Co-sleeping was fine before, with the other babies. This time I wake up in a panic, gasping even, trying to find her. It's not like she's far away either, she's usually in my armpit. 
I just don't understand it. Does anyone have a clue why I would be so nervous about this?

I just don't understand it. Does anyone have a clue why I would be so nervous about this?








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Normally I have on sleeping tummy to tummy on me because that way I can feel if she starts gasping.