i was doing some meditation and visualization in bed last night, when i felt the familiar rise and fall of a real, live contraction. it was almost like i brought it on myself! a little freaked out, i stopped concentrating and tried to think about something else (i didn't exactly want labor to start at midnight, since my last labor was really precipitous once it was for real) , but 12 minutes later, i had another one. and then another, in 12 minutes. it was almost 1am before i was able to stop recognizing them and fall asleep.
and that was the end of the contractions. no mucous plug. no bloody show. nada. and i'm wishing i had that hour of sleep back that i lay there, wondering if i hadn't just mentally induced labor. (i can be so weird sometimes.)
i keep feeling like i'm on the brink of labor at the end of every day, but by the morning, i feel like nothing is different than any other day. this feeling won't last forever, right?
off to the mw's this morning- it will be interesting to see what they say, since i've received different "deadline" dates from different mw's, and i want the real, honest scoop. i've sworn to give this kid all the time he needs, but if it comes down to getting Pit pushed on me, i'm gonna try some natural methods. i can't imagine if getting to that, but i look forward to a very sincere conversation about things at my appt. and i'll likely have another NST and u/s.
i should probably finish up those lingering thank-you notes from christmas. maybe this baby is just waiting for me to show a little gratitude.
catcha ladies later! i'm thinking of each of you!