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Originally Posted by New Mama 
Does anyone else ever feel like, How come other people seem to be able to eat whatever they want without thinking about it? I mean, I'm sure it isn't this way. Maybe they have problems with their diet and health, too. But sometimes it feels this way.
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OK, usually I'm a lurker (new to all of this and I don't have much to add) but I had to say that this post really spoke to me. I know this is the right way to eat (grain free), but it is so hard. It is just so dang hard when I'm chasing a two year old and I'm 8 months pregnant, and I have gained half as much weight as the first pregnancy and everyone is commenting on how underweight I am...and my ds as well. And how all I want is some downtime, some convenience, and some pleasure of a piece of sourdough bread with a big slab of butter. I mean, I'm happy never eating white bread again...and I love raw butter! I don't want to suffer the consequences, though, and my conscience just won't let me near that stuff anymore. I live in Australia right now and it's so hard to find quality food here. I want to go home, buy a deep freezer, a 1/4 a cow, find a local farm, want to see my friends and have some pot lucks...I can't do this here. I'm so frustrated with my food choices and I keep thinking about my former, carefree days of eating. I miss those days. It's almost as if the stress of all of this is counteracting any benefits I receive from eating grain free/tf/all organic/all homemade. I'm so thankful for this knowledge, to be free from prescription drugs and western medicine, to know that I'm feeding my family good food, but it's such a double edged sword right now...and it's just so hard. I think I need to go back to the states and stay with my family for a while...but what about my husband and his job and our relationship??? Am I seriously considering moving back to the states, taking my ds away from his father, because I can't handle the stress of all of this? Is it that important to be grain free??
Can you tell that my ds was up at 4:00 a.m., throwing up every hour and I haven't slept or eaten since lunch? My husband came home from work so I could eat a cup of soup and take a shower...he really is a gem...but I'm just so tired and want to buy a box of crackers and cheese right now. I know, total addicition...but my baby is starving right now. Going to eat a banana and some nuts. I'll post an intro soon.
Thank you all for being here. I really appreciate your honesty and determination to heal from the toxic world we were dumped into using natural means, starting with your diet. Thank you for the inspiration.
ETA: I know this is just a phase I'm going through, that this will get easier. I know that this will make me a stronger person, a better mother and will make me proud to be who I am. I know that it will just take some time and some patience. I know I will, all of us, will get there one day. I just have to keep the faith.
K, goodnight.
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