I have been diagnosed bipolar for some time, although I am terrible about taking my medication regularily. I often dont taken them when I am manic, though I am on a new combo and I remember to take it every morning most of the time.
I have been super stressed lately and it seems to have kicked me out of my usual depressive state in the winter into a weird manic state. I have never cycled this fast, and I dont know what to do. I usually dont notice the manic side until Im into it for a while, but this time I can feel it coming fast. Does that make sense?
Anyways, I cant parent my children. Well I can, but they send me into such crazy anxiety attacks all the time. They are 4.5 and almost 3 and they are in daycare full time. Mornings are bad. This morning was really bad. I'm a single mom, and my ex is working out of town so I dont get that break of them going to his place half the week. My boyfriend is awesome and is a big help, but I hate placing my kids and my issues on him all the time. Its hard.
I feel like I am being pecked to death by ducks. The not listening and having to repeat myself, the fighting, the mom mom mom mom mom, I just cant deal with it. I want to scream and lash out, and it makes my fidgetting worse, my need to go go go.. it makes my brain race.
I dont know what I am getting at. I just want to tpye I guess...
I lurk a lot (even with my post count), but I am reaching out for some help. I need some. My doc is great, my therapist is crazy hard to get into, and I dont know.. I need some advice.
I have been super stressed lately and it seems to have kicked me out of my usual depressive state in the winter into a weird manic state. I have never cycled this fast, and I dont know what to do. I usually dont notice the manic side until Im into it for a while, but this time I can feel it coming fast. Does that make sense?
Anyways, I cant parent my children. Well I can, but they send me into such crazy anxiety attacks all the time. They are 4.5 and almost 3 and they are in daycare full time. Mornings are bad. This morning was really bad. I'm a single mom, and my ex is working out of town so I dont get that break of them going to his place half the week. My boyfriend is awesome and is a big help, but I hate placing my kids and my issues on him all the time. Its hard.
I feel like I am being pecked to death by ducks. The not listening and having to repeat myself, the fighting, the mom mom mom mom mom, I just cant deal with it. I want to scream and lash out, and it makes my fidgetting worse, my need to go go go.. it makes my brain race.
I dont know what I am getting at. I just want to tpye I guess...
I lurk a lot (even with my post count), but I am reaching out for some help. I need some. My doc is great, my therapist is crazy hard to get into, and I dont know.. I need some advice.
I would call your doc and have a good chat with him/her, for starters. When I get like that I tend to rely on bennadryl to bring me down a little. I noticed that someone else mentioned an allergy tab....it just works for me. It also helps me to go to bed at night, too. Especially helpful when I'm manic. Please, remember to take your meds every day. I, too, have a really difficult time parenting when I'm manic. I tend to get really edgy and anxious and all their little questions and needs just make me even nuttier. I know that probably doesn't help you right now, but know you're not alone. Peace and take care.
