TTC #1 in Our 30's: January 2008 - HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!! - Page 4

[JustKiya]

*wiggles* Oooh, exciting Kat!!!

That's interesting about Cushings, mischievium - I hope they pin down something for certain!

Jencat - I'll definitely enjoy a LOVELY glass of wine - and no, I don't use a fertility monitor - I used to use OPK's, but I hit a REALLY bad month, and stopped peeing on stuff in general.... It's - more restful for me.

Glad to hear you got a earlier appt, Rivka...

Speaking of appointments, what should I ask for when I go in? I know I want a full hormonal panel, I want my thyroid tested - what else should I ask for?

[~Adorkable~]

LH is 32!!!???

Ok, doc today,was only about a 4.5 of the goober scale.

Got my test numbers

TSH 7
LH 32!
FH 9
beta of course neg.

They are sending me for another TSH test tomorrow this one fasting and they said (a few more to look for PCOS, he refused to elaborate) in general the doc seem to take offense to me knowing what i was talking about

he also wanted another U/S, this being less than 24 hours after my other doctor canceled the one i waited a month for????? So i got a appointment for another one in two weeks. i still have the CT on friday

he also wanted to put me in BCP for a month or so i asked not to be (have had icky reactions to BC in the past, and he then gave me 10 day Provera for the Withdrawal thingy.

But the question that pops into my mind now that i come home and look at my numbers is OMG am I O'ing with a LH surge!!!!!?????? crap i wish i was temping, yes i will start tomorrow, yes i know i suck. Just took a opk (possible just expired answer brand) and i would say both lines are the same darkness, this is now 48 hrs after that blood test was done. they are the darkest i have ever seen from me.
Is this high LH is a problem rather than a surge, then it is a new thing, because i have not had any false positive opk tests ever and have taken many of them in oct and nov.


the next question is that we have been dtd a lot recently(on the 3rd, 4th, 6th) could i be fertile? even though have no cm to speak of, but rarely ever do. So wtf? and do i risk this CT scan on friday or risk taking the Provera if there is any chance in hell i could be really early in a TWW?

i assume and was wondering if i should ask for a retest tomorrow of the LH too since if it was lower than monday that would support a surge theory and if it was similar it would suport ther being a problem to look for. your thoughts?

[Wanting2BaMom]

Up Late, Can't Sleep... need my MDC fix!

Hi Ladies. Whelp, almost midnight and can't sleep so I figured I would pop on here briefly and type softly so as not to wake up DH! First I want to welcome the newcomers! May your stay be short and sweet and welcome back the new oldcomers Frog and Mischevium. Good to have you back and I again, hope your stay is short and sweet. Mischevium, thank you so much for the thoughtful message and prayers. It really means a lot to get support wherever I can. Being in the grief stage is very hard but still not knowing anything adds all the more to the brain jumble. I actually contacted a counselor yesterday and am going to start seeing him. I think it will help me deal with the loss as well as what is to come.

OH.. I probably forgot to tell you all this in the midst of my crappy holiday. You know how DH had a ticket to surprise his grandpa in Seattle Christmas Eve (he had brain cancer). Well, after we found out about my sister the 20th he decided to stay with me even though I encouraged him to go. He cancelled his ticket and the morning of the 21st when we were in the funeral home discussing my sister's service arrangements he got a call from his mother in Seattle that his grandfather had just passed. He was very bummed he didn't get to see him but I told him how proud he was that he stayed to support me and that they were playing Tripoly in Heaven together! Please say an extra prayer for him too. He has been a trooper and super supportive through this whole thing. I think him losing his first family member, his first grandparent (yep he had all 4 until then) was a little lost in the shadow of my sister.

Rivka, you have been busy. I hope all the testing turns out good for you! Have you ever had an HSG (if you mentioned it previously, please forgive my lax brain)

EarthyMama, ask for "the works"... Prolactin, LH, TSH, Tyroid, Clotting... I can't remember what all mine were but at the end it was the HSG which determined what I am assuming is the problem. GOOD LUCK!

SunnyKat, GOOD LUCK with a triphasic chart! I hope you don't have to wait tooooo long. My + didn't show up until I was about 2-3 weeks late.

