Anyone else just feel blah?

[operamommy]

Bleck. Ick. Blah.

Those are my moods lately. Anyone else this way? I don't want to clean the house, I don't want to go out, I don't even want to craft - which is completely out of character for me. Nesting? Forget about it! I forced myself to order some diaper covers and have done a bit of decluttering, but most days all I really want to do is sit on the couch all day and stare at the TV. Oh, and nap when possible. I have some adorable material that I just washed up to make burp towels and a blanket with, and I have no desire whatsoever to do anything with it. It seems like too much effort.

It's very gray here; Januarys are always difficult, so I don't know if maybe that's part of it. I also have cut down on my antidepressant majorly, but that's been throughout the pregnancy, not just lately.

what's with my ick?

[the elyse]

i had some crazy energy last week, and it's gone now. i'm enjoying the lounging...i think my energy will pick up again. the weather definitely keeps me under the covers and on the couch....

[Gracecody]

I'm definitely feeling some of that too, esp since the baby has dropped and I suddenly have HORRIBLE sciatica on one side that has me limping around the house. No amount of time on hands and knees doing pelvic tilts has helped at all. anyway, as a result I am feeling a little blue. I took a nice bath yesterday and did go to a prenatal water class, both helped me feel a lot better. Just trying to take good care of myself to prepare for labor as that's about all I can do...

[sarahn4639]

Throw in a little bit of crabbiness and I'm right there with you! It's not all the time for me but most of the time!

[nolonger]

I didin't get out of bed at all on Monday or Tuesday and kept ds home from school to play video games and grunt when I felt like yelling, "I love you son!" or "You're the best son in the world!" from the other room.

I swear, I could have just stayed that way until mid March if I didn't have to work on Wednesdays.

Baby dropped on Sunday. I didn't know fourth babies did that, since my second and third never did.

[TrishWSU]

Yep, that's exactly how I've felt the last two days! I just don't want to do anything in particular. I have a big diaper order I need to be working on but I get bored everytime I start sewing, I'm almost finished knitting a soaker but get bored after I knit more than a row or two, there's nothing on tv, my house needs to be cleaned but who really wants to do that, there's only so much crap you can look up on the internet in one day, and it gets really uncomfortable laying in bed ALL day. Bleh, what's a person to do?! I need to get of my butt and go see my friend and her new baby. Maybe that'll give this one a hint...

[firecat]

Oh I am so there with you. I did have an attack of decluttering and organizing the baby's room but other than that I don't feel like doing much. Dogs haven't been walked all week, I saved dishes and vacuuming for this morning since dh will be back in town today (he was gone since monday), I have a bunch more cleaning to do but I really REALLY don't feel like it!!
I can't take a nap even though i want to because as soon as I lay down my heartburn gets me right back up again. I wish I could stop eating so it would go away but I am always hungry!! Ok heartburn rant over
I think I will get some more motivation next week because dh will be back at home.

[wearefour]

Yep, for the past couple of weeks I've just been a ball of energy...cleaning, doing laundry, going shopping, etc. But for the past few days I haven't wanted to get out of my pj's. All I want to do is sleep, read, or waste time online.

[fearfightswinter]

My nesting urge kicked in to over-drive, but the issue with that is, I'm totally exhausted. This pregnancy is sucking the energy out of me, I just feel so tired and generally poor all over. I'll be excited once she's ready to pop!

[Gunter]

i just want to lie around and read and window shop online for things i cannot afford but want before the babe comes. yep, that's it. DH is carrying so much of the weight around here right now b/c of my slump. i am so blah with you. blah.

[GreenRose]

I just hit a blah zone this a.m. ... not feeling physically bad, but mood just dropped for no reason. Abivalent about everything. Eh.

[operamommy]

I'm starting to wonder if a good bit of it could be the lack of sleep. Last night (ha) I didn't get to sleep till almost 5:30am. Luckily dh is home today, so he let me sleep in....but lots of nights I can't get to bed before 3 am, and then I have the broken sleep that so many of us do right now.

I'm hoping I feel a bit less "blah" today and actually get something done! I feel like I'm completely wasting these last baby-free weeks.

Hugs to all. Blah is NO kinda fun.

