I'm so sad to hear this. In fact, I was looking for your blog the other day and saw it was private.
You have no idea who I am as I'm mainly a lurker. I just wanted to say that without you I'd never have found my son. I saw your link to Chances by Choice on the Adoption Resources sticky thread and the journey began from there (although we didn't utilize Chances for Choice but it allowed me to see what is possible). Because of you I fell in love with AHOPE and I found a precious, precious child who I'm absolutely in love with.
Good luck with your kids and thank you for making a difference!