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[BeanyMama]

I think I'm the last one still pregnant, but how are all the newborns doing?! Any new pictures? Hm?

I got EPO yesterday- I really didn't want to do anything to encourage my cervix because I know it is wise and knows just what it needs to do for this baby as it did for my sons. But I'm facing pitocen so here I go. I'll do cohosh even castor oil to avoid pit. I'm so hormonal and feeling so judged on both sides, from my family to friends to my midwife. I want to scream at everyone that I don't give a damn what your opinion is esp if you've never been in my place and then crawl into a hole. Grr.

Thanks for all the vibes, I'll soak in them And update on the bebes!!

[AngelaB]

: Come on baby!!
: Beanymama! hang in there and Im sorry that you dont feel supported IRL. Its almost over with and you will be snuggling and nursing soon!
Angela

[Surfacing]

Hello BeanyMama, it's so frustrating to feel judged from all sides. You just do what you have to do and listen to your gut! :

As for us, baby is doing some puzzling nursing behaviour. She coos and makes lip smacking sounds wanting some booby time. She happily laps up the let down trickling out of my nipple. She finally opens up big enough to latch on when she starts crying. Sometimes she latches on right away and sucks, gulps, swallows. Then after awhile she starts crying again and pulls off. In the meantime I can see my milk is trickling or spraying out of my boob. She seems frustrated at first that it takes awhile for the milk to come, then she seems angry when the milk comes. What gives? Puzzling. Anybody have suggestions or insight?

I still haven't figured out how to post pics on here. I used to have yahoo pics but then they closed down and I haven't figured out picasa yet. Can anybody suggest an easy site with some privacy features?

Yesterday my 3 wk old smiled at her big sister. That was so precious!!

This morning I had some cleaning ladies come. They were so thorough on their couple of jobs it made me realize how half a$$ed I'd been doing things! (I had to adjust my standards after high needs dd#1 was born. )

HCM how are you, Marty and family doing? How's nursing going? How are the kids adjusting?

[HardCoreMom]

Originally Posted by Emese'sMom

As for us, baby is doing some puzzling nursing behaviour. She coos and makes lip smacking sounds wanting some booby time. She happily laps up the let down trickling out of my nipple. She finally opens up big enough to latch on when she starts crying. Sometimes she latches on right away and sucks, gulps, swallows. Then after awhile she starts crying again and pulls off. In the meantime I can see my milk is trickling or spraying out of my boob. She seems frustrated at first that it takes awhile for the milk to come, then she seems angry when the milk comes. What gives? Puzzling. Anybody have suggestions or insight?

I still haven't figured out how to post pics on here. I used to have yahoo pics but then they closed down and I haven't figured out picasa yet. Can anybody suggest an easy site with some privacy features?

Yesterday my 3 wk old smiled at her big sister. That was so precious!!

This morning I had some cleaning ladies come. They were so thorough on their couple of jobs it made me realize how half a$$ed I'd been doing things! (I had to adjust my standards after high needs dd#1 was born. )

HCM how are you, Marty and family doing? How's nursing going? How are the kids adjusting?

nak

don't know what to make of your dd's nursing. do you have overactive letdown? it's always a big struggle for me. this time is no exception. it makes my babies display similar behaviors.

we are ok. the insomnia is starting to hit me hard, but marty has been really easy going so far, and i know that is helping everything else. i had ppd bad last time (also a needy, colicky baby), and though i can sense some of the baby blues from time to time (especially when i think of how much i miss being pg with everyone here), things are much better this time.

marty is a peeing superstar, so i guess i can't complain about the nursing, but he has a really shallow latch, and i don't know what to do- i need some new tricks. he's also been spitting/refluxy a lot in the last 48 hours. not enough to concern me, it's just messy and makes me feel bad (i think it's from the letdown).

he just made a huge poop here, so i will change him and continue nursing in the bedroom, i think. woah! what a blow! that's gonna be a mess.

thanks for asking!

oh yeah- i use photobucket. you can make your albums private, so if you link to a pic, all they see is the pic. it's worked for me. let me know if you discover anything more exciting- i don't know how fancy pb is compared to others.

off to poop patrol...

