So in a nutshell here is my story. DH and I started TTC in late 2006. We got pg right away but lost our daughter due to a NTD on 3/16/7, she was still born. It was devastating and we knew we had to TTC again. We got pg right away. My DH out of no where leaves me when I am just 2 months pg for no reason. just "he wasnt happy" crap. Ive gone through the pg all alone not to mention I lost my job no one will hire me pregnant and its been a living hell. Im now on foodstamps wic... you name it. But here is the kicker. Just when I thought he couldnt hurt me anymore he does. Come to find out he got engaged last night. He has only been gone 6 1/2 months and he is ready to shack up with someone already!! I cant believe that he is out buying engagement rings when I dont have money to even eat. I am 9 months pg now and in the last 2 months I have only gained 1/2 a pound. I feel so betrayed that he has done this. I dont know what to do say think or feel. Im numb. i thought the 4 yrs we were together meant something, I thought that the two children we had together meant something as well, and the fact that Im going to give birth in a matter of days I thought meant something as well...but I guess not. His last email to me when I told him I know that he has cheated on me now was "F**k off". I guess i just needed to vent and share my story. I dont know if I can or will trust anyone ever again. I wish there was a way for my child not to have to have this monster in his life.
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3/3/08 at 9:55pm