Mischevium, DH's Mom's side of the family lives in Seattle. I love it there.. people think I am crazy because of the dreary weather but hey.. that over humidity and heat any day! When will you have a + diagnosis (which I do realize may or may not be what they are testing for). I do hope it is something treatable. Did you ever have an HSG? Am I on an HSG kick? Who knows.. my brain is Fried. I kept thinking today is Tuesday. Good Luck and please keep us posted... positive thoughts for an easy "fix"

Poet, HUGS for the cycling Clomid effects! I think your reaction, Clomid or no Clomid, is what all of us who experience fetility problems feel. People have no right to talk about your personal problems and use it as an excuse to "get on the ball". I think we all love babies... we just don't always love the people who create them (whoops did I say/type that.... YEP I DID!)

Jencat, I have my fingers crossed for you dear! We would be honored to have you as our first Jan. 08 graduate! Keep positive vibes coming your way!

Whelp, still debating about when to do the surgery.... I ended up using almost all my vacation with everything going on and I need to be off a week so who knows. Body still not in any condition to heal or carry..... TMI sorry - 1 solid poo in 17 days (NOT GOOD!) and still not eating well.. 1 small meal (if you can call it that) about every 2 or 3 days and still smoking like a chimney (I am so disappointed in myself... I quit when we first started TTC in April 2006). I WILL quit again! Haven't been to the gym since all this either. With time I keep telling myself. Please keep your prayers coming, they help keep me strong! I am going to lay down and stare at the ceiling now... g'nite!

GOOD LUCK LADIES... I think of you ALL, all the time!!!

[frog]

One insem down, one to go!

[JustKiya]

*hug* Laura - I've been meditating on justice lately, and I've been including your sister in my thoughts.....

*YAY* frog!!! Here's hoping you catch!!

Rivka - you could be!!! Babydance away, girly!!

[~Adorkable~]

Originally Posted by Wanting2BaMom

Well, after we found out about my sister the 20th he decided to stay with me even though I encouraged him to go. He cancelled his ticket and the morning of the 21st when we were in the funeral home discussing my sister's service arrangements he got a call from his mother in Seattle that his grandfather had just passed.

oh dear, when it rains it pours, so glad you at least have each other to get though this time.

Rivka, you have been busy. I hope all the testing turns out good for you! Have you ever had an HSG (if you mentioned it previously, please forgive my lax brain)

No i have not, up until this one very veyr messed up cycle i have been like clockwork, nad have had a few conceptions in my far past at wrong times. So i know at least back then my plumbing was open.

Originally Posted by earthymama2b

Rivka - you could be!!! Babydance away, girly!!

TMI- but after i took that opk, DH threw me down on the floor of the home office!:
I am going to opk test again for a few day to look at if it changes and I'm also getting my blood test to day (fasting TSH and "others") and will ask them to include another LH to see the comparison, i think that will say a lot. if it was a surge, i would have caught it great, and the last two times we used pre-seed witch is a really good thing in my case.

[FiberLover]

Hi ladies!

Just wanted to let you know I'm still lurking here, and reading, and thinking of you.

And sending a big hug to everyone.

My news is, that the specialist Dr. last night said I'm graduated to a regular Dr.! The baby is great!

We saw the FiberBaby jumping and wiggling, little arms and legs, and feet. A strong heartbeat and a pulsing cord.

It was the coolest thing ever, and I'm thinking for the first time that I might actually get a take-home baby!

Hugs to all.

[~Adorkable~]

Originally Posted by FiberLover

We saw the FiberBaby jumping and wiggling, little arms and legs, and feet. A strong heartbeat and a pulsing cord.

It was the coolest thing ever, and I'm thinking for the first time that I might actually get a take-home baby!

oh that is so great to hear! I thinkthis list needs some suscesful prego to come say hi every now and then, I for one get my heart lifeted by it!



oh gals, here is my two opk test from last night and this morning, wow i have never gotten then this strong, this morning jumped off the chart the second the pee went across it! I do not think i should take that ct scan tomorrow, do you? or am i just making myself crazy?
http://gallery.mac.com/dorkazoid

ETA:
ok here is my plan, opk for a few more days, see if it changes and this possible surge goes away, if it does i am just maybe in a TWW or at least my body seems to be resetting myself to have more normal cycles soon. So i would put off my CT indefinitely (would think about it again if a tww went over 3 weeks with no preggo signs, and then only after a beta test to make sure)
on the other hand and my opk stay strong pos for the next week or so i will go ahead with the treatments and test that we were going to to. (ct, provera, u/s)

does this sound good to you ladies?

ok i am going to shut up now and be happy regardless!!!!

