I'm really sad.

[tolovemercy]

I'm really feeling like labor and birth are foreign things that happen to other people, not me. I don't want to do this anymore. I want to enjoy my life again. Enjoy my DS again. Enjoy eating again, and quit gaining weight, and swelling.
I don't want to be left alone today with my DS today...I am so tired. My DH had yesterday off and is going back to work, and I was just secretly hoping to either be in labor or have had the baby by now. I sometimes find myself forgetting that I'm even having another baby at all--I just want this to be over.

I have my 40wk appointment today, which will be a miserable hour's drive each way. I'm going to ask my Dr. to do an exam to check for dilation, and do a membrane sweep, but I really think he might say no, since he's so non-invasive on principle (though I haven't actually discussed it with him before). Is there any way you think I could convince him?

Anyway, I'm just feeling really, really down today. I know realistically that this will all come to an end eventually and I'll forget that I felt this way, but it doesn't make today any better. It just makes me feel like this is a huge waste of time, and that my family is suffering because i'm. still. pregnant. Thanks for listening to me vent.

[ELKMama]

Just sending a hug... and good wishes for a great labor that starts SOON!

[MonP'titBoudain]

Big cyber hugs!!! I hope your day goes unexpectedly well, blessing you in ways you couldn't imagine! And here's hoping yor labor starts very soon!

[mothernurture2]

hang in there.....it can;t be much longer!

[Jes'sBeth]

I totally understand how you're feeling. Being overdue is NO FUN!

Our midwife is pretty non-invasive as well but still will do membrane sweeps from 38 wks on and actually encourages it because she can only deliver from 37 to 42 wks... Hopefully your doc will listen and your body will kick into high gear soon. HUGS!

[Barefootmystic]

Big hugs to you. I felt exactly the same way the last couple of days!! (today I'm actually on the better side, so there is hope for all of us hormonally dragged through the mud ladies) I'll be sending you : that you'll have a good day as well as have your little one real soon. Hang in there.

[CherryBomb]

[~ani~]

Hang in there Mama, you're doing a great job and your family is so lucky to have you hoping baby comes soon! If it makes things any better, just enjoy those last few days of wiggles and the big soft belly - that's pretty much all I miss about being preggo - but it doesn't last forever and it's so sweet

[kdaisy]

You are not alone!

I swear I could have written your post. Hang in there, that babe has to come out sometime!

[rmzbm]

It's all getting rather old for me too...feeling ya...

[tolovemercy]

ugh, well...that didn't go so well. i asked my OB to check me, and he did, though he did put his quite-befitting disclaimer on the whole deal and reminded me that dilation really means absolutely nothing unless you're in active labor. I sure hope so, because he said I'm only dilated "he'd guess a fingertip" and "pretty ripe". He also said the head was super low, and that he, of course, couldn't tell me if I'd go into labor tomorrow or the next day or next week or in two weeks, but he really didn't think it'd be too much longer. But that means nothing. I cried the whole way home, and some jack@ss wouldn't let me into the lane I needed to get into and I ended up having to take a 20-minute detour because of it. And, I gained like 3 pounds over Easter, so now not only am I more pregnant than I've ever been, but also fatter. I hate this.

[Proudmomoftwinsplusone]

I'm relieved I'm not the only one feeling like this! I am now 5 days overdue. I feel like I will never know what labor is like. At my 40 week appt my midwife couldn't do a sweep because I wasn't even remotely dialated. sigh. I guess i will go dring more rasberry leaf tea. Hang in there!

[Jes'sBeth]

hey... a fingertip dilated and 'pretty ripe' is not nothing!

We're going to get there! Really, we are! It's hard though isn't it. I'm tired of waiting myself. I'm almost 41 wks now. We talked about post date protocols today at my midwife appt. sigh. Nothing like talking about post date stuff to make your blood pressure go up...

[Smokering]

*hugs*

It will happen!

[1hautemama]

I could have written your post too, Mama. I am five days past due, starting to feel like outdated milk. Yesterday i went to a boot camp exercise class at the gym, DTD w/ DH (you done back there, hon?), and then inserted two EPO capsules for good measure. Nothing.All i get is a sore back and gooey panties. Hang in there mama. Our preggo days are almost over.

[avasmomleigh]

Hugs!!
I am there with you. The thought that it will be over does seem foreign this last week. I used to have at least bh ctx, nothing since Sat or so. I'm not due till tomorrow, but I had it in my head that he would come 2 weeks ago so it feels late.

[mysweetw&e]

Awww, . I was feeling exactly the same way last week. Even the realization that the further from my due date I got, the MORE likely I was to give birth that day didn't help. My midwives told me I needed to relax and get in a better mental place, which was true. I was upset at some people, stressed, overtired. . . I think she knew it was not a good time to be born so she was hanging out. They told me to leave the kids with my sister (who was staying with us and helping out) and dh and I should go out just us, and to take a nice bath w/ a glass of wine, relaxing music and candles and whatever really gets me in a good, peaceful place mentally. Never once did they suggest sex or walking more.

It took me a few days but I did those things and at 40w 6d she was born after a peaceful, relaxed, quick labor. (I really need to write/post the story. . . ) I know she really needed me in that place and was just waiting for me to get myself there. I hope you can find that place too, and soon! :