Daily Check-In for 1/17 - Page 2

[desert_mommi]

39 +2 today.
Got up and made biscuits from scratch with my 3 and 4yo. They enjoyed it...Trying to make myself spend special time with them right now since I expect the next one any minute.
I will go into the midwife sometime tomorrow if I don't go today. I am feeling down and somewhat disappointed to not have a baby yet. I keep thinking everyday I don't have it is a day I don't have help afterwards as my mom is leaving next thursday. EVERYONE thought I'd go early b/c I did with #1 and #2. Well, not happening.
Saturday is my birthday, maybe I will have a little baby as my present.

So tired even though I slept fine last night.
I think I am getting that darn cold that has been making rounds in my house since before Thanksgiving. I agree with whoever it was that said the baby won't come till March if it is waiting for everyone to be well around here.

[mb122]

39+4

so sad for grateful_bambina. such devastating news.

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nothing happening here. baby is sluggish this AM. may go in to be monitored this afternoon if things don't feel "normal". my induction is scheduled for next thursday, but i'm contemplating switching it to monday. we'll see. at least my midwife sister could be there if i went with monday.

[AngelaB]

I am having a crappy morning too. Nothing to go into detail about but I have 5 days until my due date and I am starting to get impatient. I am feeling not so friendly about dp being here again too. He might not even make it for the birth anyways. It snowed here last night and my mw was worried that I would go into labor last night but no such luck, just kidding! She is a ways away in the country so the roads would have been pretty hard for her. Maybe today would be a good day!

Im going to feel my heart aching all day for Greatful Bambina and it really puts my petty problems into perspective and I think I will try to get out with the kids to do something fun and enjoy what I have. Im so sad for her.

Angela

[kehliouise]

i am sitting here on the computer typing but i am supposed to be driving to a midwife appointment right now, but i just can't seem to motivate myself to get out the door. i would have to go with ds to the appointment by myself. which means he goes crazy and the appointment usually only lasts like 15 minutes. i have to drive like two hours to get there and then two hours to get home. i want dh to go too but he has a meeting this afternoon. four hours of driving for 15 minutes of appointment! i just don't feel good this morning either. i sort of feel like vomiting. i'm having like hot flashes too. i tried to get a later appointment with the midwife but she called and told me to come now, she doesn't have any later appointments. yuck. thats great. i guess i'll go.

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Hello. So sad to hear the news about grateful_bambina. It really puts this all into perspective.

I've been cramping off and on for two weeks now, dilated to one, zero station, and 95% effaced. I'll see my midwife again tomorrow. My due date is saturday but the family came early since I seemed to be progressing. Now that everyone's here I haven't had any cramping in days and we're all sitting around looking at each other trying not to step on each others toes. This gets really interesting since 4 of us and 7 dogs are trying to move around a 14x16 living room. Aaaahhh it's getting crazy. Think I'll take DH upstairs for some good afternoon romp and see if we can kickstart this labor. Come on baby....

By the way....A few months ago I was searching around the MDC and heard about RRL tea. I've been drinking two cups a day for about two months, but remember reading something about drinking a really strong brew of it as you go into labor. It's suppose to speed up labor and help with bleeding afterwards? Does anyone know how much tea to brew up. I think it was a double dose? Just thought I'd ask.

peace, love, and hopefully labor...
Katie

[MAMARabbitt]

39 weeks 2 days
I've been feeling really strange lately, nauseated, headachy & lucid or dizzy. I went to the midwife & she said all my vitals are fine. The baby is in perfect position & had a growth spurt. So now she's not a "runt" anymore the MW said. I still feel funny though. Is this normal? I've never been this pregnant before so I don't know...

[my kidlets and me]

Originally Posted by HypnoMama

Hi Mamas,
Spent most of the morning crying for gratefulbambina. I can't imagine going through that and it scares me greatly as I approach 42 weeks. Im just super emotional about it all and wish this baby could just hurry up and arrive.

Ditto. I had a NST this morning (I'm 42 weeks today), and baby's heartbeat is low normal (about 123 bpm), but he/she wasn't moving around much, which isn't necessarily a bad thing, but....well, I'm just anxious to have baby in arms and out of me. I still might be induced this afternoon - we're expecting a call from the hospital this afternoon to see if there's room.

Gratefulbambina - words cannot express how sorry I am at your loss.

[poisonedpenny]

38+3

Well, I wrote a check-in earlier today, but it seems I didn't bother posting it. Well, it just goes along with the rest of the day today. I'm in a totally crappy mood. I didn't get hardly any sleep, and everything is just annoying me beyond what it should. A few inconsistent contractions, but nothing really to report.

Dov'sMom - Like you I'm still at work. Every day gets harder and harder, but I'm here until the end. I'm glad to hear that someone's going to be getting out of work though soon. Congrats! You must be ecstatic.

To-Fu - The best way to describe the contractions I'm feeling now are like if I ate WAY too much, and then a linebacker picked me up under my belly and squeezed me vigorously. Uncomfortable and slightly painful in an "Ugh! Not so tight!" kind of way. But, I can easily walk and talk and proceed as normal.