[poetgirl]

Michele, YEAHHHH! I feel like I want to give you a few more veggies for the Fiberbaby!

[poetgirl]

Whoops I hit send instead of the veggies. Tired!
Here goes: For the Fiberbaby! ::
And a few more of these for good measure...

Frog~Swim team swim! Fingers crossed for a lucky fertilization! Cheers to ya.

Rivka~Well, ??? First, it's great it looks like you're possibly Oing after all this time. Maybe your body didn't want to O w/out Dh around? I don't know what to say about the CT? I think your plan right now sounds logical. It is so hard when things aren't quite the optimal way of working out and you have to come up with these strange Plan Bs, isn't it? Here you waited so long for this and now, the big ? GL with whatever you decide. We're rooting for this cycle to get along and barrel forward!

Mischievium~How I've longed for your deliciously long posts . Wishing you love and support and a fabulous new home and easy answers and a non-Cushings dx and hugs. I wonder though...I don't recall you having issues w/ amenorrhea/anov. cycles. Is that accurate?

Kat~This sounds really good! I hope you are stickily pregnant! Best wishes.

Jencat~Hi bud! How are you doing? Thinking of you! Keeping busy? I may take up jigsaw puzzles or brush up on my algebra or something...

Laura~It's good to hear from you. I think of you so much these days. I can't imagine how hard it must be to return to the business of life. How inconsequential it must seem...Prayers for your sister continue. Thank you for adding her picture in your sig. She's lovely. I'm so sorry there still is no progress on who could possibly have done such a thing. I truly hope your family gets the resolution and justice of an answer. And, my stars, prayers to your DH too. What a tough tough time for you two. Keep each other close and however you need to grieve and manage your life right now is fine. No judgments. Just remember to take good care of each other and go day by day. I hope eventually from this tragic year's end springs a healthy surgery and new life into your life.
:

My temps are high, probably largely from the Clomid and progesterone! I do feel better now that my progesterone is up in the 2ww. I think it's really dramatically hard when the est. goes down and the prog. is not up yet. Charting sure makes you look at your moods like clockwork and when they're as inflated as they've been on these meds, it's a pretty clear pattern. I'm not very hopeful. Just taking it day by day, I'm a bit worn from gearing up for disappointment. I think somewhere in the last few days, I've surrendered to the possibility that this has a timetable independent of mine and somehow, my life needs to proceed. I even had a cup of coffee a few times this week which I had quit before TTC. (I know, big scandalous shocker!). I had been just crying and crying in my meditations and just letting that happen and yesterday, I got the very strong intuition that that was enough of that and I needed to send love back into my body. What a gift.
Please send good thoughts toward my sister in Boston. She's 37, also dealing w/ infertility and just finished a difficlut round of injectables followed by 2 IUIs. She's also had a hard road and I'd love to see her preg.

Now who's got a long post!

[~Adorkable~]

The Lemonade & The Lemons Post...

well, after getting a high 32 on a LH blood test done monday afternoon, i got a barley positive opk on wed early evening, a huge BFP OPK thurs morning and now a neg on thurs night. I also got them to retake the blood lh test this afternoon so that should confirm that i had a very strong surge that lasted a few days. It is really amazing and just a luck of appointment timing that we even caught it to know it very happened. the fact that i have had nothing but negative or borderline opk in the past months ( i fact i do not think the docs knew) and that it has gone neg again, seems to me to rule out a chronic high LH that would be indicative of a problem.
I also noticed yesterday that my cervix shot higher than i have felt it in months, I'm surprised it is not triggering my gag reflex! CM is still not here, it never really is. In the end that may be my only hang up. I do have PreSeed and have been using it this whole week.
I have rescheduled my CT for 3 weeks out and hope to never need it.
I got a barrage of fasting blood tests today, along with my retest of the FSH/LH i got TSH, T4, testosterone, progesterone, insulin resistance something, and a few more that i could not figure out from the jumble of letters and will know more tomorrow or next week. this is the first time in my life i am agreeable to such test happy doctors!
Yes I am now temping, vaginally since it seems to work better for me, better late than never and who knows if it will tell anything this cycle, but i am doing it now at least.