[Gunter]

are we all still blah or is anyone feeling better? and, what has helped get you out of the slump, if anything?

for me, getting some clothes organized for the babe and some dipes. plus, it's hopeful that DH may get a full-time job very soon...he's just been working part time since we got back into the country a few months ago. those things have helped me a bit.

[nolonger]

Well, it took having this little boy to get me out of my slump. I just kept getting grumpier and grumpier, and I think the main thing that's keeping me from collecting up all of my little posts and trying to pach them together into a coherant birth story is that I'm embarassed about how it all started.

See, I never felt done with being PREGNANT, but when ellymay posted the last tmi thread about increased sex drive, I realized just how done I was with that particular symptom.

I'm not some sort of a saint and I get tired of always having to be strong. I lay in bed at night dreaming of white dresses and cakes and growing up to meet a man who would love me just like you did. The only difference is that it didn't happen for me. I met a lot of different men and had a lot of different relationships and I marrried two men I didn't love and loved two men I didn't marry, but no matter how real it felt at the time, in retrospect I have to admit that I have never once been on the receiving end of romantic love: exploitation and abuse simply don't "count"; you can't force people to love you and no amount of giving and self-sacrifice can make up for what the other person doesn't feel.

And sometimes I do think of those things. And that morning I cried. And then my water broke....

So I don't know whether to be angry or ashamed, but I'll always wonder if one man didn't hear my tears and decide that it was time to do something about it.

How embarassing. His big brother gets that way too sometimes. It's not the same as a dh and I don't even really want a dh any more, but at least my sex drive is back to its normal nonexistant self and I have these two stunning young Capricorn men who I know love me.

I am totally cool with my final baby being a dude, but what a long, strange trip it's been! When he was conceived, big bro was living on the streets, had rejected everything I had fought and struggled to give him, and separatism sure did look good to me. I'm still not ready to label myself straight or gay, but I am THRILLED to label myself as a mother of sons who hasn't failed completely.

I'll tell you how I taught ds1 to put the toilet seat down 100% reliably when our sons get a bit older.

[AlwaysByMySide]

I'm grumpy and blah, but I think it's more because it has been a very trying year, and I have been itching to get off this island and have been stuck here. There's nothing I can do to make it go faster, no matter how hard I try, and it's been extremely frustrating. I know I only get a couple more days of blah feeling, because it's going to hit me like a freight train for the last four or five days, I just know it. Add that to my fear that I'm going to go into labor before I get on the plane, and I'm a mess of anxiety too!

Thank God for DD1 - she is the only thing that keeps my spirits remotely up. (She apparently hasn't noticed my mood, probably because I don't let myself get grumpy with her. But everyone else had better watch out!)

I am hoping that in a week when I am out of here, I will have kicked the blahs, and get excited about what is to come.

[operamommy]

NOS, that was a great post. *hugs*


I've started feeling better over the last few days. I actually had a really good night's sleep last night; I guess the lack of it had affected me even more than I knew - dh immediately commented when I got up that I looked a ton better and had color in my face instead of being really pale.

Today I actually got our kitchen thoroughly cleaned, and yesterday sewed up a few burp cloths. I hope this mood continues!

[sarahn4639]

NOS there is nothing to feel guilty or angry or anything else about! I've read tons of birth stories that started with the mom having a real tear jerker or other temporary emotional breakdown. That kind of release can make way for other things to happen. It is so sweet that your new little man was coming to fill a need for you. What a sweet sentiment!

I actually have been feeling worse the last 2 days. I've been emotional, angry, short tempered, crying, all kinds of fun things! I hate being emotional, it is not my normal personality and it makes me feel out of control. Ggrrr, to make matters worse my DD is feeding off it and we had a horendous morning. I hate that I yelled at her. Thankfully we called daddy and he was able to talk us both down Tonight is a little better but we had to reschedule our MW appt because the roads were icy and we didn't want to risk it (it's a 40 mile drive) so DD was upset about not getting to hear the baby and so I was upset that she wsn't getting to hear the baby and emotional that a 2 year old understands and really wants to be involved with her baby sibling..... aahhh, I'll be so happy to get trough this and then the first week of birth hormone upheaval and balance back out!

to all the other mommies feeling like this.

[gingerbane]

I've been sick for two weeks straight. It's terrible. Does your immune system taper out late in pregnancy or what?