To the aliens who stole my happy boy

[Pumpkin_Pie]

Give.Him.Back.Now. : Two nights of fevers plus two days of clingy boy on top of about two to three hours of sleep total each night added to nipples that have been sucked raw over the past 12 hours and a little boy who simply cannot sleep have turned this normally patient, loving mama into a yelling, exhausted, crank-o-saurus that I don't even recognize.

I want my sweet boy back. I want to sleep. I want to be able to nurse him without pain. I want sleep (did I mention that?). I want him to stop crying. I want my head to stop hurting. I want him to stop hurting. I even gave him some infant Tylenol, on the off chance that it might help him to get some desperately needed sleep, and it did the exact opposite thing and wound him up so much, he is practically vibrating with excess energy now.

Oh, and the whole "nap when he does" thing? Yeah, can't do that. I have another little boy that I have to take care of today, and I can't have a "sick" day. If I don't work, I don't get paid, and if I don't get paid, the bills don't get paid.

And, the "let your partner have a turn" thing? Yeah, can't do that either. I have no partner. As much as I love being a single mama, just tonight, I so wish I did. I desperately need some help. I would even take a friend right now that I could call in the middle of the night. They all have kids though, so yeah, can't do that either.

I am so tired, I want to throw him out the window and then sit down and throw up and then cry. Please, whoever took my sweet boy away, give him back. NOW.

[matey]

Many hugs mama, that sounds really rough. I wish i could come by and give you a break.

[Grace24]

I hope the aliens bring back your happy boy!

[MamaScout]

Hugs to you, Mama. : This too shall pass. I hope you and your boy get some good rest soon.

[jandj+1]

I hope the aliens bring him back soon.

And I love "crank-o-saurus!" Now I have a word for what I've been in the past week.

[veganone]

I'm so sorry momma. I hope that you both feel better and get some rest soon.

[Pumpkin_Pie]

Just when I thought I was going to give up on being a mama, my dear, sweet boy came back to me last night! We both got an entire night of the most blissful, heavenly sleep that we possibly could have. I woke up this morning, and he even stayed asleep long enough for me to take a leisurly shower! Woo Hoo!

I swear, sometimes I think he knows when I am reaching the end of my rope and he turns into the sweetest baby on earth.

Thanks for the kind thoughts mamas. I am so glad I was able to vent.

[ilikethedesert]

Aw mama. Hang in there. It is really, really hard. Do the best you can. Take lots of deep breaths and by gosh, let the dishes, laundry, vaccuuming and anything else not necessary to basic life needs, go for the day. You will feel better and so will he. Practice proper latching- nose to nipple and off centered. Try warm baths. This WILL pass.
Hugs.