Today is also the first day DH ever said unprompted, "i hope you get pregnant in the next few months" that was really big for me, i have worried that he has only agreed to make me happy, so for him to say it with a hear t to heart talk we were having meant the world to me.

now for the lemons...


the heart to heart talk we were having was us dealing with the news he just got from his new Army unit, he is deploying in May.

[ms sig]

frog - it's nice to meet you.

mischievium - it's nice to meet you. it is very encouraging to hear that cushings syndrome is very treatable, and i wish you luck with that.

laura - i'm so sorry. . my heart goes out to you. it feels awkward couching this sentiment between other greetings and comments, but i want to send you love and send you healing.

[frog]

Gooooooooooooo, FiberBaby!

Our IUI is complete! Please move me to waiting to know.

The upside: I believe we totally nailed the timing.

The downside: vasovagal response, which sucked beyond belief.

The funny side: This morning's first song on my iPod: REM's Night Swimming.

[jem1976]

I hope you'll all forgive me for not doing individuals and just sending a *hug* to everyone.

I'm still very down at the moment. When I first started this stage of TTC 3 months ago I felt very positive that I was doing something more than just allowing nature to take it's course. The first cycle felt very good to me DH was totally on board. Cycle 2 our timing sucked....our bd life has never been that active in fact there have been months since TTC when there has been no chance of me getting pregnant due to no BDing having taken place. My DH just has a low sex drive and I am not that confident instigating things as he rejected me so many times early on in our relationship, I have been working on myself in that regard but it's hard for me.

My main purpose for starting to use a fertility monitor and starting to temp was so that I could give my doc some info on what goes on with my body as I really think that I need to go see him armed with as much info as possible, of course I am also harbouring the hope that within these months we will get a bfp and I wont need to go see him except to confirm that I am pregnant. Now as my 32nd birthday approaches I'm wondering if I'm doing the right thing, we're 3 months off of 2 years TTC. Thats the deadline I'd set myself before I would get professional advice my qustion ladies is am I fooling myself? Should I go see the doc now and get things started? or should I wait for my personal deadline and go armed with 6 months worth of data?

Sorry this is so long any advice or thoughts would be very welcome....

[JustKiya]

Personally, Jem, I would go now - esp. if DH hasn't done an S/A yet. I'm going to the doc on Monday, and I'm going to be fibbing about exactly how long we've been trying (it's only 2 months off of a full year) because I want to get the blood tests and the referrals (if needed) rolling. You can always go BACK with the six months worth of data - but if something comes up on the tests that you can address now - tis better to know now, than 3 months from now, ya know?

: Michelle!!! I'm so happy you've got a sticky babe!!!!

Frog - we don't have a waiting to know section - should we start one? You've been hanging out in the One Thread!! : for the insem to stick!

Oh, I'm so sorry rivka! Another friend of mine is TTC'ing, and her hubby is supposed to deploy in May too... *sigh* But YAY! for the amazingly serendipitous testing day - here's hoping you caught that egg!

Only on day 3 of my cycle - but this cycle again, I'm noticing something - different. No cramps. Utterly, none. I get a VERY mild low backache sometimes if I'm drinking a particularily strong cup of RRL - but otherwise, nothing. And I'm passing some HONKERS of clots (TMI, I know) so it's kind of suprising and unsettling, all at once. I used to get monster cramps the day before and the first day of my period - now, I spot for a day or two instead. I haven't really changed anything - esp. not last period.... except the RRL, actually - I started that two (three?) months ago - could it really make that much of a difference?

[~Adorkable~]

Hi jem1976,

I don't know about other monitors, but this pink, although very festive, is pretty hard on the eyes and I find myself only skimming posts that are written using it. Thought you might want the feed back.

[frog]

Originally Posted by earthymama2b

Frog - we don't have a waiting to know section - should we start one? You've been hanging out in the One Thread!! : for the insem to stick!

Oh, duh! No, we don't need to start one. I'm in the One Thread and the Queer TTC thread and just pasted the update in. My bad!

