Hello Mamas, I am just posting here because I am surprised to find a flare up in my panic and anxiety feelings in the past 2-3 days. I started taking prozac in the second trimester during my pregnancy with dd2 and am now 5 weeks postpartum. I am on 20 mg/day and it had been very helpful.
We have had a lot of stress in our lives in the past 2-3 months (dh's beloved father died, new baby born, we've all been sick on and off for 3 wks, dh's helping his mother relocate to our city), and it's just going to continue/increase (dh who has anxiety problems also got a new job that starts in March). I have been coping "great" up until now, but I think it's starting to catch up with me.
I have been feeling overwhelmed by everything and have been feeling a bit alone, like I am shouldering this tremendous responsibility and burden alone. Except that I know it's not true, dh has been helping tremendously with dd1 while I tend to our newcomer, but he's working FT, gets home at night and helps with dd, complaining about exhaustion, being sick, etc., he's mourning. I look around our home and it's dirty, messy. Dd1 has been sick and her constant whining is getting to me. I think the normal sleep deprivation that comes with a newborn is getting to me. Dd1 is often babysat by my mother during the week, but recently I've had both kids more often and the sleep deprivation is starting to wear me down. Financially I am waiting for my maternity leave benefits to kick in and we're really in the hole. We recently had contact from my estranged brother who triggers me. My grandmother is really sick. My parents are stressed out. It's affecting me.
Lately I have been worrying about going back to work in one year (career path - I need to make a change and don't know what I want to do next), managing the pressures of working FT and being a mom, running a home. This pace of modern life is too hectic. What can I do to simplify? What kind of example am I showing my daughters by trying to keep on top of this hectic lifestyle in some way/shape/form?
Two night ago I had a HUGE GIGANTIC wave of panic wash over me, it was a big surprise, totally out of my control, I started to feel paranoid like I'm going crazy, and that it's due to my meds or something. Then I realized what was happening - oh I'm having a panic attack starting. I had a few waves of it but managed to keep it at bay using self-talk, talking with dh, and listening to taped relaxation scripts. Tonight I woke up at 3:50 a.m. to feed dd2 and started to feel it again.
What's going on??? Why this flare up of panic/anxiety feelings when the Prozac had been so helpful up until now? Is it possible that my life circumstances are just catching up to me?
I need to exercise. I need to talk to some friends IRL (which I feel paranoid to do, for some reason). I need to get a change of scenery, not just staying in my walls all the time. I need sleep. I have been trying to take care of dh but also feel like I've been overtaxing myself. I have been eating more chocolate lately (valentine's day, comfort food) and think it may be catching up with me.
I can go on and on, I think I'll stop here. Any insight or encouragement would be helpful. TIA
We have had a lot of stress in our lives in the past 2-3 months (dh's beloved father died, new baby born, we've all been sick on and off for 3 wks, dh's helping his mother relocate to our city), and it's just going to continue/increase (dh who has anxiety problems also got a new job that starts in March). I have been coping "great" up until now, but I think it's starting to catch up with me.
I have been feeling overwhelmed by everything and have been feeling a bit alone, like I am shouldering this tremendous responsibility and burden alone. Except that I know it's not true, dh has been helping tremendously with dd1 while I tend to our newcomer, but he's working FT, gets home at night and helps with dd, complaining about exhaustion, being sick, etc., he's mourning. I look around our home and it's dirty, messy. Dd1 has been sick and her constant whining is getting to me. I think the normal sleep deprivation that comes with a newborn is getting to me. Dd1 is often babysat by my mother during the week, but recently I've had both kids more often and the sleep deprivation is starting to wear me down. Financially I am waiting for my maternity leave benefits to kick in and we're really in the hole. We recently had contact from my estranged brother who triggers me. My grandmother is really sick. My parents are stressed out. It's affecting me.
Lately I have been worrying about going back to work in one year (career path - I need to make a change and don't know what I want to do next), managing the pressures of working FT and being a mom, running a home. This pace of modern life is too hectic. What can I do to simplify? What kind of example am I showing my daughters by trying to keep on top of this hectic lifestyle in some way/shape/form?
Two night ago I had a HUGE GIGANTIC wave of panic wash over me, it was a big surprise, totally out of my control, I started to feel paranoid like I'm going crazy, and that it's due to my meds or something. Then I realized what was happening - oh I'm having a panic attack starting. I had a few waves of it but managed to keep it at bay using self-talk, talking with dh, and listening to taped relaxation scripts. Tonight I woke up at 3:50 a.m. to feed dd2 and started to feel it again.
What's going on??? Why this flare up of panic/anxiety feelings when the Prozac had been so helpful up until now? Is it possible that my life circumstances are just catching up to me?
I need to exercise. I need to talk to some friends IRL (which I feel paranoid to do, for some reason). I need to get a change of scenery, not just staying in my walls all the time. I need sleep. I have been trying to take care of dh but also feel like I've been overtaxing myself. I have been eating more chocolate lately (valentine's day, comfort food) and think it may be catching up with me.
I can go on and on, I think I'll stop here. Any insight or encouragement would be helpful. TIA
and they've been very helpful).....I could probably analyse and reframe things for myself if I took the time to sit down, write and reflect on my way of thinking. Infact I've done this a million times in my life. I am just too tired and busy right now to take the mental energy to come up with a specific plan for the brief psychotherapy, or do that work myself right now, you know?
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. i should probably think about unpacking it, huh?
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Thank you so much for your message. Finally we are all turning a corner, we are all starting to feel better, we can see the light at the end of the tunnel.......I think the multivitamins, good food, and some rest have helped. And the most recent viruses have run their course.
, made some phone calls, and even did aerobics! I haven't had energy like this in awhile! I love these temporary gains made by the meds but in the past they have leveled out some as my body adjusts. Perhaps with the increase to 30 mg though some energy gains will remain. I hope so.
