digesting fats, TF dislikes etc.
i have a few questions that i really need to figure out b/c i am having a difficult time eating anything. my main question is do you think i am missing some enzyme or mineral or something else causing me to not *like* fats and meats and therefore have a hard time digesting them? or maybe it's psychological?
my background is that i ate pretty wholesome foods and the normal american junk until i was 12 and then i think i started reading health magazines and worrying that i was not as in shape or something as i should be. then i learned about vegetarianism and dabbled in that for years off and on, but eating TONS of carbs and sugar and soy in college in meat's place. and then of course it spiraled into veganism until i got pregnant and then i couldn't stand the thought of any raw vegetables but turned to major carbs again and still shunned fat! obviously and consequently i had some major health issues.
so i have been eating a TF diet for almost 3 years now and was relatively grain free, but totally grain free since about a month and a half ago. i was drinking raw milk until about a month ago when i had a kind of hypoglycemic reaction and a friend told me to stop drinking it. so i thought i would try more cream and very little milk since cream has more fat and way fewer carbs and still make my morning milkshakes with cream and egg yolks. (i am also doing high fat, low carb) well, these shakes are not sitting well with me. they either make my intestines start rumbling immediately or just make me kind of queasy. i was using a sweetner but cut it out b/c i just cannot handle anything sweet. and i was making smoothies for a while with fruit and there was CO in them, but again i started having hypoglycemic reactions to all the sugar no matter how much fat i incorporated.
i like meat that my mother, friend or restaurant cooks. lol. but i do not like the meat that i cook very much. maybe it's b/c i didn't have very much practice until relatively recently. who knows. but it's almost like i psyche myself out whenever there is food around. i don't even know what i like anymore! i can't stand cooked eggs or sausage, bacon is okay occasionally...and i have discovered that if i don't have enough fat with a meal that i am miserable. but getting the amount of fat i seem to need seems virtually impossible! i also cannot stand coconut oil, even though i used to eat tons of it, and i can only eat butter if it is disguised in something or sucked up by a potato.
i have been making the coconut chicken broth from EFLF that i mentioned in last month's thread and it has a can of coconut milk in it. a few days now i have eaten the whole pot over the course of the day! it's like the only thing i really want, but it's also not enough to keep me satiated even though there is all the coconut milk in it. i really crave more savory things. i feel like my mood is very touchy and i know it must be because i just don't eat enough and i am constantly thinking about it!
any thoughts? i know this is probably a very disjointed post. i hope you can understand what i am trying to ask/say.