OMG I am SOOOO tired!!! NO baby yet.... both a
I'm sure you all understand both sides of that.
I've been up with serious, regular contractions since midnight. By the time I moved to L&D, had the GBS+ disappointment, waiting on one of the midwives, "allowed" a NST, ASKED for an AFI and paced, and paced and paced and sat on the ball. Unable to lay down and rest for the pain... I finally asked for a speculum exam...
The room filled up with docs to come to agreements with me:
no this, no that, only 2 nst's a week, going home at 36 weeks IF, blah blah blah that i've done since I got here...
They then took out the light and sterile spec....
My cervix is still closed, high and posterior?
I'm back in my "regular" room.
After 8 hrs. of CONVINCING regular "labor" They've all but stopped and I'm tired and I'm sore.
The GOOD news is: The baby looks/sounds/feels great. I have PLENTY of water for someone that has no water
and who knows... maybe I WILL get to homebirth in a week and a half AFTERALL.
I can not BELIEVE it.
I bet that if I could crawl off to a private woodpile or closet somewhere... I'd actually go into "real" labor... just like the cats and dogs used to do.
Perhaps she's waiting to go home... oh I hope I don't have to do this until then though... how can I POSSIBLY do this for that long? I will learn to sleep standing up... each time I lay down, HARD, really painful contractions... I get up, they are still there, but not so painful.
How will I get sleep that I already so desparately need?
sigh... and I'm still blown away about the GBS+ thing.
has the combination of hospital & docs REALLY made this such a PITA, go nowhere labor? Think I'll deliver 5 minutes after I walk through the door of my house?