everything is a crisis

[kehliouise]

the past two days everything in my life has turned into a crisis. not a real crisis, just every single thing that requires making a decision or orchestrating a project just completely throws me for a loop. i had a break down trying to decide where my family was going to eat diner last night. i tried to go shopping with my mom and sister and ended up having to leave and go home. i just don't feel right at all. it is better when i am just at home, not having to be out of my comfort zone, where i can play and watch ds without having to worry about stuff, and where i can sit or lay down whenever i want, or eat whenever or whatever i want. we went on a mini trip yesturday (just an hour away) and being in the car with everyone just made me crazy. everything that dh said aggrivated me. everything that anyone said or asked me made me mad. then i just wanted to cry because i was making everyone miserable.

[Surfacing]

I think we can all relate to feeling irritated and overwhelmed by things right towards the end of pregnancy. If you feel like holing up and being at home, heck why not? Are you able to stay in a bit more now and take care of yourself?
Was dh and family understanding while you had said-meltdown?

[AngelaB]

Im sorry that you are having a rough time. I have to remind myself that things will change very soon.
Angela

[ollineeba]

I hear ya

[hadassah]

I totally can relate to you.....I have just been feeling very "off" for this past week I would say. And I feel most comfortable staying at home. My kids have been really getting at me and I find myself yelling at them which I hate more than anything. I feel like it's a surge of hormones or something. All I know is that I will feel SO much better when this baby finally comes.

I really feel for you......The truth really is (and I have to remind myself of this almost every moment) that this will all be over so soon for all of us. We are all just barely days away from our births.

I am just so glad I have all of you to talk with. You keep me sane.....

[muttix2]

I'm feeling the same. I don't want to go anywhere or do anything and people annoy me at the drop of a hat.

[allnaturalmama]

Aww, mama. Simplify as much as you can and nest in your cave. It sounds like your body is getting ready to give birth. (((hugs)))

[Surfacing]

Originally Posted by allnaturalmama

It sounds like your body is getting ready to give birth. (((hugs)))

I was thinking the same thing but was afraid she'd wanna smack someone : who told her that again, considering she's sick of waiting for her baby to come and all.

[MamaFern]

oh mama, i totally 100% hear you. its SO hard.. its such a sensitive and raw time in a womans life, the days before & after birthing..and no one else seems to realize (except you mamas) how hard it really is. you try so hard just to keep calm and collected but everything feels like this huge hurdle.

i cant wait till im in labor. it will feel so simple after the last few weeks of my life!

hang in there

[kehliouise]

thanks for all the encouraging responses....my family finally left this afternoon. the sad thing is i wish my mother could stay longer, but at the same time i know if she had stayed another minute i would have strangled her. today she spent the whole day telling me how poor my organizational skills were and going through my drawers and making suggestions of where to put things. then she started cleaning my microwave and mopping my kitchen floor, and washing sheets, and i should be glad she did that but i took it as her way of being critical of me. i have told her this before and she always gets upsets and cries because i hurt her feelings by telling her i don't want her help. i just don't take it as help. i see it as criticism.

but she is gone now and so is my sister and nephew and i can go back to just dealing with ds and dh who have been pretty great lately so that shouldn't be too bad. i spent an hour on the phone with a friend awhile ago telling her about the entire weekend with my family and how insane they all are and i feel a lot better now as well. tomorrow is 40 weeks exactly. i'm ready for him to get her, but i'm just going to keep trying to be patient and hope that i get some rest the next few days.

[HardCoreMom]

take good care of yourself and do whatever you need to do to find some peace.

(this coming from someone enveloped in the antithesis of peacefulness right now! but just the same, find ways to care for yourself emotionally right now, even if it feels opposite your normal nature.)

hcm