So confused

[Pumpkin_Pie]

My son is 11 months old and I really never get a break, as I am a single mom and I do childcare in my home four days a week. Today, the mama of my daycare babe offered to take DS for a few hours so I could get some baby free time. I had great plans to do my taxes, clean my house, take a nap, etc.

I can't seem to find the energy to get much done, and I really just want to go get him and bring him home. I feel like I am a little pathetic that I can't bear to leave my baby for a few hours. I cry because I never get a break, and now that I have one, I don't really want it.

Has anyone else out there never really left their DC? Am I doing him a disservice in never leaving him with anyone? I did call, and he is playing hard and having a great time there. He even took a nap for her, so I know he is just fine, but I am a wreck. I know I need to just dig in and get housework done, but it is so hard to not have him underfoot. Much harder than I realized, emotionally at least.

[jazzharmony]

There is nothing wrong with not leaving him until you are ready.

[alegna]

I didn't leave dd at all until 18 months. I understand.

-Angela

[Hoopin' Mama]

totally normal.

[Pumpkin_Pie]

Hooray! He's home!!! Apparently, he did absolutely fine, and had a blast playing with his buddy. I definitely was much the worse for the wear. I just want to snuggle my boy for the rest of the evening now.

[raleigh_mom]

My kids are 4yo and 7yo and I'm *still* that way. They do have time away from me since sometime they need it as much as I do, but that doesn't mean it isn't hard. I totally understand.

[Pashie]

OT, Pumpkin Pie, but I LOVE that hat your kiddo is wearing in the second picture. Did you make it?

[Pumpkin_Pie]

Originally Posted by Pashie

OT, Pumpkin Pie, but I LOVE that hat your kiddo is wearing in the second picture. Did you make it?

No, I wish I could say I did, but sadly, no. I do absolutely love it though! I bought it way too big in the hopes that he can wear it again next winter!

[MCR]

I never left Ds#2 as I was home all day and we had no family around. New area, new home, so it was just Dh and myself with the 2 boys, Dh worked all the time. Ds didn't leave me till I went to work part time when he was 18mths old.

[mumm]

I miss my 7 year old when he is at school.
His first year I used to watch him at recess from the parking lot. I thought I was both pathetic and totally normal! I think the bus driver who always saw me thought I was some sicko watching the kiddos!

[HoldensMama]

I've only left my 15mo about 4 times now. Only with his grandparents and only for a couple hours to see a movie. I felt just like you did, that I would rather just be with him and really missed him the entire time.

I'll probably be hanging out in the school parking lot too, someday.

[Pumpkin_Pie]

It is so hard to figure out breaks. I so need them, but then when I get them, I don't want them. I think what I so desperately need is 5 minutes to go to the bathroom in peace, or a half hour to take a bath, or even an extra pair of hands while I cook dinner. Ah the joys of being a single mama.

[ladylove]

Originally Posted by Pumpkin_Pie

It is so hard to figure out breaks. I so need them, but then when I get them, I don't want them. I think what I so desperately need is 5 minutes to go to the bathroom in peace, or a half hour to take a bath, or even an extra pair of hands while I cook dinner. Ah the joys of being a single mama.

I'm married, but I totally feel the same way.

One night, DS actually went to bed at a reasonable hour and then just an hour later, I told DH I missed him. He totally doesn't get it.