Hi you guys! Why do I always miss noticing this thread when it "gets active" again? Life, I guess.
Karen, I'm so glad you had a good appointment. I am so in limbo with appointments....they made the OB appt. for 2 weeks after the u/s and peri consult that was on the books at the time, so I'd have an appointment in two weeks, then see the OB (for the first time!) in 2 weeks. It seemed perfect, nice and stair-stepped. Then we canceled that first u/s appt and time has marched on without the new hospital getting me scheduled for the replacement appointment, so I haven't seen anybody and it just feels, well, limbo-y. Especially after the "original" date (2/29) passed me by. "We could know by now--we could know gender, how they're growing, if my due date looks right...." It has been hard to wait in limbo.
I am assuming all is well, of course. But then I wonder, "Am I naive to assume?" Ironic that that instinct, keeping yourself from completely assuming the best, is supposed to be "self-protective."
Hey, this is probably a "duh" type question, but when you all say you can't see your toes, do you just mean standing straight and looking down, your belly blocks your view? For some reason, when I read that from both of you, my mind flashed to very late pregnancy (last time) when at 41 weeks I was pretty huge (lots of belly all out in front) and I couldn't see my feet and couldn't even really negotiate with anything leg/foot oriented. Like, washing in the shower. It was winter and I wasn't concerned at all about shaving (actually, I'm generally pretty lazy about shaving year-round) but if I HAD been concerned, it would have been a lost cause. That kind of thing. Like, my feet were another country at that point.
Is that where you guys are? Or is it just that you're saying you have enough belly to hide your toes from view? If it's the latter, then I'm there with you. If I'm standing, my belly hides my feet completely. But all I have to do is tip forward a bit and I can see them again quite easily!
I think, looking down, that I have a tidy belly and it doesn't seem "all that" big. But if I compare to what maternity clothes did/didn't fit at this time last pregnancy (I've sized out of some shirts already and definitely a couple of the first pants I wore last time), I see that there's a big difference. And I have pregnant friends who are more than a month further along than I am, and I'm bigger.
Still, looking down, it looks like a tidy round belly. Not "mammoth hugeness." But if I see my reflection, it looks much bigger. From the side, I look stretched and big, especially in the evenings. Two nights in the last week I definitely felt (or so it seemed) the pulling of my skin and it was like I was growing or stretching right then. I did look bigger afterward (according to my & my husband's estimates.)
devilish fetish, I am a tad concerned about whether I'm gaining "enough." I mean, I'm concerned because as I fast approach 20 weeks the scale is not telling me what I'd like it to, but I'm trying not to focus on the issue or on the concern. Honestly, I'm not sure how I'm doing with the foods/amounts I eat. (I was thinking about posting a list of foods here and getting some feedback. I mean, I've seen the protein threads in the Parenting Multiples forum and maybe that's the better place to post, but here I can just post in this thread and at least start the conversation, then create a thread over there if I feel the need. I don't know....)
I also have a big disparity between weight at the beginning and the end of the day. The other night, one of those "stretching" nights, I was at 160 at the end of the night. Which was amazing. But the next morning, I was back down to the low 150s and just climbed slowly during the day. (Not that I weigh constantly through the day, but I checked morning and then again at night.) The last couple of nights, I am at about 158 before bed. I wish I could just bump up and keep building, but it seems like I have this daily pattern that I just repeat.
I haven't had an ultrasound since the initial twin diagnosis at 14 weeks, and I've had the one appointment with the midwife at my new OB office (she measured me but didn't tell me how I was measuring, just that it seemed "on target" for twins) so I can only assume that they are growing appropriately and that I'm gaining inches appropriately....but whereas you got confirmation of that I haven't had u/s or appointment yet so I'm just assuming!
I guess I'm babbling.
Here's something that happened last night that kind of illustrates the general uneasiness I have surrounding nutrition & "enough", which is such a contrast to my first pregnancy. I was all set to fix a vegetable stir fry with udon noodles (a switch from my usual brown rice) for dinner, and I got out the chicken breasts. I was going to cut up a pound and a half of chicken and saute that first, then stir fry the veggies, and stir it all together with a simple quick sauce. But the chicken had just a touch of an "off" smell. It was a day from the sell-by date (I had bought 3 packages and worked my way through them; this was the last) but I guess I didn't have them in the coldest part of the fridge. (It's a brand-new fridge....the meat drawer in our old refrigerator was frigid but I guess this one has a "snack/deli drawer" that isn't as cold, or something.) Grrrrr. Anyway, I was afraid to try it and cast about for something else to add at the last minute. No meat options....everything is in the freezer and this was actual dinner time.
So I made a curry coconut peanut sauce to coat the noodles and also to toss with the veggies. (It actually came out good.) I had a 13.5 oz can of whole coconut milk (not "light" coconut milk--lots of cream) and put 6 tbsp of peanut butter in, plus the rest of the "flavor" ingredients. (Lime juice, tamari, cilantro, honey, a little maple sugar, ginger, garlic, minced onion, curry....)
I know coconut milk is not particularly high in protein but it's high in calories and fat. Plus the pb. I was hoping this could compensate some for not having the quantity of chicken in the dish.
I don't know if that was "good enough" or not. The noodles were whole grain and there were lots of veggies, which offer some protein too in addition to the fiber and calories from the complex carbohydrates. (Broccoli, onion, carrots, red pepper, yellow pepper, 2 stalks of sliced bok choy.) Anyway, I had this kind of muted feeling of "In my last pregnancy, I would not have been wondering if this was 'good enough' or if I should be anxious....I would have been relaxed and comfortable about the fact that I was eating good food."
Anyway, just wanted to note that I am getting along and doing okay, but that's the general contrast to last time. I always have this vague "is this okay, am I doing right by myself and the twins, should I be more vigilant and what needs to change?" thing going on. Maybe if I count calories, grams of protein, oz. of water, etc. I will lose that vague nagging question. But then I end up eating leftovers (much of the time) and I don't KNOW how many ounces of chicken were in that casserole serving, etc. How do I quantify my grams?
I did eat two large---a decent round pile covering about 7" of the dinner plate---servings of the noodles/stir fry as the night went on, and then I went in and made myself a large (12+ inch tortilla) cheddar and avocado quesadilla and ate it with salsa and sour cream before bed. (Using just shy of half a ripe avocado.)
I would have tried to drink some milk with whey protein powder mixed in before turning in, just as a decent protein boost, but I threw up once yesterday (I'm down to about once a week or so, I guess) to my shock, and milk/kefir still leave me with a feeling/aftertaste that are hard for me to handle and I didn't want to flirt with disaster. So I left well-enough alone and just drank water.