wooohoooo it looks like a O'd yesterday, a bit late, but hey who's counting?
will have to see if temp keep climbing and i finally get to be in a TWW, thought i would never get here.
on a personal note i just wanted to share my yesterday with you
(there will be no apologies for TMI, i needed to share)
We packed and closed up a job box trunk that DH was given to send his personal things to Iraq ahead of him. We only found out last minute that he was getting this and so we were not very prepared to make the most of it or deal with it's emotional impact as it sit in the dinning room. It might as well have been a 20 ft tall obelisk with the words "YOU TRUE LOVE IS BEING TAKEN" for the impact it caused.
I busied myself with shopping, gathering and packing, something i do with the same systematic organization that i maintain this list with. We generally made it a nice "together time" and opened a bottle of nice wine and shared stories of the strangest trips or camping we had ever gone on. There was soo much that was NOT said.
As we slipped into bed, both tired and sore (i having a nerve pinchy issue slowly resolving in my upper back, he just got anthrax and typhoid shots, that were killing his arms
) We capped off what has been a wonderfully frisky weekend, with BDing that was so caring, I cry now thinking about it. It was also the very first time that we spoke about the thought that we could actually be starting other lives, right then and there as we lay embraced. It is talk that i have kept separated from BDing as to not spook him and especially to avoid him feeling like a vending machine (something that he had expressed worry about) I slept so well.
When i got my temp jump this morning, I told him what that probably meant as he got ready to go. He took a long moment to crawl back into bed, half dressed in his uniform, and just shared the moment. I love him so much.
He ships out mid Spring.
If this day and night is the memory that i have to look back on as the day we started a family, it would be such a powerful one of love, strength, determination and choice. Even if i get pregnant at some other point this night will always have a spot in my heart.