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Its official: I'm not carrying a baby (m/c ment)

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I had my u/s a couple hours ago and we went out to dinner after. They did both an abdominal and transvaginal u/s---she was VERY thorough---and there is no sign of a baby anywhere. Not even a sac. : This is all very puzzling, and I think is what they call a "blighted ovum", where the egg was fertilized and implanted but then it never grew a baby. The really sucky thing is that my body is still hormonally pregnant. My last HCG's (10 days ago) were 5989 (which is really low considering where they should have been at that point), and I don't know what they are right now. All I know is I've gained 4 pounds and most of my regular pants don't fit because "something" was growing in my uterus. The fibroid, perhaps??? :

I've had so much time to ponder about all this, and honestly, I'm doing alright. In my heart I just knew there wasn't going to be a baby there today. I think I went through my grieving when I first found out. Its better (for me) to have found out this way, this early, than to have made it to 10 weeks next week and then not hear the heartbeat at my appt. I think that definitely would have been emotionally harder to bear.

So, my next step is to see the OB tomorrow afternoon. I think I'm going to opt for a D&C rather than a natural or chemical m/c. I just don't want to have this continue. I want my body and life to return to normal. Its been a harrowing three weeks since I first started spotting. My mom works at the surgical center and I hope the OB can get me scheduled in early Wednesday morning.

That's about all I have to report for now. Thanks again for so many thoughts and prayers for me. I really appreciate it.

I wish you all the BEST of everything in the rest of your pregnancies, and happy healthy babies come September! I'll be thinking of you.
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I'm so sorry
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post #4 of 33
Amanda, I am so so sorry for your loss. The mamas in the pregnancy and birth loss forum are lifesavers during this time though, if you need support.
post #5 of 33
I know its been a rollercoaster for you..... I'm so sorry for your loss.

I had a blighted ovum a few years ago and opted for the d&c as well....I just hated the idea of feeling pregnant and nothing being there.
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aww mama.. sendin some love to you
post #7 of 33
so sad momma! I'm glad you're handling everything well.
post #8 of 33
Oh mama, I'm so sorry for your loss. I can see what you mean about already having kind of come to terms with your loss, but I'm still so so sorry. We'll miss you.
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I'm so sorry
post #10 of 33
I'm so so sorry. My m/c was a similar rollercoaster and it was so hard. Having the D&E was therapeutic for me- in terms of healing my grief and moving on.
, mama. I'll be thinking of you.
post #11 of 33
Oh mama, I'm so sorry for your loss. My heart is aching for you.
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I was so hoping your rollercoaster was going to go up up up. I hope you have a quick recovery and feel yourself again relatively soon. Thank you for keeping us updated - we will miss you!!
post #13 of 33
I am sorry you are going through this.
post #14 of 33
I'm so sorry. Quick recovery to you.
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I am so sorry.
post #16 of 33
I'm so sorry. I've been following your posts and was really hoping it would turn out differently for you. I hope you are okay. Sending healing vibes your way (((((hugs)))))
post #17 of 33
ay yi yi, what a ride you've been on.
I'm so sorry.
post #18 of 33
I'm really sorry you've had such a long road to this Mama

My pregnancy before this one was a blighted ovum too. It was difficult to come to terms with the fact that there was never a baby there at all.

There's hope around the corner and lots of support on the pregnancy loss threads here.

Take care of yourself.
post #19 of 33
So sorry to hear mama. I wish you lots of love and healing. We too had a blighted ovum before this pregnancy and it was really rough on me. I hope that you are able to grieve your loss and I will echo Kati saying that the loss forum is so wonderful and helpful. Good luck mama!
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thinking of you. I had the D&C rather than wait and it did help me start to heal. Though in the moment it was the saddest moment of my life.

Love and hugs to you and your family.
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