Let me preface this by saying it's taken a lot of healing to post this "out loud." I'm going through chakra energy healing right now- then seeing The Vagina Monologues last night, I want to get this healed either physically and mentally- or just mentally.
I have some questions.
I've had a Csection, a VBAC, and a 2VBAC waterbirth. My last birth was in 2002. After the birth, my midwife asked if I'd like to be stitched. After she told me it was about an inch tear and a skid mark beyond that, with her encouragement I decided against being stitched (also because I was in pain from the shoulder dystocia of a 9+ lb baby). I healed in a couple weeks. Then, I squated. I ripped open. Not simply a little rip- but wide open. I went to my two week check up and she said it was too late to do anything. I had healed open.
Ive not been happy since then with my vagina. I have no feeling at all around and below my vaginal opening. Nothing. I'm "gaping" the entire perineum and intercourse is not at all enjoyable to me. I have no natural lubrication.
I just discovered that this really is an issue with some women. I found "Perineoplasty" as an option. I'm not fond of altering my body but my sexuality is hugely affected by this. I'm often uncomfortable. I even have sharp pangs of pain in that area too. I don't want to be too graphic but I have extra scar tissue and a pocket in my vaginal opening. I'm really unhappy. I don't usually whine about my vagina.......
Any thoughts? Any advice?
I have some questions.
I've had a Csection, a VBAC, and a 2VBAC waterbirth. My last birth was in 2002. After the birth, my midwife asked if I'd like to be stitched. After she told me it was about an inch tear and a skid mark beyond that, with her encouragement I decided against being stitched (also because I was in pain from the shoulder dystocia of a 9+ lb baby). I healed in a couple weeks. Then, I squated. I ripped open. Not simply a little rip- but wide open. I went to my two week check up and she said it was too late to do anything. I had healed open.
Ive not been happy since then with my vagina. I have no feeling at all around and below my vaginal opening. Nothing. I'm "gaping" the entire perineum and intercourse is not at all enjoyable to me. I have no natural lubrication.
I just discovered that this really is an issue with some women. I found "Perineoplasty" as an option. I'm not fond of altering my body but my sexuality is hugely affected by this. I'm often uncomfortable. I even have sharp pangs of pain in that area too. I don't want to be too graphic but I have extra scar tissue and a pocket in my vaginal opening. I'm really unhappy. I don't usually whine about my vagina.......
Any thoughts? Any advice?
