my sinuses have been killing me all day...it feels like my face is going to explode. Jake is still sick and still wanting to nurse constantly and unfortunately the boobies are very very sore.
so I nursed him this morning when he woke up, and at the time his nap would have ended had he taken one (long story) and it started off bad immediately. I could tell I made a big mistake by not blowing my nose first...the pressure in my nose (and around my eyes) just increased more every moment. Jake kept hitting me and even once shoved his leg into my shirt and kicked me in the face. and always always that pressure from his top teeth...
eventually I had had enough...it wasn't a longer session (only about 7 minutes) but it felt like forever. I unlatched him and he immediately began throwing a fit. he threw himself all over...and I didn't realize until it was too late that he was throwing himself at ME. so now I have a huge bruise on my forehead from the back of his head. unfortunately that was just my breaking point. I went into the bathroom to pee and just cried adn cried. I'm not even sure why I cried. I lost another glob of disgusting crap and cried some more.
and ya know..I don't feel one little bit better.
so I nursed him this morning when he woke up, and at the time his nap would have ended had he taken one (long story) and it started off bad immediately. I could tell I made a big mistake by not blowing my nose first...the pressure in my nose (and around my eyes) just increased more every moment. Jake kept hitting me and even once shoved his leg into my shirt and kicked me in the face. and always always that pressure from his top teeth...
eventually I had had enough...it wasn't a longer session (only about 7 minutes) but it felt like forever. I unlatched him and he immediately began throwing a fit. he threw himself all over...and I didn't realize until it was too late that he was throwing himself at ME. so now I have a huge bruise on my forehead from the back of his head. unfortunately that was just my breaking point. I went into the bathroom to pee and just cried adn cried. I'm not even sure why I cried. I lost another glob of disgusting crap and cried some more.
and ya know..I don't feel one little bit better.
Get that emotion out.
he's so miserable...if he's not breathing easier by monday i'm going to try to get him in...I'm going to add the stupid pulmicort to his nebulizer tomorrow if it doesn't help...he's had 4 treatments today and he doesn't sound ANY better yet.