[AngelaB]

For those of you still working- I loved working when I was pregnant with my 3 boys. I worked until I had them all. I called in "in Labor" with my first and third. It was fun getting all the attention since I was waiting tables and running banquets and events at the country club. It was fun for everyone else to share the excitement too. The excercise was great too. I feel like a slug now!

last time I was pregnant I worked with this tall handsome young stud that had a major crush on me and my big belly! It was fun to teach him how to be helpful and kind to the pregnant lady but he had no shortage of compliments, He called me his sugar mama! Boy he was hot!! It was funny that all the girls his age (8 years younger then me at the time, they were 21 and I was 29)) were jealous of the pregnant married lady because Ryan had the hots for me, hee hee!

Anyways have fun at work, Im bored!!!
Angela

[To-Fu]

Originally Posted by poisonedpenny

To-Fu - The best way to describe the contractions I'm feeling now are like if I ate WAY too much, and then a linebacker picked me up under my belly and squeezed me vigorously. Uncomfortable and slightly painful in an "Ugh! Not so tight!" kind of way. But, I can easily walk and talk and proceed as normal.

Ha! This is my favorite description so far.

Thanks, mamas, for all your answers/links/tips. I guess I'm just really anxious to meet my little guy and I want to KNOW when I'm in labor. Aeeeiiii!

[Dov'sMom]

Originally Posted by poisonedpenny

38+3
Dov'sMom - Like you I'm still at work. Every day gets harder and harder, but I'm here until the end. I'm glad to hear that someone's going to be getting out of work though soon. Congrats! You must be ecstatic.

I'm a lawyer, so my work is entirely sedentary -- I sit at a desk all day typing or reading. My boss reminds me every now and then that if I'm not feeling up to working I can go on leave already -- I tell him it's a lot easier to sit at a desk all day than to run around after a one-year-old!

I probably gave the impression that I'm going to stop working after this baby. I wish I were. I wish I were. I wish I were. But it's not really going to happen. DH has been looking for real work for over a year, and he hasn't found it yet, so he's planning to start law school in the fall. We're both very leery of debt, and I will probably keep working at least until he has a 2L summer job offer, which is another year and a half.

[amandamac]

39+2

Just waiting :-) BabyMac is still so active, I think, he/she will be hanging in there way past thier due date.

Thank you mammas for all of the great info. To those past due, I'm sending happy labor...vibes.

Get well wishes for those who need to feel better!

I'm feeling lazy, hope the nesting kicks in tomorrow :-)

~Amanda&BabyMac

[HardCoreMom]

things i have learned today:

1. i have been deeply affected by carrie's loss. i don't want to write about it, cause it's not my tragedy, but hers and her family's. but it's left me very introspective and terribly depressed, having shed many, many tears throughout the day.

2. i do not want my MIL to come back once she gets better. i know that realistically, this is foolish, as i have no one to watch my kids when i have to go to the hospital, and i should be more caring for their needs. i ought to be counting the minutes until she gets back, just so that i know my kids will be comfortable, cause they would totally FREAK OUT if they weren't left with a grandparent. but this house- my house- feels so much safer without her here. not in any "dangerous" sort of sense of the word "safe," i just need space to sort out all of these pre-labor energies i'm feeling, and i feel so terribly defensive and encumbered by someone living with us who doesn't echo all of our most important sentiments. it's just a personal time these days, and i feel safer inside myself without her here. does that make sense? i haven't mentioned any of this to DH, who is eager to get her back, just so that we don't have to scramble at the last minute with the kids. (personally, i'd rather just UC here at home or even labor alone at the hospital with him watching the kids, if it meant i could be away from MIL. but that would never fly, and at this point, would be a bit selfish.)

3. i am terrified of labor this time. i broke down in tears with my mw on the phone today, talking about how the baby is posterior. she was trying to be encouraging about how i "could get through it," but my last labor was so perfect and fast, and all this time i've been prepping my body for the best possible labor, and i already feel like a failure because the baby is malpositioned. i was counting on things being quick and intense, and i am not at all prepared for a long and intense labor.

4. i just feel sad and scared and want to be alone. or maybe with some other pregnant moms who understand how i'm feeling (but i have no one IRL). but not with my MIL.

thanks for listening

[Ruthiegirl]

Oh hardcoremom, I completely understand how you feel.

I have cried deeply over Carrie's loss today. I am so very sad for her and suddenly a little scared for my own baby. It has been a rather blue day here as well.

Ah, the mothers...my mother and MIL both confessed that they just didn't want to be bothered with making the trip out to be with us after the baby is born. My mom says it is no fun coming here. We don't have a tv and she feels obligated to help out around the house. My MIL is on a ski vacation. She says she'll come for an afternoon when the baby is a month or so. She just doesn't like newborns.

At first, I was deeply hurt. But now I am feeling rather relieved. Like you, I need the peace and calm of my home to be in place before this birth happens. I also would rather UC at home if it means keeping the calm and serenity. I need an emotional safety net right now, the warmth of my dh and children, and my few friends who really do care for me.

