I'm 38 weeks. And getting kind of cranky. I've been doing a bit of crying today.
I am feeling frightened of pain.
I'm having fewer contractions at this point than in previous pregnancies, but they really HURT. They wrap around and cut into my back. Dh providing counterpressure helps a lot, but I haven't needed much support during labor with my other 3 kids until after my water breaks and I'm in transition. And then it is over so fast.... This time, I am having a lot of trouble not tensing up and fighting the pain. I feel bad cutting into my husband's sleep, but other than a warm bath (which finally did the trick last night), the only thing that is helping me to relax during practice labor is for him to massage me.
I realized on the way home from the kids dr appointments this morning that I need to focus on one contraction, one discomfort at a time. Telling myself that I have two weeks or more of this is just making me panic. It's like the women who freak at the idea of another 8 hrs of labor, get an epidural, and then realize they were in transition. You really just have to focus on getting through the right now.
I am looking forward to meeting my little one so very much. These last few weeks feel so long.