pssst... does anyone remember me?
Before I say anything else, Laura, I can't tell you how sorry I am to hear about your sister
. I can't even imagine how difficult things must be for you right now, please know that I/ we are here to listen.
Now... on to "business.
" I'm sorry for being such a lousy threadmate
:-- I ended up needing to take a few months off without knowing I needed to take a few months off. I guess I just feel like my DH and I aren't really TTC right now, so much as we are TTGITSD (trying to get in to see doctors). I mean we're trying (well... not this month because I'm due to O any moment and right now I'm in Seattle and he's in SF... more on that later), but I just have this nagging feeling that nothing is going to happen on it's own. And the following (cut and pasted from a protected blog post because I just can't bear to type it all out again) is why:
"So... I did the first panel of blood tests (hormone levels checked at cycle day 3). All of the levels came back normal EXCEPT I have an isolated elevated DHEA level. During my initial consult with my OB, she took my history and examined me and specifically mentioned that she was concerned that I might possibly have Cushing's Syndrome, but we would wait and see what the test results said. Yeah. According to her and the internets
, an isolated elevated DHEA can be indicative of Cushing's Syndrome. The signs and symptoms of Cushing's, along with my assessment of whether I have them or not, are as follows:
- Weight gain, particularly around your midsection and upper back (Which I have, but this is not an uncommon body type in my family)
- Fatigue (Maybe)
- Muscle weakness (Maybe)
- Rounding of your face, "moon face" (Again, I think this fits, but is not uncommon in my family.)
- Facial flushing (No)
- Fatty pad or hump between your shoulders, "buffalo hump" (<-- First, whoever started calling it a "buffalo hump" should be shot, but yes I did have this. I say "did" because I had it removed prior to the wedding.)
- Pink or purple stretch marks (striae) on the skin of your abdomen, thighs, breasts and arms (yes, BUT this can also be a genetic thing. As many of you know, whether you get stretch marks in pregnancy or not is almost completely genetically determined. When I was a pre-teen/ teen and I went through growth spurts and my breasts developed, I had stretch marks all over me.)
- Thin and fragile skin that bruises easily (I don't think so.)
- Slow healing of cuts, insect bites and infections (I would have said no until recently when I had two different small cuts on my shins that took several weeks to heal and disappear, so maybe.)
- Depression, anxiety and irritability (Again, I have these symptoms, but there could be an alternate explanation.)
- Thicker or more visible body and facial hair, "hirsutism" (Yes. I have had this since late adolescence.)
- Acne (I had really bad cystic acne during my pre-teen/ teen years to the point that I finally ended up taking Accutane which was a miracle for me and saved my skin from destroying itself.)
- Irregular or absent menstrual periods in females (I didn't think my cycles were all that irregular, but my OB seemed fairly concerned that they were.)
- High blood pressure (No.)
I guess what I'm saying here is, I have a lot of the symptoms, but it is not clear whether they are a result of Cushing's or are genetic or are the result of something else. My OB, who has been fabulous, referred me to an endocrinologist for a work up. The first appointment I could get was March 11th. Before that I need to have my blood drawn 7 DPO to check my progesterone, I either ovulated early or not at all last cycle and therefore missed the 7 DPO test last cycle. I also need to have an ultrasound to check my ovaries/ follicles/ uterus. Needing to have these tests done in SF based around biological events I can't control is making the home buying process (i.e.: knowing ahead of time when I can be in Seattle) more complicated. For now, I'm sticking with my docs in SF and will transfer care when we have a house here.
Meanwhile, poor DH finally submitted his specimen for analysis. The results were what I would have guessed-- motility and morphology are fine (yay!), numbers are on the low side. He has been referred to a urologist who specializes in male infertility for a work up of his own. His appointment is in early February.
I'm trying not to get too discouraged by the fact that there seems to be problems on both of our ends. And, yet, I am a bit discouraged. I wanted to be pregnant before I was 30, that didn't happen. Then I wanted to be pregnant such that I would have a baby before I was 31. That's not going to happen. I am in Seattle and DH is in SF and we are totally missing our opportunity this month. Time keeps on ticking..."
As you may have gleaned from the blog post, I am in Seattle looking for houses right now while DH is in SF working.
It's very late and I need to go get some sleep, but I look forward to catching up with everybody and to getting to know the "newcomers."