... for replying. This sounds exactly like the thoughts I have had for awhile. It's so good to know that I'm not insane or a real threat to anyone. I don't remember if I had any of these thoughts before I had my first, but I still have them, even two years after my second. Could it be that I still have PPD? I kind of feel like I need to deal with this before / while ttc #3, but I also don't want to deal with it or admit it for fear that my ability to care for my family will be called in to question.
Also, I refused medication (long story about options) after #2, because I did not want to give up bfing. I knew (or thought) that when I came off the meds that I would feel so guilty for depriving my ds because I couldn't handle things. I had also read/heard about the tunnel effect that some anti-depressants can have, and wanted to avoid that.
Has anyone had experiences with meds that would prove me wrong?