I"ve been processing it a lot. I went to playgroup today and all the moms were so excited to see me and ask about the birth when they heard I'd been there. How do you say, it was the most awful birth I've seen in 3 years of doing this. Abuse, lies, iatrogenic, etc..
So I said, well it was pretty traumatic and she has a lot of physical and emotional healing to deal with so for now just support her and when she's ready to tell her story she will because it's not my story to tell.
One of the moms at playgroup used CNMs with her first birth and is due in 3 weeks with her second and loves to give me "educational opportunities" as she calls them for me to practice on her. So today she already knew baby position and said, I don't know you tell me and let me palpate and find heart tones. Her tummy is tight and is all baby and if my guess is right, it a BIG BOY as her girl was very big and this is the biggest one I've ever palpated. Fun stuff to make up for a crap birth.