...the condensed version as there is 3 people talking to me and one naknaknaking 
Tuesday was my Mom's last day in town, we got up early and left the house at 8:30 to run errands and go shopping. We met DH at the MW at 1 pm. I was 3 cm dilated and 75% effaced, Friday was induce day so I was determined to go in labor before then. She swept my membranes and we made a plan to try other things Thursday if the sweeping didn't help bring it on. I remember being so emotional and weepy, but at the same time I felt very calm and zen and sort of knew it was coming. I went upstairs when we got home and started putting away the laundry and felt light contractions that felt very BHish. I got in bed and focused on not focusing on them- on blankness and the peace of my daughter.
Around 5 pm they got very regular and started hurting. I called DH at work and asked him to come home and stayed in bed. Mom came up and bought me some dinner and timed the contractions- they were exactly 3 min apart and 1 min long. DH came home and I moved to the birth ball. I was so glad to have him there at last, he made me laugh and relaxed me and kicked my poor Mother out of the room. We called Alice, the midwife, she was there about 45 min later. She checked me- we were 8 cm at that point. I took a shower and discovered I had to focus on not focusing, which is just what I had to do while hoping for labor
The mw and her assistant were awesome, they were attentive and super sweet but stayed completely out of my way and quiet except to check on Mila every now and then. I wanted to be alone with DH and wandered down the hall in a towel to the bathroom in DS's room and walked back and forth in there. Then I sat on the potty and just wanted to stare at DH's face; he was encouraging me and reminding me to relax and I told him to just be quiet so that I could stare at his face. He just smiled at me and in that weird labor trip land where everything is so distorted and painful he was so beautiful. I was still on the potty and felt a ton of pressure then a pop and I yelped and realized my water broke.
DH lead me back into our room and Alice checked me, fully dilated. I wanted to stay on the toilet so we moved into our bathroom. I contracted and squeezed DH around his tummy as hard as I could. He nudged open the door and mouthed to the mw that I was getting pushy. She came in and I had a burst of energy and crawled on the bed on my hands and knees and grabbed fistfuls of the sheet and sort of growled and yelped and pushed as hard as I could and felt the ring of fire, I'm pretty sure I yelled out an obscenity and pushed again and felt, after 10.5 months of complete togetherness, her leave my body.
They handed her to me between my legs, it was in 2 seconds but I seems slowmo in my mind, everything in the room melted way. I smiled at DH and flopped back on the pillows and pressed her to my breasts and welcomed her over and over and over. She latched right on and was so beautiful- all white and pink. After her cord quit pulsating DH cut it and I pushed out her placenta. It was very big and healthy and Alice showed us each part of it. After that it dawned on me to check if she was a girl. Mom came up and met her and after Alice left DH brought up the boys who were camping downstairs, they were so sweet and so excited and our family of 5 all went to sleep together- complete.
Thanks again to all of you, you guys have been so amazing and supportive. I can't say it enough!!
Maybe it wasn't so condensed after all
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Tuesday was my Mom's last day in town, we got up early and left the house at 8:30 to run errands and go shopping. We met DH at the MW at 1 pm. I was 3 cm dilated and 75% effaced, Friday was induce day so I was determined to go in labor before then. She swept my membranes and we made a plan to try other things Thursday if the sweeping didn't help bring it on. I remember being so emotional and weepy, but at the same time I felt very calm and zen and sort of knew it was coming. I went upstairs when we got home and started putting away the laundry and felt light contractions that felt very BHish. I got in bed and focused on not focusing on them- on blankness and the peace of my daughter.
Around 5 pm they got very regular and started hurting. I called DH at work and asked him to come home and stayed in bed. Mom came up and bought me some dinner and timed the contractions- they were exactly 3 min apart and 1 min long. DH came home and I moved to the birth ball. I was so glad to have him there at last, he made me laugh and relaxed me and kicked my poor Mother out of the room. We called Alice, the midwife, she was there about 45 min later. She checked me- we were 8 cm at that point. I took a shower and discovered I had to focus on not focusing, which is just what I had to do while hoping for labor
The mw and her assistant were awesome, they were attentive and super sweet but stayed completely out of my way and quiet except to check on Mila every now and then. I wanted to be alone with DH and wandered down the hall in a towel to the bathroom in DS's room and walked back and forth in there. Then I sat on the potty and just wanted to stare at DH's face; he was encouraging me and reminding me to relax and I told him to just be quiet so that I could stare at his face. He just smiled at me and in that weird labor trip land where everything is so distorted and painful he was so beautiful. I was still on the potty and felt a ton of pressure then a pop and I yelped and realized my water broke.
DH lead me back into our room and Alice checked me, fully dilated. I wanted to stay on the toilet so we moved into our bathroom. I contracted and squeezed DH around his tummy as hard as I could. He nudged open the door and mouthed to the mw that I was getting pushy. She came in and I had a burst of energy and crawled on the bed on my hands and knees and grabbed fistfuls of the sheet and sort of growled and yelped and pushed as hard as I could and felt the ring of fire, I'm pretty sure I yelled out an obscenity and pushed again and felt, after 10.5 months of complete togetherness, her leave my body.
They handed her to me between my legs, it was in 2 seconds but I seems slowmo in my mind, everything in the room melted way. I smiled at DH and flopped back on the pillows and pressed her to my breasts and welcomed her over and over and over. She latched right on and was so beautiful- all white and pink. After her cord quit pulsating DH cut it and I pushed out her placenta. It was very big and healthy and Alice showed us each part of it. After that it dawned on me to check if she was a girl. Mom came up and met her and after Alice left DH brought up the boys who were camping downstairs, they were so sweet and so excited and our family of 5 all went to sleep together- complete.
Thanks again to all of you, you guys have been so amazing and supportive. I can't say it enough!!
Maybe it wasn't so condensed after all
http://im1.shutterfly.com/procserv/4...0AaNWTFo5cMmOA
http://im1.shutterfly.com/procserv/4...0AaNWTFo5cMmOA
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