycle was my first so I have nothing to look back at and my temps are all over the place....chart in sig, I gave up when I did get O on my monitor lol

My bad, sorry, I missed that! Soooo, let me clarify. You got AF for 2 light days at the end of Dec. but you didn't test and you don't know if your temps ever dropped with the AF in question? Do you feel anything funny? Still the sore bbs? I sure hope you're preg.!