[eloise24]

OOps, I just updated on yesterday's post. Off to get it and post it here! Okay, here it is!

'm here! My mom has been here for the past two weeks and boy is reality going to hit hard now that she's gone! I keep reminding myself that it's hard because I have my "job" with 10 boys to do, I'm not just at home alone. All in all though, we're doing really well. Days are relaxing and we're figuring out evenings (our boys come home from school at 4). The hardest part will be weekends because we have the boys all weekend!

BUT baby Shannon is an amazingly sweet baby. She has herself on her own little 3 hour schedule, which is great! She only cries if I don't feed her fast enough and is just a sweetie!

Off to read the rest of your posts!

[[e-mail]]

Hey there mama's....Cedar's asleep and I've been taking the time to catch up on some work. But I need a break from business and baby!

Wow life with a new baby! They say kids change your life but no one ever tells you how. It's been wonderful and at times a huge lesson in patience. Overall though it's wonderful. He's so darn cute!!! We do have an evening ritual of sleepy nursing followed by hours of screaming that we're all ready to be over with. (Fat chance! ) When I read about everyone elses nursing woo's this seems to pale in comparison. Still it's been a little stressful for DH and myself (and our dogs!). Two nights ago the stress of crying baby, no sleep, being raised with very different parenting styles, and an overall helpless feeling lead to a fight that had us all crying by the end of it. Last night was better though. DH remembered the parent he wants to be and really rose to the occasion. Together we were able to calm Cedar down enough to get him off to sleep. Either that or he had enough of the crying and went to sleep. I like to think it was us working together though! It's really been an adjustment. There are times I wish I was still pregnant. It was hard to move and heartburn sucked but sometimes I wonder if I have the strength to do this. I keep reminding myself that this is an ever changing adventure, just hold on, and reassure him that he's loved. Still I hate the helpless feeling that comes when he's screaming and I can't do anything to make him comfortable. And then there's the times he's sleeping peacefully or starring up at us and I remember that it's all okay. What a ride....

Hang in there Beanymama. Your time is coming soon. I know it's hard to block out everyone elses opinions but you're right to trust yourself. I'm sending you lots of opening cervix, contraction vibes....Go towards the light little one your families ready for you....

peace & love to you all
Katie

[To-Fu]

Hang in there, Beany!

Here is a link to all our baby photos so far:

http://www.flickr.com/photos/velozo/

I love Flickr for this sort of thing. It's smoother than Photobucket and has tons of privacy options.

I also have a baby blog where I posted my (incredibly long) birth story:

http://baby.velozo.com

The entries are private, so you just have to sign up for a login to read. It goes all the way back to early pregnancy.

Hope everyone's hanging in there! We're still working on some nursing issues. He's having a growth spurt and I'm waiting for the cracks and fissures to heal. As soon as things settle down, we'll be golden! I hope healing happens speedily.

[kehliouise]

koi also is having some sort of weird nursing thing. At the end of his wakeful periods he gets sort of fussy. he starts looking for a boob but then when you put it in his mouth he just screams and acts like it isn't even there. he might latch on for a second but then he spits it out and shakes his head back and forth screaming. it is almost like he wants to suck but doesn't want anything to come out when he does it. because he will latch onto my finger if i put it in his mouth. then he just sucks on it peacefully for a while. if that is really the issue i was wondering if he would want a pacifier. i don't know much about pacifiers, we never used them with ds#1. as it is now we go through the cycle of putting him to one breast, having him nurse for a second or two, then have him start crying, burp him, move to other breast, continue in this cycle until he finally falls asleep.

koi was really sleeping through anything during the day until yesterday. now he is having a hard time staying asleep during the day, because big brother makes a lot of noise. he will sleep through most noise in the afternoon or evening though.

how much are your babies sleeping?

is anyone else extremely paranoid about everything? right now i'm constantly worried that he is going to end up with some sort of disease. this started after i began questioning my decision to not vaccinate. his pediatrician recommended selective vaccination. i bought the dr. sears vaccination book. i've read it and i still don't want to have him vaccinated but now i paranoid about him getting everything. then today i found out that a close friend of mine's 1 year old has a staph infection. i'm not sure how bad it is but she is in the hospital. i'm just freaked out about all communicable diseases, and don't want to go anywhere or have anyone come over. i know this is unreasonable, but i've been unreasonable lately. i keep having nightmares about him dieing.

okay that is all my ranting for the day.