I wish I could bring you tea. The comfort of another pregnant mom would be very good right now. I know I am days away from holding my baby, but there seems to be a small eternity before me and that moment when I meet our new child. Reading about Carrie's loss, listening to my mom complain, hearing my MIL congratulate herself on her ski turns makes the time feel very long and drawnout.

I think I am headed for a long bath and deep cry tonight. I need to shake all this fear and negativity.

I know this online community can only offer so much, but know that you are in my heart and mind tonight. Be well.

[MamaFern]

im totally in the same place mommas.. ive cried so much today.. for carrie and her baby and for all of the other sad stuff in the world. i guess its just a day for crying. somehow the release helps though. i feel empty but calmer than i have in days. but its hard.. and i too with i could bring you tea and talk about our fears and hopes and babes

im sorry that you are scared about labor. i wish i could say "everything will be fine" but it may not be, we all know that. but i do know that even if it hurts like hell, once that baby is in your arms it will be worth it. every painful second. and i know the feeling of crying on the phone with the midwife.. i feel like ive done it so much this time around..

im trying to stay positive, even in this gloom..its hard, but we need to be, for our babies and families.

[wearbaby]

40+1
I'm also so sorry for Carrie's loss- even though I'm not around here much.
I'm 1 day after EDD, I'm starting to need some support in being patient. Was induced with DS at 41+2. Having intermittent (like 10/day total) crampy contractions. Really having to try hard to be patient.

[HardCoreMom]

thanks, everyone. really, ruthiegirl and mamafern- thank you.

i wish we could huddle together for real, instead of just online in this virtual "community."

but thank goodness for this place in times like tonight. your words are immense comfort to me.

tonight feels like one of those times i'll look back and realize there was so much more going on than i had perspective for at the time. it feels like i'm having a brush with something much bigger than how i'm feeling where i am right in this moment. i don't know if that makes any sense. i think i understand what you said, ruthiegirl, when you wrote about a "small eternity." tonight feels like one of those moments that the hours may pass by in normal speed, but the moments are filled with precious, precious truths that cannot be counted in time, and can hardly be realized in the seconds they are happening.


i am trying *so hard* to get my baby to turn. it's just getting me discouraged and feeling more helpless and powerless and scared.

i know it's not supposed to be this way. i am supposed to trust (and respect) my baby. i just don't understand why he insists on being posterior when i know it's going to make things to much more difficult on me, and i've been doing everything "right" to assure it didn't happen.

tea, anyone?

[HypnoMama]

mykidletsandme, I hope that as I type you are going through spontaneous labor. If not, I hope that all your cervix needs is a little postglandin and everything will happen easily and quickly (but not too quickly). I had a BPP today and everything was good but my fluid is starting to decline, so I know how the measurements can be really hard emotionally.

HCM,
I can relate on the MIL stuff, for me it's both my MIL and mother. I told them early on in the pregnancy that they couldnt come until a couple weeks after the birth. My mom wanted to come in Dec and I said it was just too close because I needed my space to feel safe. She was not happy and didnt talk to me for a couple weeks. Whatever, I need to do what I need to do to feel safe. You should too. It would not irrevocably damage your kiddos to be watched by close family friends if you have any available.



Everyone,

It's so amazing how a group of women that have never met and are separated by hundreds if not thousands of miles can all be experiencing such similar feelings. Some days I curse the internet because I think it allows people to become more reclusive.. and others, Im so thankful for the folks out there in cyberspace that remind me I'm not alone.

Well, I did have my midwife appt today and Im making slow but sure progress. Im a bit more dilated, she was able to get up to the knuckle in for a membrane strip, and Im definitely more effaced, and my cervix has moved forward. All great signs but the clock is ticking rather fast at this point so tomorrow starts the great "get the baby out before an MD has to" race.

I get to wake up and drink a yummy castor oil shake and see how it goes. Then if that doesn't work, Saturday we will do some more membrane stripping and try the cohoshes.

Pray for me mamas. I really want to have this baby at home. I can't tell you how much I hate hospitals.

[secondintheoven]

39w1d - Feeling pretty good today. It snowed a little this morning so I took my son out to play in the snow. Within seconds, our dog went under the deck looking for the rabbits and came out head to toe muddy! So...needless to say, our play time was cut short so I could give the dog a bath. Then we got cleaned up to go to the Children's Museum. We spent the whole afternoon there and came home. We brought my nephew home for a little bit and played. Now I'm in "rest" mode and going to bed soon!

Good luck to all the mamas!

[my kidlets and me]

Hugs to everyone.

I've felt more movement from babe this afternoon, so I'm feeling a little bit better about the NST from this morning. I'm still feeling so sad for Carrie, more reflective about pregnancy and birth and just how IMPORTANT our job is. *sigh*

If only I could guarantee that I'd labour spontaneously tonight...even today, when I stopped by my dr's office to check whether I made the induction list, he said it was in my best interest to labour spontaneously....now, I like my dr, but I felt like strangling him. Don't you think that if I knew the secret to going into labour myself, I would have somehow achieved this already? Grrrrr...

Ruthiegirl and HCM, hugs to you while your sort out your personal space in regards to your mothers/mils. I agree that birth is one state that has no room for negativity.

I'll take a cup of tea, if someone's offering...