I'd like to join, too. I haven't quite read the whole thread, but the addiction thing really rang true to me. Yesterday was a really bad day. <snip>
...I saw myself from above and realized how I was terrorizing him, how I was like this giant bully pushing him around just because I was bigger than he was (unfortunately this was not at all the first time, but it was the worst ). I felt so so awful about it, I held him and promised him I would never never do that again. And the reason why I was so angry? Ironically, because he was pushing his brother. What on earth am I teaching him?
You did all of that. I'd say you're teaching beautifully.
timneh_mom... I really feel you, too...
(in response to timneh_mom's post)
I feel the same EXACT way. Word for word. Especially about the break thing. I say I need a break but when it is over everything starts all over again. I find myself chanting "This too shall pass" all day long.
Through a little creativity and open-mindedness, we are all able to paint ourselves into the peaceful mother we have resting inside of us like a pearl.
Keep coming back... keep open... be brave
We're all here for the same reasons.