BeanyMama-it really does suck to feel opposed on all sides. i often feel like that IRL. Hang in there it wont be long.

[BeanyMama]

Thanks for all the support. It helps. :
We walked all over the museum today for a couple hours (I think of HCM out in the sleet and feel like such a wuss) and I'm getting a ton of plug. I've been taking a 1300 mg epo tab morning and night orally and vaginally, I hope thats not too much? Tomorrow we plan to head to the beach so I can walk a ton more and the ocean seems so birthy to me- the crashing waves I guess.

I'm loving the baby updates and pictures. I hope nursing smooths out soon for those who need it.

Kehliouise, I felt just like that with both of my sons. We don't vax either and I kept imagining them catching horrible diseases or something terrible happening to them. I felt like I couldn't protect them enough. You're a wise Mama to research and listen to your gut and will be so glad you did when the PP hormones let you

[pinkshamrocks]

I've been unable to post for a few days, but wanted to lend another shoulder to you, Beanymama. I love the imagery of crashing waves on the beach brings to birthing a baby. Beautiful!

[pinkshamrocks]

I've been unable to post for a few days, but wanted to lend another shoulder to you, Beanymama. I love the imagery of crashing waves on the beach brings to birthing a baby. Beautiful!

[Mama2-4]

Originally Posted by BeanyMama

I think I'm the last one still pregnant, but how are all the newborns doing?! Any new pictures? Hm?

I got EPO yesterday- I really didn't want to do anything to encourage my cervix because I know it is wise and knows just what it needs to do for this baby as it did for my sons. But I'm facing pitocen so here I go. I'll do cohosh even castor oil to avoid pit. I'm so hormonal and feeling so judged on both sides, from my family to friends to my midwife. I want to scream at everyone that I don't give a damn what your opinion is esp if you've never been in my place and then crawl into a hole. Grr.

Thanks for all the vibes, I'll soak in them And update on the bebes!!

Just lurking from Feb....I am now 41 weeks and totally know how you are feeling. I am also being threatened with induction this coming week. I am considering doing lots of walking today with some black cohosh. Hang in there Mama, it is soooo hard not to get discouraged. I have been feeling much more emotional and crampy with some mucousy discharge...so maybe!

[Peacemamalove]

I've been taking a 1300 mg epo tab morning and night orally and vaginally, I hope thats not too much?

Nope My midwife recommends 1500 mg epo or more Sending some ELV your way mama!!

Peace is doing awesome she sleeps through the night and only wakes up to be changed then goes back to sleep she might nurse once or twice but does well with that lying down.She has lots of awake time at 4:30 a.m. then goes back to sleep around 5 or so. Then is up and awake a lot of the day. She also makes some cooing noises it is so beautiful.

Our only struggle is my letdown it is so forceful that I have to take her off right when I feel it start and about an ounce of milk will come out ...then I put her back on and she is fine.otherwise she chokes or gets full to fast then has the wonderful green poo and pees all the time..Glad I figured out that it was just to much foremilk.

anyway we are doing well Here is a picture of her at 3 weeks with her new woollybottoms

Azeda Peace 3 weeks

[Surfacing]

How super cute is that Zahirakids! And To-Fu too. Such cute babies!!! Good to hear you figured that out about the foremilk/hindmilk Zahirakids. Sending healing vibes to your boobs To-Fu.

Kehliouise - I hear you about the crying at the boob. My dd seems to do the same thing. It's like she wants to nurse but doesn't want anything to come out. Although she gets mad when nothing is there too. Go figure. But your little guy is gaining enough and has enough wet/poopy diapers? Have you gone for any lactation help? I just wonder if you have any insights on this as I don't really. Hugs for feeling scared about your babe's health. I keep having dreams that I am leaving baby somewhere, and also that my car keeps getting stolen or smashed, and that significant people in my life keep dying. Ahhh gotta love the postpartum. Hang in there. Are you feeling extra stressed?

Off to read today's posts (the 9th). We were out of town yesterday and today so I need to get caught up.