Thanks for the good wishes, everyone.

[jencat]

sunnykat - so... what's going on? how do you feel?

Laura - thanks for checking in with us. I know we are all praying for you. I'm so sorry this is such a tough time for you. I hope your appetite returns soon. I'm making you some virtual chicken noodle soup, sweetie, and sending you a big hug.

Michelle! I'm so happy for you and fiberbaby!! I agree with rivka that your visit lifted my heart! When and if you are so inclined, we love to hear updates!! Are you showing? Are you buying maternity clothes???

Poet - hey clomid buddy! I'm glad to hear that you sent some love into your body in your meditations. We all need to send ourselves more love, don't we!? So is that baby shower this weekend? Be strong, girl! But give yourself a break too. Manage the situation for success... I know you'll do fine. Are you still feeling emotional or has it worn off a little? (Don't worry about the coffee! I had a martini last weekend...)

rivka - so sorry to hear DH will be deployed in May. Woman, I don't know what to say about your tests and what in the world your body is doing... I have to say I feel terrible for what you're going through. It must be very frustrating!! Hopefully, the dr's will be able to help you. Have you had a full physical lately?

frog - Go swimmers! Glad to hear your timing was on. Sad to hear about your response. I had a vasovagal response once after getting an allergy shot. It was freaky!

jem - I'm sorry you're still feeling down, honey. I believe you said you've been talking to a therapist about things. Maybe you need medication? I'm obviously not trying to imply anything b/c I don't know the whole situation... but I feel for you and want something to bring you back to happiness... With regards to ttc, I think it would be fine for you to go to the dr now - maybe it would put your mind at ease not having to wait another 3 months. There could be a very simple, treatable problem that has been in the way of you getting PG. It will take a while to get all the tests, etc. so might as well get started now. Hang in there, honey. I'm sending some sunny vibes your way.

Kiya - good luck on Monday!! My recommendation is to make a list and make sure you get to ask all your questions. Don't let the dr hurry you out like they can. My first visit with a ob/gyn about ttc was disappointing and I wish I had been more insistent that he spend more time with us.

Holy cow - I'm going on and on. I have the day off so I'm just lounging around... Worked out this morning and then I'll do some good old fashioned mall shopping this afternoon. I have been wanting some clothes. And I need to find a bday present for my mom.

I'm feeling fine. 11 DPO. Doing the usual oscillating between hoping I'm PG and trying to make myself assume I'm not PG so I don't get disappointed. I figure AF should come Tuesday. Maybe Wednesday. If nothing by Thursday I'll probably start to get excited - for better or worse. No symptoms of any kind - I feel the same as I ALWAYS do... so I guess that's not a great sign. Gonna try not to think about it this weekend. DH and I will keep busy cleaning the house. Then tomorrow we're taking our friends kids (3,8,10) to see Water Horse (it's their xmas present). That will be fun!!! And we'll watch the Charger's game Sunday. And probably have dinner with some friends. And I have a few books. Hopefully, these things will keep me busy and keep my mind off my uterus!!

Well, if you got this far... have a great weekend! :

[jem1976]

Rivka - sorry posting in pink is a habit I've gotten into it's kinda my trademark, does anyone else feel the same about it? If so I'll stop....

Earthmama - thanks for the feedback, sorry that AF is not treating you well, I've noticed that since I started to take more notice the slightest change in my cycle sends me into a spin. I think all of us here tend to pay more attention to whats going in our bodies but if you are concerned go and see someone just to put your mind at rest.

Frog - got my fingers crossed for ya hun.

Jencat - thanks for the sunny wishes hun. my problem with medication is that I had a severe allergic reaction to the anti-depressants that the doc gave me and even though he gave me a script for different ones I never went and got them cos I was too scared, maybe I need to just bite the bullet and do it but I kinda like getting through it on my own it gives me a sense of achievement ya know?

[~Adorkable~]

Originally Posted by jem1976

Rivka - sorry posting in pink is a habit I've gotten into it's kinda my trademark, does anyone else feel the same about it? If so I'll stop....

As i concept and style i love it, maybe just one of these slightly darker colors for eye ease

either way, do what makes you feel good, that is what the forum is for.