I'm finally out of the hospital and being pampered at my moms house. I still feel pretty tired and weak from the blood loss and stress of those last few days in the hospital, (did i mention i HATE hospitals?) but my girly parts can't even tell they've given birth recently... she was just so darned small! My uterus is really sore from the manual removal of the placenta, and my boobs are pretty engorged and sore. I pump often and nurse her often, but there is still plenty to go around. lol.
I feel like I have "lost" an entire week by "wasting" it in the hospital... such an awful place to spend those first days with your baby... I was pretty hammered and strung out by the time we left. Feeling MUCH more taken care of the entire month I was there than the last 2 days.
Sadness for me, as we accidently left the placenta at the hospital in the fridge, but by the time we went back for it, it was gone. They tossed it out almost immediately.
I am unsure as to how I'm going to come to terms with that... that darned placenta has been nothing but trouble... first, an abruption, THEN retained and hemmorage... THEN they just THROW it OUT?!
Everyone says, "but at least you got to bring home your baby."
If I had been home, I wouldn't be mourning the loss of our placenta.
Mama's help me get past the loss of it? I honestly feel like something was taken from me/us. And just tossed in the garbage to boot...
On the upside, Ember seems very happy and healthy. We feed her tons of breast milk with a syringe and finger, as she's not entirely convinced her mouth will fit over my nipples, but other times, she takes the breast with the vigor of a full-term baby.
I'm told over time, she'll adjust and get better at it. I'll be glad to be nursing full time, as the finger supplementation is awfully awkward and time consuming. I'm glad dh likes the job. He's good at it too.
I have some healing to do yet, both physically and emotionally... but I can assure you, looking at this beautiful little girl all day does wonders for that!