I am so Nervous.

[melissabb]

The quoted part below is from a previous post of mine. Well, today is the day for the meeting and I am SOOOOO nervous. I just can't put my finger on why on earth I am so nervous about this meeting. There are knots in my stomach and butterflies etc etc.

I am counting the hours/minutes until this meeting starts. It is now 3pm and it is at 430pm.

I am so nervous. Part of me is nervous because I feel that if he is wrongly labelled or I don't agree etc then I feel I am in for the fight of my life with the school, hubby etc. I will have no choice but HS. This is what I really, really think is best.

Anyway, I am doing some deep breathing. I am going to try to remain calm and open-minded. I will keep my "opinions" to myself until I atleast hit the car on the way out!

Gosh, I don't know why this is making me so nervous.

I put the title in Quotation marks because I think that the word "disability" really interprets as "learns differently". I hate that schools now have to label every single kid. It is so wrong.

Anyway, I have wanted to HS my son for a while now. He is in grade 2, barely reads and now is having difficulty in subjects he previously excelled at. It is hard to do a grade 2 math problem that contains words when you can't read the sentences clearly. Therefore he is now "failing" at math and he is VERY math minded.

So, the school suspects that he has a "problem". They wanted to do a test to see if anything is amiss. I agreed solely on the basis that if they label him as anything but "normal" that I would freak out and pull him out of school. Kinda my last straw thing and hubby will finally relent and see that I am not backing down and I will actually have some solid evidence that the public school system is failing my son.

Well, they did the test and now the Resource Teacher has requested a meeting with us. I am assuming that a meeting means that they found something. Otherwise, wouldn't they just tell me on the phone that all was good???

[3momkmb]

Calming, open mind vibes :

I'll be thinking of you!! Let us know how it goes.

[thehippiemama]

I hope your meeting has gone well. Let us know what happened.

[quietplease]

I hope the meeting went well. Let us know what you decide to do irt homeschooling or staying in school.

[melissabb]

The meeting went well. I remained calm if only on the exterior. Anyway, it appears my son does not have a defined "learning disability" as per the results of the assessments. The school wants to have him attend a morning phonics lab each day during the non-essential first 30 minutes of school everyday when the other kids are doing opening exercises. This is their answer. Basically, "try harder and offer more language/reading time".

We are sitting there in those tiny chairs and the two school teachers ask "So, what do you think. What do you want us to do?". The hubby has the nerve to actually look at me and ask me. I was just done. I said, ' Well, you know what my position is on this. I want to pull him from school and teach him at home."

The two 'educators' looked at me like I had two heads. I swear one of them actually let out a small gasp. Of course, this was hubby's moment of glory see that he was in like-minded company.

I mean really and truly. WHAT WE ARE DOING IS NOT WORKING! In any other aspect of life if you did the same thing over and over and it didn't work you would surely try something else. So why is this so different? I wanted to scream this at them.

That's it. I am done. I can't fight everyone. Sigh.

I am so upset. I am tearing up as I type this. I just feel like I have no say in how my child is raised. He is afterall, 50% mine (not that anyone can own him but for sake of parenting YKWIM.) and what I feel should have merit. Why should hubby get his way on this issue. How is my opinion in this area any less important or right simply because it is not shared by the main stream population?

I am torn. I don't want to turn our home or relationship into a state of turmoil. We have always seen eye-to-eye on everything. We get along well and honestly, in the 15 yrs we have been together I think we have only ever fought 3 times and those were all in the first 5 yrs. I just don't want to ruin an otherwise great home for my kids over schooling. I mean, it is better to have them as 'wards of the public school system' and have a great home to come to at the end of the day then to HS in a broken or unhappy home.

I don't know. At the same time I feel so much animosity for my husband and the teachers. I don't possibly know how I am going to sit down with my son and do homework with him or be able to share in anything happy he tells me about his day. So much of me just wants to boycott it all and just be non-participatory. I know it is wrong and my son will pay the price. But my gut just says, "to hell with them all. If hubby wants him to go to school then let HIM get him there, pick him up, pack his lunch, do homework with him, attend any meetings, find his library books, help with his projects etc etc etc" You know?

My hubby is also a very involved dad. I can not complain about him. He loves his kids. He reads with them at night. He bathes them, clothes them, takes them on walks. He is not an absentee.

I know I am going on and on. I feel some release just typing what I feel about this situation. I am at a loss. I don't know what to do and it is eating me up inside.

[PumpkinSeeds]

Is there any way that your husband will agree to taking it year by year with homeschooling?

I'm really sorry for the difficulties you are having and hope it can be resolved favorably to everyone's interests.