Originally Posted by snoopy13
hi cookie, welcome!
here's my update: the results from last week's tests are in and say:
1) no sign of any inflammation (as in there's no white blood cells in the spinal fluid, and inflammation is what ostensibly causes the numbness)
2) no signs of recent or acute infection (as in the zoster theory), and
3) no signs of MS (as in these things called oglioclonal bands that are usually present)
1) good news
2) not so good news, as i was taking the valtrex for nothing, and it would have been great to have a treatable cause, and
3) good news.
which adds up to weird news as i still feel numb and lousy. but i think i will start feeling less lousy when the drug is out of my system, as it has side effects like headache that i think i've been having if its not from the spinal tap.
That's awesome news snoopy! All in all I mean. No MS must be just such a relief. Very weird that you're numb and there's no reason though. Although, come to think of it, they couldn't find a reason with me, and the neurologist said to me that that's quite common (after telling me it was psychosomatic, which I was really pissed about!). So will it be a case of just wait and see?? See if it goes away or just maintains etc etc??
Excellent that you can stop taking the valtrex, seeing as how you were never very comfortable with it. I can't believe you've been quietly putting up with side effects from that, as well as all of the 1st trimester symptoms! That's a shit load for one person to have to take.
At the moment I'm in my 19th week, but I still keep getting nauseous and I'm really tired all the time. Everyone keeps telling me I'll get my second trimester beans (energy) and I'll feel really great, but it keeps just not happening. So I have a terrible feeling that I'm gonna be one of the unlucky ones that feels shit all the way through. It's nothing like as consistent as it was in the 1st trimester, but it still pops up quite a bit. Bummer!
And - sorry about having a whinge session! - I'm getting a lot of cramps at the moment. I know they say that it's normal, but they're so like period cramps that it just really freaks me out. I still can't believe in my heart that I'll be one of the lucky people that ends up holding a beautiful, perfect baby, so every time I get these cramps I feel like it's the end. I have this constant feeling that the pregnancy is all part of an act or a play, and that the cramps will come and I'll get my period then we can go on with life as it was supposed to be for me. That we can all put an end to the act. Which I really don't want to do - I want it to turn out to be real and to get the beautiful baby at the end.
Does that sound really crazy?! I guess it's just all so abstract that it's hard to really incorporate the whole thing in to how I view myself and my life. It probably gets incorporated pretty quickly when the baby comes though!
Question for you all - who is enjoying being pregnant? Annie loved
being pregnant. She just felt really calm and stable, and really happy all of the time. And she felt in control. Annie's always suffered from depression and ADD (she can't concentrate etc), but during her pregnancy was the only time I've seen her actually be able to watch a whole movie in one sitting. It was amazing! It just stabilised her.
I love the idea of this little being growing inside of me, and I love the joy and excitement of being pregnant, but it hasn't stabilised me like it did Annie. It's done the opposite - I have no control over my frustration, and I get really emotional very easily, which is so not part of my character. I've always been very calm and easy going. It's weird being this feisty, emotional person!